Been a while since I update.
I thought to have a period of time where I attempt to not observe the changes OF is doing in me to see if it would be more effective to not observe the changes. While OF still made strides at times it felt like an attempt to resist OF to a degree as well. Forgetting to run it and a feeling of attempting to ignore/disassociate with it also happened.
So last night for the first time I also ran the hybrid version for 3 loops. Not sure if it is possible long term but I'm experimenting because I feel in a slight rut with OF which could be a sign of subconscious boredom. Time will tell.
I should note that an increase in my ability to feel my feelings and access to my subconscious has occurred over the time I've not updated. Noticeably playing hybrid for 3 loops last night for the first time has dramatically increased the awareness of the thought/emotion connection. Most times I would be oblivious to how my thoughts affect my feelings and vice versa. I think that I have been disconnected from my feelings due to fear of them if that's possible. My feelings were constantly negative so eventually they were cut off or I just got used to them and the negative state, probably the latter.
Now I feel like I have a more conscious ability to access my subconscious. It's just an awareness at this point but I think it'll be a useful skill in the future.
Running hybrid but havent been able to make a really good observation of it despite knowing that it's quite powerful.
I'm not sure, as is always the case, but I think that the subconscious can "retreat" to layers of itself to avoid executing Subliminals. Hybrid hits multiple "layers" at once and seems to cut off some sneaky forms of resistance.
Again I have no idea, but it kind of feels that way.
So the moment I decided I'm going to run Maverick I start getting TID.
I have no timeframes as to when as I am running OF until I find a good stopping point. It is still working and hybrid is a good format as far as I can tell.
Makes me wonder how far TID can reach now.
When it comes to OF hybrid I'm finding less is more. I dropped from 5 loops on US down to 3 loops of hybrid. Not only that but for me effective hybrid volume is lower than ultrasonic. If I had to put it in numbers I think it's around 15% less volume. I found out very quickly that I was being overwhelmed by hybrid at the same volume I was playing US. When I reduced the volume I could feel myself engaging with the sub again.
I also feel that hybrid is digging deeper than ultrasonic did. All in all hybrid is going good with minor changes.
With more and more fear being cleared out my disposition is shifting more towards inborn positive traits. Peace and happiness are never that far off anymore.
Reading Carl Jung's Synchronicities for the first time. The fact I am reading this book seems to be a synchronicity itself as it is helping explain and validate some things. This is allowing OF to work and open parts of me that I have closed off.
Wow
(11-22-2022, 09:49 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]So the moment I decided I'm going to run Maverick I start getting TID.
I have no timeframes as to when as I am running OF until I find a good stopping point. It is still working and hybrid is a good format as far as I can tell.
Makes me wonder how far TID can reach now.
What are you getting in terms of TID from Maverick?
(12-05-2022, 05:48 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (11-22-2022, 09:49 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: [ -> ]So the moment I decided I'm going to run Maverick I start getting TID.
I have no timeframes as to when as I am running OF until I find a good stopping point. It is still working and hybrid is a good format as far as I can tell.
Makes me wonder how far TID can reach now.
What are you getting in terms of TID from Maverick?
TID from Maverick was all in the form of strikingly different trains of thought compared to normal. I wrote a brilliant (at least in my estimation) excerpt in your now-deleted journal. Sadly I did not copy it and the wayback machine doesn't cover all the pages of your journal so there I am unable to retrieve it. The TID has actually settled down now as I committed to running OF till I find a "completion" point. This was interesting to me because I was dealing with different future possibilities and experiencing their effects and my decision, quite unsurprisingly changed which future "line" I found myself on. Anywho; TID from Maverick was noticeably self-sufficient and actualized. It was marked by clarity of thought and the removal of the "voices" of others in my thinking, something that I did not know was there in the first place. These "voices" seem to have been adopted by my person, most likely from a young age and parroted in my own thoughts all the while not really being my own thoughts. They seem to, in my case, serve as a limiter of sorts as well as a possible concept of externally imposed morality? I am not sure fully as the TID is not happening anymore.
Self-actualization was another undercurrent. I seemed to be un or subconsciously supported by my true self and it's expression. This appeared to push me in a direction while assuming it to be a foregone conclusion. Confidence of self I have never known.
There was this skepticism for normal culture and society and an assumption that it was a limiting factor more than a positive one. This sense of having to give up too much of myself to fit in with the rest of society was present and I felt like to relate to the average person I had to sacrifice to much of myself. I was very critical of these concepts and found any sort of desire to fit in with the crowd non-existant.
I felt a deep sense of providence; like every step was provided for and a deep sense of meaning for life. I believed that we all have a purpose and that purpose is "fully funded". A leap of faith to become didn't seem difficult or scary, it felt as natural as could be.
This is as much as I can remember since it has been a while since I experienced TID from Maverick. Between Duke.togo's description and my own TID it felt like my dream sub. If the TID is to be believed I most likely would pick that sub from any of the subs you have or will make save for HOY as youth levels of hormones is one of the foundations of health and longevity and probably the anti-aging sub when it comes out.
3 loops of hybrid are probably too much. I've been getting some serious breakthroughs but on the 3rd night of playing OF hybrid I'm sleeping for 11-12 hours. Going to drop the loops to 2 and see what happens.
Hybrid has been giving me breakthroughs too. I do four loops at 2 days on 4 days off and it’s been doing me well.
Are you still using ASR with this program? Has it increased your results?
(12-10-2022, 10:30 PM)Frosted Wrote: [ -> ]Hybrid has been giving me breakthroughs too. I do four loops at 2 days on 4 days off and it’s been doing me well.
Good to hear! Hybrid is a whole different beast compared to Ultrasonic or Masked track and it's going to take some redialing for me personally but it's good to hear that you're getting breakthrough on it and found your sweet spot.
(12-11-2022, 04:32 AM)StridingStrider Wrote: [ -> ]Are you still using ASR with this program? Has it increased your results?
I stopped using ASR quite a while ago. I found it to be a little turbulent and immediately found a sense of subconscious relief from stopping it. I now only use ASR if I've had a really rough day and so far that has only been once.