Stage 3 Day 32
Stages 1-3 summary
And so I'm half-way through Alpha Male program. For me it's a success in and of itself as I've never sticked to any program for as long in my life. I wasn't an easy ride and I'm sure I will experience some hardships as time goes by. Enough of the descriptions though, I'll just run through all bullet points on AM6 sales page and I'll rate every of them depending on my progress through the past stages. Rates from worst to best are -(bad), =(no changes or mixed), +(good), ++(awesome).
= The Naturalizer: Hard to say if it works and I hate it when people use it as an excuse for lack results. Still there are times when I realize that changes came without me noticing.
? Self Optimizing Scripting: No comment.
? HyperSpeed Technology: No comment either.
+ The Optimus Engine V. 2.0: I think I can feel it working as I pursue my goals, I can recognize it from LTU.
= Slipstream Technology: I have lots of resistance, but if most of it is caused by ERPHA Slipstream is not to blame.
- An improved on circle of friends manifestation sequence: Yeah, friends manifestation. Even though I believe I made quite a progress on this from with LTU, AM6 seem to revert it all. For past 3 months I met no one I'd consider a friend nor my bonds with old ones are stronger. I've heard it kicks in during 4-6 stages and I'm curious how it goes.
+ Self forgiveness
+ Forgiveness of others without allowing them to walk on you or mistreat you: Recent events show me it works.
= Letting go of the past: ERPHA kicks me with past all the time.
+ Maturity improvement: Every person I've asked confirms I'm more mature, and it's also how I feel.
+ Wisdom enhancement
+ Self healing, emotionally and mentally: Scars hurt as hell, but that's what healing process is all about, right?
+ Trauma and abuse healing
= Supply your own love, affection and attention: I need to work on that, especially since I felt it much stronger with LTU.
+ Overcome any victim mentality you may have when you start the program: For what I've done I take responsibility and I learn from what others have done.
= Refuse to justify actions that are not moving you forward, or accept that behavior from yourself: With resistance it is hard. But strangely enough I can walk by candies without taking one
= Kill excuses and refuse to accept them from yourself or anyone else: I'm critical to excuses, but unlike candy I'm guilty of taking them.
+ Seek the challenge: Sure, completing those challenges is sometimes problem though.
++ Overcoming guilt, shame and fear: My favorite part of LTU is still present and kicking! Still lots of fear, but shame and guilt are pretty much gone.
= Self validation: I depend way too much on validation from the outside.
= Maximize rate of growth, healing, self improvement and change: It's all happening, but I'd say it's first gear.
? Optimize script to be more comprehensive, more specific and more positive in impact and effects: No comment.
? Optimize scripting for [surprise! You’ll have to use the program to discover what this one is]: Didn't got there yet, but I'm curious if it will have any effect one me.
+ Improved scripting for overcoming procrastination: I can make things done, but I'm far from productive yet.
- Approaching focus, for making it easier to approach others, especially attractive females: Yeah, I still lose at this game.
= Approval seeking destruction: I've never been approval seeker, but it didn't decrease this winter.
+ Self empowerment/self empowering: I have my waves of self empowerment, I just wish they were more frequent.
+ Only works for heterosexual males of at least 18 years of age: That explains why it doesn't affect my roommate.
Sorry, bad joke.
= Have let go of any negative self image, attitudes, thoughts and beliefs about yourself: Depending on day sometimes I feel great about myself, and sometimes I feel worthless. Still lots of negativity in me.
+ Have a powerful, positive sense of self respect, self esteem, self image and self worth.
- Have unshakable self confidence: Not really, lack of confidence is now my greatest issue.
+ Be unaffected by rejection: Unaffected is not the word I'd use, but it is easier.
= Treat women as people to enjoy the company of, without taking them too seriously, needing them, or being easily upset by them: I'd imagine nothing changed in this regard, I've never treated women as f**kdolls like many people here do, as far as I read their journals correctly.
+ Have released expectations towards women, which often lead to bad choices, actions, attitudes, thinking and responses: I feel much more indifferent around women.
+ Be self sufficient and self reliant mentally, emotionally and otherwise: I am my best friend, for better or worse.
+ No longer be, or come across to others as “needy”: Also neediness in other is huge turn-off for me now.
= Take good care of yourself, your hygiene and your appearance, not just because you want to be attractive to beautiful women, but because it makes you feel good about yourself: I can survive three days without shower if I only need to go to the store on that day, so no progress. Arguably I dress better though.
- Be able to effortlessly approach any woman you want – and the more attractive you find her, the easier it will be: I wasn't doing any approaching exercises lately, but whenever I wanted to approach I was blowing it. I need more confidence first.
= Be selective about whom you spend your time with, and which women you give your time, interest and affections to: Not much to choose from.
++ Exude an aura of confidence, commanding presence and authority, which gets you respect, attention and obedience: I must admit people are more respectful to me, I don't need to raise my voice when I arguing.
= Exude an aura of sexiness that makes you much more attractive to the beautiful women you encounter. The more beautiful they are, the more attracted and interested they will be: I get more looks, but nothing that would really support the claims. I'll wait till next stages for that I think.
+ Have a Zen attitude, which keeps you calm when other guys would lose control, thus demonstrating your self control and mastery of the situation – an Alpha male trait: It's easier for me to stay calm, but it's not worth much when I'm often angry anyway.
= Display graceful, confident body language, which broadcasts your power and dominance to all, but especially females (for whom body language is a very important way of communicating, and thus determining the men they are interested in): I notice sometimes that my body language is changing (me watching Sons of Anarchy recently had a lot to do with it), but it's still not quite it.
? Display the attitude, thinking, actions and speech patterns of an Alpha Male: Hard to evaluate. If you saw me on the street you'd call me out for beta for sure.
+ No longer seek approval from others, nor be concerned with what they think of you or what you do or say: Talked about it already.
= Be your own man, who does what he wants, when he wants, how he wants, where he wants: If not for the fears I still have it'd might have actually be plus.
= Be in control when dealing with women, and especially beautiful women or women you are interested in: Didn't had much to deal with here, so no comment.
= Be entirely unconcerned about “getting the girl” or achieving sexual interaction, which will make the ladies perceive you as higher status, higher value, and more worthy of both: No easy summary here, I'm not interested in having girlfriend for social validation, but I still long for romance.
+ Be easily able and willing to walk away from people and situations you don’t like, and TELL HER NO — whether it’s to her asking for sex or anything else: If I don't like what I'm seeing I get the funk out
= Be in complete control of yourself and your environment, and YOU will be the one who controls when, how, and with whom you have sex: Yeah, my masturbation schedule is completely up to me.
- Develop and display a fantastic sense of humor, which will make you socially popular and attractive to others, especially beautiful women: My sense of humor didn't get any better.
- Be entirely comfortable in social situations of any type, whether they are familiar to you or not: Unless it's something work or studies related I'm as awkward as I can only be.
? Be a better, higher and more refined quality of man: I dare not to cast that judgement onto myself. I'm trying though!
+ Acceptance of, and feelings of reservedness of, being treated well: They better do!
+ Deserving respect from others.
= Self love and liking yourself: Mentioned it before, I felt it much stronger with LTU.
= Valuing yourself
+ Extended ego balancing: I wouldn't rate it, but people seemed to point into this one.
= Strong, centered masculinity and masculine presence: Sometimes it works, sometimes it ain't.
- Destruction of negativity within you concerning yourself and others, and replacement with positivity: I've lost a lot of that attitude since LTU.
+ Self acceptance with continual striving to be better than you are
= Destruction of laziness
+ Motivation boost
+ Doing what needs to be done, because it needs to be done, and that is the way of the Alpha: Often feel that way.
- Extroversion enhancement and training
+ Self forgiveness
- Social stability, skill and strength: Stability sure, skill and strength not so much.
= Overcome abandonment issues
+ Success training
= Gratitude: I notice a lot I'm not grateful. I must work on it.
+ Self trust
+ Self image of man, instead of boy
= Leadership training and development: I've never felt like a leader.
+ Decisiveness training
? Authenticity and congruence training
= Destruction of jealousy and possessiveness, and replacement with self security, self reliance and self satisfaction
+ Constant self growth and progress
? And more!: I sure hope so
To sum up as you can see "+" and "=" dominated. There are some "-", but I think they are mostly due to switch from LTU to AM6 and I do hope those will even out. Also I hope my social play will get better in next 3 stages, I really wanted to see improvement in those when I started AM. Other than that changes are slowly showing up and I'm determine to complete this program and probably rerun it in 2015-16.
