(03-14-2016, 10:07 AM)LiquidMind Wrote: [ -> ]
Haven't been posting for a while because I've been in a bad series of moods for quite some time
Really annoyed, frustrated and pissed off with things in life. I feel the subs are just too much at this point. I'm thinking of giving up SM3 due to the feeling of these moods, they just wont go away. Also haven't had any sex since starting it so I'm unsure if this sub is what I need right now.
I'm even going into deep depresive states and actually had dark thoughts here and there. Not good. I hope this doesn't continue but yeah sm3 really got me down right now and I dont want to carry on feeling this way.
IF anyone else is experincing the dark times on the sub then feel free to weigh in. I don't want to discontinue the subs but this feeling isn't going away any time soon.
Thanks guys
LM
As you are well aware that I am running OF at the moment, but I can relate to the dark thoughts. I have 'em too. I don't have any particular advice for you, but I'd encourage you to introspect upon what you really really want. And if it is sex, I'd further encourage you to go head and push through the run. And if by any chance, it's not just sex, I'd still encourage you to continue because these dark thoughts will prove to be very valuable to you. You will lean towards your darkness sometimes, but eventually, you'll find a balance, that in my opinion is a growth and it is beyond girls and sex. Either way, sex or not, you are growing.
Similar to what Frosted Fake said, with Stage 1 and 2 of WM I was really like "fuck this, it's never going to work". And well look at that compared to my results in my journal recently.
Yeah if you're really getting good results Ben that proves the program works day by day stage by stage set by set we are going to make it
Well guys after a magnificent shitstorm of problems that fell onto my lap I had to quit SM3 for a while to get my life and mind sorted.
I went through bad depression, bad thoughts and a dark period which I never experience before. It was mega bad. The dark thoughts even lead me to thinking about...yeah..that bad.
BUT I have managed to overcome most of it. I wasn't going to let life stop me at a young point in my life. I wanna do what I want, fuck lots of hot bitches along the way and get my life back on track in the best way possible.
So I began SM3 again from scratch. I had no choice but to stop it last time but eh it is what it is. Here's to fucking hot women and living the dream
Stage 1 day 2 so far.
Cheers
Was back in the saddle today with Sm3
a lot of looks from women straight at me is telling me things are looking good.
girl in subway was also trying to expose her ass from the side of the counter and twirling her body etc. my 1.5 run is now in effect. feels good. gonna stick to this thick or thin.
SM3 has me thinking a career as a pimp isn't such a bad idea. More sexual themed jobs like working in a strip club or owning a escort service. SM is making me mega horny. Never had this horniness the first time round.
Shaved my body hair and beard too. Gonna grow my hair out and make it sexy style. Like tied back samurai. I dont seem to suit short hair styles and they're a ball ache to maintain (keep having to visit barbers and style it with various gels and creams and shit etc) sm got me improving my grooming and style lol
Had more looks from women too. All the ugly or unattractive ones (fat, old or fugly) are not responding well but decent looking women seem to be reacting to my presence. This is all good news for me as I don;t want to attract the uglies lol
Nice to be back on the SM band wagon. Also wanted to report some weird ass dreams. Like in the dream im sleeping with women and they're asking if I am seeing other women and i'm just "shut up bitch and suck it" and pull my pants down and she starts sucking. Was a very empowering feeling and felt good. I wanna be like that in my waking life, have a harem of women who I can just order around sexually and do as I please
More to come
LM
Just remember what you want and what you get in life are two different things
I have to ask what do you mean by this?
Do you have any examples?
One thing I must always tell myself is although I'm running SM3, life isn't just about trying to get laid and thinking about women all the time. Ironic but true.
Life is about living a fulfilling life and becoming the better version of yourself each day and loving what you do.
Ego is a very strong enemy and it can ruin a lot of experiences with anything in life. Ego is negative energy manifesting in terms of: pettiness, jealousy, rage, blame, confrontation, arguments, spite, greed.
I choose to let my ego go when running SM3 and see what new things await for me. Do this too. You never know, your results may just change for the better
Peace
LM
I've been reading a lot of books lately like rational male, 48 laws of power (which I've read in the past but a re-read is always good)
My eyes are beginning to open up a little now on the ways of the world. Pretty sore stuff but once you get over it you can use it to get to the top in life.
One thing I've made my mind up about it all is that I'm never ever going to get married LOL in this day and age you may as well rename it indirect slavery
Subs are more about internal repair than external. Care not for women but the feeling of having them wanting you in their lives- Drenching panties.
Have 2 job interviews lined up for this week and next. Got plans in place for what I want to do in the near future. Things are looking good
Some things that's been noticable since restarting sm3 and beginning stage 2 last night
- More looks from women (legit looks too, head spins and double takes)
- Feeling way more confident in myself
- Women brushing past me on purpose (plenty of room for them)
- Sex related dreams
- One woman blatantly made rubbing motions above her vag area whilst looking at me lol
- Super horny as hell
There are smaller occurrences but mostly the same as above.
I've been getting more hours sleep and this has been helping a lot. Like always get sleep you never know what a lack of rest will do to you lol.
Side note - I have also been thinking about the ultimate version of myself. Wanting to improve my wardrobe and work out. Since SM I've been wanting a sexier body and great clothes, nice haircut etc. Basically redefining my image and personality to be a sexy sex magnet. It's been very strong in my mind to do this so I'm definitely going to make arrangements to do this.
When I get a full nights sleep on this sub I can see results but when I get limited hours my brain feels too tired to process the sub. ALWAYS GET GOOD SLEEP
More to come
Ulp..the extra notice and attention from women is increasing exponentially.
Been having a more mature (and unattractive) servant in subway getting friendlier with me everytime I go in. Keeps adding more food specifically to my order and apologising for taking too long when there's a queue and asks me always how my food is. Thing is her assistant who is circa 18-19 years old with a big booty is quite attractive. My beta friend always tries to flirt with her in a very poor fashion and she ignores him. When she serves me shes extra nice.
Neighbourghs making more than necessary conversation with me. Friendly smiles and "hi's". Not many from attractive women though. SM needs to start unloading the hotties in my area.
As well as this things in life have been getting quite good for me so alls good.
Reading 48 laws of power too and its too good to stop reading!
Just had my first night out in a while last night
Met with my mate's friends from work. 3 girls and a guy (and some tag along nerd looking dude)
So through the night my friend's friend is all over me throughout the night. Dancing, touching, hugging, drinking etc. As the night wore on it got more and more.
I'd hear things like "you're so cool" "you're adorable, I love you" "You have a free house right?"
One of her female friends got massively drunk and confronted me in a light hearted way at one stage. Then she came out with this nugget "Well LM I know you well enough and Katie here will f**k you if you want.."
Couldn't really secure the sex as my house certainly wasn't free and it was inconvenient for anything to happen. However the girl wants me to go out tonight and I think she's really pushing for me boning her.
Gotta admit I think SM is beginning to take effect lol
It's funny nothing really happens at home when listening to SM and as soon as you go out...bam! like lots of different things begin manifesting. I'm not sure I'm going to bother going out though. She's pretty average in looks and is in a relationship..
More to come
LM