10-17-2018, 03:09 PM
Day 96
E1 has been working well. It's hard to recognize the changes because they are gradual and natural but on reflection it seems I am looking after myself better than ever before. I am gaining an ability to back off, losing the need to control situations. For example, when I am dealing with new people, I am less self-focused and no longer feel the need to impress. I am comfortable remaining quiet in social situations, compared to when I had a tendency to take over conversations due to the approval seeking. Ironically being more comfortable within myself, and losing this need to impress has resulted in people being more friendly and seeking me out.
Another big difference I notice is losing the "all or nothing" mindset. An example of this mindset could be a dieter who eats some junk food, feels like a failure, decides all is lost, and proceeds to continue eating until sick. I had this perfectionist mindset in many areas of life, but now I see how destructive it is, so when I make a "mistake", for the lack of a better word, I simply continue back on the path I'd planned to follow without beating myself up over it.
I've also had multiple positive interactions with my parents recently, compared to the usual resentful/strained/awkward interactions. I put this down to the fact that many of their nuisances' no longer affect me, compared to in the past where I would feel angry and upset. I am beginning to view them more as human beings who have their own set of issues. I can't takes things personally or blame their parenting mistakes on where I am in life. I know I am a man who needs to take personal responsibility for my own actions.
Running E1 this past 96 days has been one of the best things for me. I was ready to let go of some shit, and having the capacity for self-reflection (past vs now), has allowed me to observe some great results. I was sceptical at first but this subliminal has worked amazingly. It's not easy though as during times of resistance it can be tough going - but there's no stopping E1! I read about E2 being a gentler subliminal, but the masochist in me may secretly enjoy this part of the E1 process. Perhaps that's a whole other issue!
I have now completed 2 x 32 days of trickling stream and 1 x 32 days of ultrasonic in between. I am going to return to the ultrasonic track for another 32 days because it feels cleaner and deeper. I am not sure how else to describe it, but I also hope this is OK switching tracks like that, as I assumed it was when using the same subliminal. I may have rehashed some of the same observations in this post, as I have not read through the thread in some time, but I wanted to reflect again and provide more detail after another 32 day cycle.
E1 has been working well. It's hard to recognize the changes because they are gradual and natural but on reflection it seems I am looking after myself better than ever before. I am gaining an ability to back off, losing the need to control situations. For example, when I am dealing with new people, I am less self-focused and no longer feel the need to impress. I am comfortable remaining quiet in social situations, compared to when I had a tendency to take over conversations due to the approval seeking. Ironically being more comfortable within myself, and losing this need to impress has resulted in people being more friendly and seeking me out.
Another big difference I notice is losing the "all or nothing" mindset. An example of this mindset could be a dieter who eats some junk food, feels like a failure, decides all is lost, and proceeds to continue eating until sick. I had this perfectionist mindset in many areas of life, but now I see how destructive it is, so when I make a "mistake", for the lack of a better word, I simply continue back on the path I'd planned to follow without beating myself up over it.
I've also had multiple positive interactions with my parents recently, compared to the usual resentful/strained/awkward interactions. I put this down to the fact that many of their nuisances' no longer affect me, compared to in the past where I would feel angry and upset. I am beginning to view them more as human beings who have their own set of issues. I can't takes things personally or blame their parenting mistakes on where I am in life. I know I am a man who needs to take personal responsibility for my own actions.
Running E1 this past 96 days has been one of the best things for me. I was ready to let go of some shit, and having the capacity for self-reflection (past vs now), has allowed me to observe some great results. I was sceptical at first but this subliminal has worked amazingly. It's not easy though as during times of resistance it can be tough going - but there's no stopping E1! I read about E2 being a gentler subliminal, but the masochist in me may secretly enjoy this part of the E1 process. Perhaps that's a whole other issue!
I have now completed 2 x 32 days of trickling stream and 1 x 32 days of ultrasonic in between. I am going to return to the ultrasonic track for another 32 days because it feels cleaner and deeper. I am not sure how else to describe it, but I also hope this is OK switching tracks like that, as I assumed it was when using the same subliminal. I may have rehashed some of the same observations in this post, as I have not read through the thread in some time, but I wanted to reflect again and provide more detail after another 32 day cycle.
