Subliminal Talk

And I'm very tired today, despite a full night's sleep.

(07-06-2018, 09:20 PM)swisston Wrote: [ -> ]6 loops Hybrid B last night. Had a very clear dream. I was on holiday with my gf, but was set to go of to another resort on my own. However, the instructions to get a boarding pass were just insane and impossible to follow (the screen was the size of an oscilloscope, and the entire thing looked like a 1980s computer game set on a Mexican ranch, with nothing clearly labelled).

I got very frustrated, with a huge queue of people behind me.

Does this mean that my subconscious doesn't actually understand the instructions about how to implement DMSI?

This is the second time that I remember dreaming this.

This would indicate that your subconscious is trying to fall back on "I can't! It's not possible!" But we all know what that is.

So, a better week in terms of compliance. Two nights of US. Two nights where I didn't get the full six loops in.

Switching back to A this week.

Didn't fap yesterday. Too busy today.

I might force myself to do 50 press ups every time I feel like fapping .

You have to take control of your subconscious wants and override them with your conscious wants. At least until I figure out how to do this better in the script.

I'm doing a similar thing. Whenever I feel like eating junk food to soothe my emotions, I eat a bunch of kale.

It's hard tho when you live with a brother who has no trouble with girls and eats nothing but frozen pizzas and doritos and weighs probably 120 lbs. Clearly eating well isn't the "it" factor.

(07-09-2018, 07:29 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]I'm doing a similar thing. Whenever I feel like eating junk food to soothe my emotions, I eat a bunch of kale.

It's hard tho when you live with a brother who has no trouble with girls and eats nothing but frozen pizzas and doritos and weighs probably 120 lbs. Clearly eating well isn't the "it" factor.

Eating well is the "it" factor for those women for whom eating well is the "it" factor. You just haven't encountered them.

It's odd that I show so little restraint in the fapping department, given that I'm pretty strong willed in most other matters.

I have a lot of shame around it, to the point where it's difficult even to mention that it's a real thing that I do.

From reading your thread so far i get the feeling you are terrorified of being alone. If you loose your girlfriend you may feel will have no other options.

This might be thereason why dmsi is not executing. Of course i might be wrong.

(07-09-2018, 10:55 PM)swisston Wrote: [ -> ]It's odd that I show so little restraint in the fapping department, given that I'm pretty strong willed in most other matters.

I have a lot of shame around it, to the point where it's difficult even to mention that it's a real thing that I do.

It's not that you don't have a strong will; it's that your strong will is being directed to thwart DMSI to prevent something (some things?) from happening that you fear at some level. It would be just as hard to fail with DMSI as you are finding it to succeed if you were to be firing on all cylinders instead of fighting it.

(07-09-2018, 11:13 PM)thor2014 Wrote: [ -> ]From reading your thread so far i get the feeling you are terrorified of being alone. If you loose your girlfriend you may feel will have no other options.

Definitely not afraid of being alone, however I am fully institutionalised into my relationship. It's been over 20 years. It's very hard to imagine how that could end. My entire life is structured around it, and a good portion of my identity. No wonder my subconscious is terrified.... it doesn't know who this other person is that I'm asking us to become.

Day 4 of no fap. Horniness is rising, but I don't feel any great desire to fap.

I'm struggling to get Rocket Player to do six loops. Sometimes it goes through the whole playlist, but last night, it would do one loop then stop. I'd wake up and have to start it again. Anyone have any tricks to make it work properly? Is it just a case of closing and restarting the app each time?

VLC is rubbish. Any other suggestions?

Day 5 no fap... Not quite at the point of grinding myself on inanimate objects, but the horn is real. I can feel a habitual pull towards fapping to relieve that tension, but no real desire to do it.

There's a possibility that I might just go mad if this keeps building.

Try foobar, didn't have problems so far but I think it's not as intuitive as other players.

I'm using Foobar, Rocket Player never worked with multiple loops for me.