Subliminal Talk

Stage 4 Day 24

Feeling great and motivated again. Worked several hours on visualisation and goal setting.
Makes me more happy and active then just lying around in bed bored

Stage 4 Day 26

Feeling great and happy. Did some releases on bad and old feelings and anchor myself into the presence. Finally got a new flat, now ready to move to the new city and accept new challenges.
Will be great to start from zero again and reinvent myself

Feeling that i let go more and more of that old bullshit and become a real man

Stage 5 Day 1

Had only one night of the new Stage, but feeling much better again. Had some depression over the last weeks, since new city and job pretty much sucks at the moment and i dont have any sex...
But today i felt more present and not as deep depressed. Also very horny and have alot of thoughts around sex Seem like the SM part is kicking in. Excited what thsi Stage will bring.

Can i run both DMSI and AM together?

Stage 5 Day 2

Feeling good and awake. Easy to get up in the morning and go to work.
I feel motivated to chnage my life and go out meet people, doing sport, train, start new hobbies, but still something holding me back. Its like old fears of being judged and laughed about.

Also i get more and more reactions in the public that people (strangers) talk behind me that i am gay.
Cant explain it but always had this a little but lately its alot more... Its annoying and weakens my selfconfidence....

Also i see all the things other peopel do and have amd wamt it aswell but dont know how.
Facebook is a bitch shows u unrealistic lifes, because u always only see the best

(07-05-2016, 11:33 AM)HorizonPUA Wrote: [ -> ]Stage 5 Day 2

Feeling good and awake. Easy to get up in the morning and go to work.
I feel motivated to chnage my life and go out meet people, doing sport, train, start new hobbies, but still something holding me back. Its like old fears of being judged and laughed about.

Also i get more and more reactions in the public that people (strangers) talk behind me that i am gay.
Cant explain it but always had this a little but lately its alot more... Its annoying and weakens my selfconfidence....

Also i see all the things other peopel do and have amd wamt it aswell but dont know how.
Facebook is a bitch shows u unrealistic lifes, because u always only see the best

Well. Interestingly enough, when 'gay' comments come from strangers; it may be an opportunity to see your 'Alphaness' come out to the surface even stronger.... for example, observing yourself; mannerisms, speech, dress....Perhaps, a time period of objectively seeing yourself as others see you. And consciously, making Alpha-like changes

Stage 5 Day 3

Still dont get the gay comments. Get so many every day... but if i talk with people they all have high respect and try to please me or try to avoid me. Also get alot of looks from girls which nearly eyefuck me sometimes. Maybe i just stand out of the mass and people try to put me down with gay comments.

Anyway, highly motivated and feeling good. Stood up with ease and went running first time sicne a long time. Fells good to do sth for my endurance again

Now its time to relax.

Stage 5 Day 4

Feeling tired and exhausted. Did alot of bad choices in my life but I have to change now and build up my dream life

Stage 5 Day 7

Fucked up big time again...!!!!
Was out on the weekend and had big plans to do some activities, sport and meet new people and get laid. Instead i got really drunk, fucked up with 2 people who i just met, got thrown out of a club because i was so drunk and wasted alot of money on alc. Came back home in the morning and also fucked up with my new flatmates... The last 2 days i was just sleeping and being depressed in my bed while outside tehre are some great festivals and sunshine...
Also let down a fuckbuddy i promised to visit...

Feeling like a big down. I left the last city where i was happy and had a good job and friends and girls for this new city. But i had the city here and the closed minded, weird people here. Also my new job sucks and i am afraid i will loose it soon.

Basically i went from good life to a zeropoint where it cant get much worse.
Need to sleep over it and find a new actionplan to drive my life into a new direction.

Over and out...

Stage 5 Day 8

Still feelin the name, but a strong motivation to change my whole life. I lied to much to myself.

Stage 5 Day 9

Feeling better and in control again. But still so much to do and archive, can be overhelming sometimes.
And i am jelaous, everywhere i look there are beautiful girls and happy couples and i cant get a single girl....

Stage 5 Day 10

Lost my headphones while i slept... So dont knowhow many hours i got. Still i am very tired and exhausted today, need to sleep alot.

Mood is still mixed, i feel i can handle everything, but still depressed and introverted

I have the same thing going on with the introversion and yet the feeling of being able to handle everything. Like, I want to but can't be bothered. Good to see this being pointed out.

Stage 5 Day 12

And again, got drunk on a party.... It sucks i know i have to stop drinking and know its not good for me but i cant... I go to a party and feel unsocial and not in good mood and think ah just one beer and then it ends in me being totaly wasted....
Have to stop t, i cant control my consumption

Missed also my night of subliminals because of this, so not many news. Found out why so many people think i am gay. Its not my outfit/look its more my behaviour.
Seems like alot of girls are attracted to me and alot of people notice me if i walk through a room, but since i am more passiv and shy or sometimes arrogant, its off somehow -> people think I must be gay...

Solution is talk more with people, especially girls, if i have some rare good nights people never come up with the gay bullshit and see me as high status!!!

Stage 5 am and dmsi was a nighmare for me, it could just be v1 im not sure