Stage 1, Day 23:
Got into an argument with someone close to me today. Reason is they asked me to do something small for them and quite frankly I didn’t want to. They got upset and began to express that me saying no bothered them. Here’s where I called them out on their BS because I often have done many small things for this person without them asking as well as big ones. I felt they were being ungrateful. What I noticed during the altercation is that instead of just ignoring what the person said after stating what I had to state and closing myself off, I actually pointed out flaws in their logic in a calm manner and wasn’t the least bit afraid of taking the confrontation to wherever it needed to go. My heart rate wasn’t even as fast as it usually is when I get into conflict with someone. I simply stood my ground and made the other person understand where I was coming from.
The conversation ended with the other person feeling hurt because they felt as if no matter what I asked them for, they’d never say no because of how close we are. I let them know that while their principles were solid, in the situational context, they were being childish. Ultimately through the maturity and wisdom enhancement programming of AM6, I was able to steer the conversation into one where we were finally able to come an agreement and let it all be water under the bridge. Then we went to the gun range to blow off steam lol. This is a good sign that I may not be too crude during stages 2 and 3 when dealing with people, while still playing a leadership role and bringing things to where they need to be at the moment between myself and another person.
Stage 1, Day 24:
Lot of attention from females and one in particular that seemed like she was willing to break her neck to look at me as I passed by lol. Not much else besides that.
Stage 1, Day 26:
This stage has blown by faster than I thought, only 6 days left of it. Mostly feel back to normal, the only thing that has remained consistent With me the past few days is me speaking louder than normal most of the time, and my wife’s rekindled Attraction towards me. I dare to say she’s even becoming clingy, well actually no she just really misses my company when I’m not around but right now she is pretty focused on getting her own business set up.
One big improvement I see also is that when I REALLY want something, I’ll literally stop at nothing to get it. Even when running into roadblocks my mind automatically goes into problem-solving mode, and I absolutely do not stop until I get or achieve what I want. It’s tough for me to take no for an answer. Before I used to just get frustrated and even temporarily quit at certain things. Not these past few weeks though, persistence has been my middle name.
Stage 1, Day 26 update:
STC programming has me wanting to further develop the habit of meditation and further advance my skill and ability to do so. Tools have been purchased to assist with that. Let’s see what happens.
Stage 1, Day 27:
Not sure why or how, but it’s official, listening to AM6 on my earphones for 3 hours or more causes me to sleepwalk. I woke up with a almost empty glass of juice on my night stand, the clothes I went to sleep with had been changed, and once again my earbuds had been taken out of my ears. My room light had also been turned on. As I stated in a previous journal entry, I sleep in a room alone at night with the door locked so no one else could’ve done these things. Looks like I’m better off just listening to AM6 on speakers at night and using earphones during the day.
I don't mean to downplay it at all, but that's funny.
(12-08-2017, 07:00 AM)SargeMaximus Wrote: [ -> ]I don't mean to downplay it at all, but that's funny.
No offense taken, just a lesson learned. I tried alternating between the two Bluetooth devices each night but guess I have to do exactly what I didn’t want to do and wear both out daily. I’m kind of surprised that something can make me sleep walk too.
Stage 1, Day 28:
Today, people that know me say I sound and look different. While sitting down and eating in public before work, a woman stared at me while she was breastfeeding her kid lol. My supervisor says I seem like I have a lot of “fire” about me today as well. Also got a very long stare from a female coworker. She looked away when I said hello.
Stage 1, Day 29:
Pretty open when I’m at work about how I dislike the job but I’m making moves to leave anyway instead of just doing nothing to change it. Won’t get into details but sexual acts were performed between me and the wife for the first time in months. Waking up tired as hell from listening to AM6 all night again and it takes me longer than normal to reach my baseline of energy. Meditation within 15 minutes of me waking up helps speed up the process however. 3 more days to go.
Stage 1, Day 30:
- Both a duck and a little boy came within a foot of me and just stared. These were at seperate times during the day, and both were equally weird. Makes me wonder if I’m generating something in my aura.
- Starting to become more health conscious. I’m doing a fast/detox where I’m only taking in water, prune juice, and ginger tea into my body for the next 36 hours. I’m finding it a breeze to control my food cravings so this could be a self-discipline portion of the programming showing itself.
- I’m finding myself being a bit more impatient with my daughter then I have been the past couple months today, but my level of patience is still much better than what I see with most parents.
- I’m picking up on beta male behaviors from other guys quicker and quicker lately, as a matter-of-fact, I see low value behavior in women very quickly too.
- I find myself lusting after women like I did when I was teenager.
Quote:Both a duck and a little boy came within a foot of me and just stared.
I laughed at the duck part.
Fast forward into a few stages...
"I keep attracting ducks everywhere I go, they really love me and won't leave me alone and groups of them are following me around".
Quick stage 1 Day 30 update. Thought the rest of the day would be uneventful so I posted early but nope. My wife came to pick my daughter up. When she got here she acted strange, kind of depressed. I asked if she was upset about something but she refused to talk about it. She then offered to buy me dinner. I let her stay and watch the baby while I went out to get food. When I get there, I make my order, and the cashier jokes that the price was $100. I joked with her and said my heart almost skipped a beat when she said that.
She says that we didn’t need me dropping in the floor as they need me as a repeat customer. At this point I thought she was just joking but nope. I sat down and my wife texted me that she wanted to spend the night with me, damn lol. There goes my peaceful sleep. Since she seemed depressed I simply told her to get comfortable while I was gone. I get the feeling she was lonely. She made the comment that she really wants to work things out.
I got my food 15 minutes later. When she called my number, the cashier acted unusually glad to see me. Once I told her thanks she said “try not to miss me too much”. I smirked, she said it again like she really wanted me to hear it. After the second time I said “I’ll try not to”. After I said that, she literally screamed “he’s so cute!” So loudly that the whole place heard it. I walked out smirking, I found that random as hell. Got back to my place and my wife pretty much just wanted me to hold her all night.
It's funny how when a man is on the up and up, his ex's come crawling out of the wood work. Be wary though, that depression may or may not be real. In my experience, women are incredible at manipulating just to get the outcomes they want socially.
With this in mind I do hope you make an informed and empowered choice about what your next move is with her.
at least I’d never have to worry about being lonely. I’d be the sexiest duck whisperer alive.