The days off have been pretty stable.
The power of now has been helping.
Also, some dietary changes have been dramatically helping me. More so than I thought could be possible when dealing chemically with cortisol and serotonin as well as other factors. The dietary changes have also changed how I respond to fear so finding out about these dietary changes might still have their origins in OF.
More dreams although I can't quite remember them.
Tonight is another night on, let's do this.
Yesterday I felt a bit dissociated but the recognition of it is an improvement because I was in a highly dissociated state for quite a while before OF so I just recognized it and kept going. Even the awareness of it is good because it means change.
While the diet and power of awareness have been helping on a conscious level, OF has been digging deep. Brushed up against the fear of intimacy yesterday but the response was minor to nonexistent. Multiple dreams a night but I don't remember them and that's fine. With the sub the dreams are going to happen and process without my conscious involvement anyways.
Periods of relaxation or peace are more frequent in occurrence and duration.
Just letting it all happen is creating a sense of peace. Most likely due to the fear that spurred on my need for "control" in my life being dealt with.
Finding some very primordial fears peeling back. The one that caught my attention was the "The world is a scary place" fear. It got hit quite hard and so did some other fear that had me feel very alone in this world. I'm starting to feel like I want to be in this world, most likely I even chose to come here. I also feel more provided for and these 2 feelings are just starting to emerge today. OF is hitting some deep stuff and I didn't even know it.
Yesterday was so so and today was pretty good. Nothing to report as far as realizations or anything like that.
As of this cycle i'm going to increase my days on by 1; making it 3 on 3 off. I feel like auto config is pushing me this way so I'll experiment and see what happens. Fatigue has been minor to non existent on this sub which is pretty nice. This might be the first time auto config has triggered in me. Most of the time I decide mentally without auto config input or just run the instructions. Will be running OF tomorrow night.
3 days on was good. I also got the urge to add a loop per night so I did. I was a little concerned that that would overwhelm and I would stonewall the program but when I tried to remove that loop I got a strong no. Hopefully, this is not a tactic to derail results but I'll trust myself for now and observe the results.
First day off of 3 today. Overall I felt pretty good today and fear wasn't really on the radar all that much.
The last night on I really felt like some of the pieces are coming together in my life right now and I understand some of the information and how it pieces together and really began to feel a sense of trust in whatever this thing is we call existence. Existential dread is greatly reduced and feelings of depression are almost nonexistent.
A whole lot of things are changing in my life now and all of them are good. I'm excited to see this program is still having an effect on me and I also understand how to allow subs to execute to effect better than ever. It's a knowing feeling more than an intellectual approach. The mind cannot fix the problems of life for it is the cause of most of them.
Upon review of my previous runs of subs, I can feel how fear has blocked a lot of execution of subs, especially DMSI. It's an outside-looking-in kind of feeling that is different than the feeling of being in the throes of fear. Having some distance from fear makes it abundantly clear how much I sabotaged my subliminal runs and I'm curious to see what will happen after a full run of OF.
Also feeling comfortable disconnecting or forgetting about my body. I'm not entirely sure what fear caused it and I'm not sure it matters anyways. This issue has tripped me up in meditation and spiritual pursuits for quite some time now but now I feel ok with forgetting about my body.
This version of OF is really something. I have yet to find my "plateau" on it and if Shannon is correct about the variable power output on an as-needed basis ability of OF I may never find the point that this sub will stop working for me. I really hope so because having some distance between me and fear has been a breath of fresh air.
starting another 5 loop 3 days on cycle tonight. Let's do this.
I had 3 dreams last night. I usually do not remember any of my dreams so it's quite interesting to me.
The first one I barely remember but it had to do with sexuality. The second was about intimate connections. I remember talking to someone and it was very pleasant as we had a very deep connection. The third one had to do with something about going back to the day I graduated high school and starting life back there again.
All have 3 dreams are significant and the state of my feelings, both emotional and not, are different today. I think those dreams will have long-standing, if not permanent changes in me.
I'm surprised by this version of OF. It has been easier than all prior versions and exponentially more effective. I cannot pinpoint any specific difficult day that has its primary cause due to subconscious resistance to OF.
Dude.... OFv4 v6.1 FRM DRS, included is Bad ass..... Go Chris !! awesome Man. Good Friday and weekend to Ya.
Everything from my BaseChakra to My Crown Chakra...this puppy is affecting things on many levels...at such a pace that its quite do-able...like riding a good surf....loving da curls....geez....amazing!!
(08-19-2022, 06:59 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]I had 3 dreams last night. I usually do not remember any of my dreams so it's quite interesting to me.
The first one I barely remember but it had to do with sexuality. The second was about intimate connections. I remember talking to someone and it was very pleasant as we had a very deep connection. The third one had to do with something about going back to the day I graduated high school and starting life back there again.
All have 3 dreams are significant and the state of my feelings, both emotional and not, are different today. I think those dreams will have long-standing, if not permanent changes in me.
I'm surprised by this version of OF. It has been easier than all prior versions and exponentially more effective. I cannot pinpoint any specific difficult day that has its primary cause due to subconscious resistance to OF.
This is great. I've had dreams most nights too. One was sexually themed, and I feel like I'm becoming a more relaxed and confident version of myself.
(08-19-2022, 10:34 AM)Sky Wrote: [ -> ] (08-19-2022, 06:59 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]I had 3 dreams last night. I usually do not remember any of my dreams so it's quite interesting to me.
The first one I barely remember but it had to do with sexuality. The second was about intimate connections. I remember talking to someone and it was very pleasant as we had a very deep connection. The third one had to do with something about going back to the day I graduated high school and starting life back there again.
All have 3 dreams are significant and the state of my feelings, both emotional and not, are different today. I think those dreams will have long-standing, if not permanent changes in me.
I'm surprised by this version of OF. It has been easier than all prior versions and exponentially more effective. I cannot pinpoint any specific difficult day that has its primary cause due to subconscious resistance to OF.
This is great. I've had dreams most nights too. One was sexually themed, and I feel like I'm becoming a more relaxed and confident version of myself.
Me too. I feel like all those dreams were permanent resolutions to some issues. I guess we'll see what that looks like on the next off cycle.
Fear and the mind are a Gordian knot. It's best to just cut through it instead of try to unravel it. Until now I did not think it was possible to deal with fear so effectively but with all this change I can see it's possible.
Had a flare up of anger towards my dad today which resolved quickly, and quite possibly permanently as well. Anger hides pain, lean into it and see what's there.
(08-19-2022, 08:28 AM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ]Dude.... OFv4 v6.1 FRM DRS, included is Bad ass..... Go Chris !! awesome Man. Good Friday and weekend to Ya.
Everything from my BaseChakra to My Crown Chakra...this puppy is affecting things on many levels...at such a pace that its quite do-able...like riding a good surf....loving da curls....geez....amazing!!
Thanks, man. Enjoy your weekend as well.
Yea, this is something special. Once again I'm glad I kept going with subliminals or I never would be in this wonderful position.
Woke up with the headphones off of my head and was unsure of when it happened so I started from the 2nd loop out of 5.
Seems like I played too many loops as I am pretty tired today.
probably went overboard with loops as I wasnt sure where I left off 2 nights ago, feeling pretty tired and a little apathetic today. 1st day off tonight and I might take an extra one depending on how I feel at the end of the 3 days off.
(08-21-2022, 04:02 PM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]probably went overboard with loops as I wasnt sure where I left off 2 nights ago, feeling pretty tired and a little apathetic today. 1st day off tonight and I might take an extra one depending on how I feel at the end of the 3 days off.
Hey Chris, you have done all the OF's. What is the difference between OF v3 which is great and OF v4. Please explain?