Pages: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Wow, she's cooperating well and it almost seems like running away by proxy, as it may not be her decision. Has the 'running away' moved to a new level?
These are just thoughts that occurred to me. They may have no merit whatsoever, but thoughts they are.
Interesting stuff, and I'm sure the best/optimal outcome will happen for you both.
(07-23-2020, 12:27 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (07-23-2020, 12:22 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ] (07-23-2020, 09:19 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Very tired today, but still able to work. Caffeine.
GF complaining about her teeth hurting. Refuses to go to the dentist. I told her we would switch to MIR3 until she gets paid again. She fought me tooth and nail not to stop OF. That's a change! When I met her, she was fighting me to keep her fears. Now she's fighting me to kill them. Looks like progress to me!
Curious question...here.... when you say We would switch to MIR3,does that mean that she will be back on it,exclusively or the two of you,and also are you still using UMS1,some what or OF exclusively,Shannon?
Circumstances dictate that whatever is used, we both use it at the same time. We therefore do what it takes to deal with whatever needs are most prominent for either of us. So if she has an infection, I am running MIR. If I can't breathe, she is running MHS. And so on.
However, for the time being she is refusing to get off OF, so... we are still using OF. If I conclude that she actually does have an infection in her teeth, we are going on MIR until she can get to a dentist, and I don't care what she says.
Why couldn’t she use MIR and you continue to use OF?
(07-23-2020, 03:02 PM)THolt Wrote: [ -> ] (07-23-2020, 12:27 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (07-23-2020, 12:22 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ] (07-23-2020, 09:19 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Very tired today, but still able to work. Caffeine.
GF complaining about her teeth hurting. Refuses to go to the dentist. I told her we would switch to MIR3 until she gets paid again. She fought me tooth and nail not to stop OF. That's a change! When I met her, she was fighting me to keep her fears. Now she's fighting me to kill them. Looks like progress to me!
Curious question...here.... when you say We would switch to MIR3,does that mean that she will be back on it,exclusively or the two of you,and also are you still using UMS1,some what or OF exclusively,Shannon?
Circumstances dictate that whatever is used, we both use it at the same time. We therefore do what it takes to deal with whatever needs are most prominent for either of us. So if she has an infection, I am running MIR. If I can't breathe, she is running MHS. And so on.
However, for the time being she is refusing to get off OF, so... we are still using OF. If I conclude that she actually does have an infection in her teeth, we are going on MIR until she can get to a dentist, and I don't care what she says.
Why couldn’t she use MIR and you continue to use OF?
Because we sleep in the same bed. We have to use our subliminals at night. And neither of us can sleep using sleep phones.
Yesterday, I relied very heavily on caffeine to make me functional enough to work through the exhaustion. To be sure, I was very surprised that it even worked. I took myself to the limits of what I can handle, and it worked and I was very productive. However, today, I find myself even more surprised that the majority of the exhaustion is simply gone.
I still feel tired, but I am not exhausted.
This gives me hope. I am hoping this means that whatever was being resisted has been dealt with, and I can now move on with achieving things. I thought this exhaustion would take a month to get through!
Today I went to the mall for lunch. While I was there I saw a tall slender woman wearing flare leg jeans. Most people can't pull those off, but she was doing it beautifully. I walked over and complimented her and asked if they were flare leg or bell-bottom, and then bid her good day as I was walking to my car.
And then I realized that I had just done something, without even thinking about it, that I normally would never have done. So apparently, OF kills approach anxiety...
I'm also seeing some effects which I can't tell if they are OF or TID from LTU6, but they're affecting both me and GF in two different very positive ways and I am very happy with them.
Love this program!
(07-24-2020, 01:36 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Yesterday, I relied very heavily on caffeine to make me functional enough to work through the exhaustion. To be sure, I was very surprised that it even worked. I took myself to the limits of what I can handle, and it worked and I was very productive. However, today, I find myself even more surprised that the majority of the exhaustion is simply gone.
I still feel tired, but I am not exhausted.
This gives me hope. I am hoping this means that whatever was being resisted has been dealt with, and I can now move on with achieving things. I thought this exhaustion would take a month to get through!
Today I went to the mall for lunch. While I was there I saw a tall slender woman wearing flare leg jeans. Most people can't pull those off, but she was doing it beautifully. I walked over and complimented her and asked if they were flare leg or bell-bottom, and then bid her good day as I was walking to my car.
And then I realized that I had just done something, without even thinking about it, that I normally would never have done. So apparently, OF kills approach anxiety...
I'm also seeing some effects which I can't tell if they are OF or TID from LTU6, but they're affecting both me and GF in two different very positive ways and I am very happy with them.
Love this program!
Shit man,Im happy for ya...how powerful this stuff REALLY IS...wow. that which 'is' and that which 'is becoming' that which is forming. wow. As I was doing my laps today, right after my 6 hour 12 minute run of OF,I thought,how incredible UMS2 will be with FRM geared toward the goals of UMS2 and DRS,plus goodness knows what all else by then,and platinum build... with all this powerful new development stuff....dang man,this "Berg is Hoppin'!" good weekend to yawl,Floridians!!
(07-23-2020, 03:51 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (07-23-2020, 03:02 PM)THolt Wrote: [ -> ] (07-23-2020, 12:27 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (07-23-2020, 12:22 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ] (07-23-2020, 09:19 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Very tired today, but still able to work. Caffeine.
GF complaining about her teeth hurting. Refuses to go to the dentist. I told her we would switch to MIR3 until she gets paid again. She fought me tooth and nail not to stop OF. That's a change! When I met her, she was fighting me to keep her fears. Now she's fighting me to kill them. Looks like progress to me!
Curious question...here.... when you say We would switch to MIR3,does that mean that she will be back on it,exclusively or the two of you,and also are you still using UMS1,some what or OF exclusively,Shannon?
Circumstances dictate that whatever is used, we both use it at the same time. We therefore do what it takes to deal with whatever needs are most prominent for either of us. So if she has an infection, I am running MIR. If I can't breathe, she is running MHS. And so on.
However, for the time being she is refusing to get off OF, so... we are still using OF. If I conclude that she actually does have an infection in her teeth, we are going on MIR until she can get to a dentist, and I don't care what she says.
Why couldn’t she use MIR and you continue to use OF?
Because we sleep in the same bed. We have to use our subliminals at night. And neither of us can sleep using sleep phones.
Hi Shannon,
May I ask what 'infrastructure' you use when sleeping, if you don't use sleeping phones? Classic stereo loudspeakers, bluetooth or WLAN speakers?
Thanks!
(07-24-2020, 08:22 PM)firsthelix Wrote: [ -> ]Hi Shannon,
May I ask what 'infrastructure' you use when sleeping, if you don't use sleeping phones? Classic stereo loudspeakers, bluetooth or WLAN speakers?
Thanks!
Just play it on my cell phone, on the bedside table.
Last I tried to take a break, GF told me she didn't want to. I tried to anyway. The next 1.5 days were hell. It allowed her fearful parts to dominate, and they were NOT happy. I only went one day off, before I started running it again. The first half of the second day she was very upset also. Then she calmed down and we ended up having her take me on a very expensive date and then seducing me afterwards. Which, I have to say, was quite a nice surprise.
So I haven't had a break since then, few days ago. I'm no longer exhausted by OF. Neither is she. Whatever is going on appears to be a situation where fear removal is in deep process, and the parts of her that are changing are not happy to be changing. As long as we keep using the program, everything is fine. So I guess without exhaustion anymore, I'll just let her tell me when she needs a break, or stop when I need one.
GF reported trouble sleeping and/or staying asleep yesterday. I think she's been having that for the last 5-6 days probably. Says she wakes up several times a night. Obviously having challenges with the fears being worked on, but refuses to switch to listening during the day. Go figure.
Last night I had a dream, of which I remember but little. What I do remember was that I was examining pieces of bone that I had extracted from (myself? someone else?) and they had been coated in some sort of clearish light ambery gray substance I could see through that prevented them from damaging whoever they came out of. There were five of them, and I recognized one of them as being a section of femur, which could only have gotten into (me?) by the original owner being blown up and having that piece of them hit me so hard it got embedded. I don't remember if it was me or not, but I'll presume it was, since I don't remember anyone else in the dream. Anyway, this piece of femur bone was about an inch and a half long, from the center portion, and it was very jagged and sharp on both ends. All of the other bones were of different shapes etc.
Then I was on a bridge and looking through these planters that were on the bridge every so often, and trying to hide something in the corner of each planter to keep it safe for when something happened. I seemed to be trying to make backups of something by doing this. There was old fishing line in the planters and garbage, but no plants.
Then I was back to examining the bone pieces in their encasement. Marveling at how I could have ended up with these things in me. I think they represent old deeply buried hurts or fears which have been deeply embedded in me for a long time, which I could only remove after "making them harmless and inert". Interesting solution.
I am noticing on the 3rd "day off", both my and GF's inner child seems to get upset. I suspect that means that there's not enough impact left to fully calm those parts of us. Maybe should switch to 2 days off; at the same time, not sure I would be "fully rested" if I did that.
I am having a blast with this program. It's made life a lot more fun most days. I am much more comfortable expressing myself instead of hiding what I want to say or do, but I never end up doing things that are unacceptable, either. GF has started expanding her horizons for a lot of things too. She used to be very specific about what she would try to buy for her reseller's business, and now she's started branching out into new areas that she's recognizing as being growth. It has her excited and very proud. I love seeing her happy and growing.
She also is having car trouble lately, and has decided that her 23-year old car needs to be replaced. She can't replace it just yet, so she's now asking me to show her how to drive my car, which is a SUV. Much bigger than what she's used to; before she was too scared to try to drive it. Now she's reminding me, "Hey, I need you to take me out and show me what's different about driving your car so I can drive your car instead of having you drive me everywhere."
Now if you've never dealt with driving anxiety, that may seem ridiculous, but having had it myself when I started, I can tell you, it's paralyzing. So to see her doing this with no prodding from me is nothing short of amazing! She's also overcoming her phone anxiety, as well. OF 5.75G is definitely worth more than what it's priced at, as far as I can tell.
(08-03-2020, 10:23 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]I am noticing on the 3rd "day off", both my and GF's inner child seems to get upset. I suspect that means that there's not enough impact left to fully calm those parts of us. Maybe should switch to 2 days off; at the same time, not sure I would be "fully rested" if I did that.
I am having a blast with this program. It's made life a lot more fun most days. I am much more comfortable expressing myself instead of hiding what I want to say or do, but I never end up doing things that are unacceptable, either. GF has started expanding her horizons for a lot of things too. She used to be very specific about what she would try to buy for her reseller's business, and now she's started branching out into new areas that she's recognizing as being growth. It has her excited and very proud. I love seeing her happy and growing.
She also is having car trouble lately, and has decided that her 23-year old car needs to be replaced. She can't replace it just yet, so she's now asking me to show her how to drive my car, which is a SUV. Much bigger than what she's used to; before she was too scared to try to drive it. Now she's reminding me, "Hey, I need you to take me out and show me what's different about driving your car so I can drive your car instead of having you drive me everywhere."
Now if you've never dealt with driving anxiety, that may seem ridiculous, but having had it myself when I started, I can tell you, it's paralyzing. So to see her doing this with no prodding from me is nothing short of amazing! She's also overcoming her phone anxiety, as well. OF 5.75G is definitely worth more than what it's priced at, as far as I can tell.
Maybe in the future ,Shannon,you'll create a Sub that can clear such anxieties,help one relax more and other related issues while driving!??
(08-03-2020, 05:37 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ] (08-03-2020, 10:23 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]I am noticing on the 3rd "day off", both my and GF's inner child seems to get upset. I suspect that means that there's not enough impact left to fully calm those parts of us. Maybe should switch to 2 days off; at the same time, not sure I would be "fully rested" if I did that.
I am having a blast with this program. It's made life a lot more fun most days. I am much more comfortable expressing myself instead of hiding what I want to say or do, but I never end up doing things that are unacceptable, either. GF has started expanding her horizons for a lot of things too. She used to be very specific about what she would try to buy for her reseller's business, and now she's started branching out into new areas that she's recognizing as being growth. It has her excited and very proud. I love seeing her happy and growing.
She also is having car trouble lately, and has decided that her 23-year old car needs to be replaced. She can't replace it just yet, so she's now asking me to show her how to drive my car, which is a SUV. Much bigger than what she's used to; before she was too scared to try to drive it. Now she's reminding me, "Hey, I need you to take me out and show me what's different about driving your car so I can drive your car instead of having you drive me everywhere."
Now if you've never dealt with driving anxiety, that may seem ridiculous, but having had it myself when I started, I can tell you, it's paralyzing. So to see her doing this with no prodding from me is nothing short of amazing! She's also overcoming her phone anxiety, as well. OF 5.75G is definitely worth more than what it's priced at, as far as I can tell.
Maybe in the future ,Shannon,you'll create a Sub that can clear such anxieties,help one relax more and other related issues while driving!??
Didn't I already make OF 5.75G? lol
Yesterday was our 3rd day off for that ASRB2 cycle, which was longer than usual because of her ab-reaction the previous time we tried to take a day off. I kept running it every night until we were getting tired from it. This time, no such issues.
In fact yesterday was probably one of the happiest days I have seen her have in the three years I have known her. Probably in the top 3 or 4. She even remained unusually calm when I had something go wrong, which cascaded into something else going wrong, then something else, and so on, which put me in an incredibly foul mood for a short time. Usually this upsets her a huge amount as well. This time, she instead tried to calm me down and help make things right and it didn't bother her. Because she didn't get upset also (likely the DRS in action), I was able to calm down much faster than I normally would, and we were back to good in under an hour, after I bandaged myself and cleaned up the mess, which allowed for the day to be really good yesterday.
Today I feel the effects of the OF program after our first night back on. It's definitely using energy, but not enough for me to need caffeine to stay functional. I'm currently figuring out the last addition to LTU6, waiting for the models to stabilize, but about half way done translating the necessary script.
Still very impressed with OF 5.75G and very pleased at what it's doing for us. We are even starting to work as a team to de-clutter the house.
(08-04-2020, 09:42 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ] (08-03-2020, 05:37 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ] (08-03-2020, 10:23 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]I am noticing on the 3rd "day off", both my and GF's inner child seems to get upset. I suspect that means that there's not enough impact left to fully calm those parts of us. Maybe should switch to 2 days off; at the same time, not sure I would be "fully rested" if I did that.
I am having a blast with this program. It's made life a lot more fun most days. I am much more comfortable expressing myself instead of hiding what I want to say or do, but I never end up doing things that are unacceptable, either. GF has started expanding her horizons for a lot of things too. She used to be very specific about what she would try to buy for her reseller's business, and now she's started branching out into new areas that she's recognizing as being growth. It has her excited and very proud. I love seeing her happy and growing.
She also is having car trouble lately, and has decided that her 23-year old car needs to be replaced. She can't replace it just yet, so she's now asking me to show her how to drive my car, which is a SUV. Much bigger than what she's used to; before she was too scared to try to drive it. Now she's reminding me, "Hey, I need you to take me out and show me what's different about driving your car so I can drive your car instead of having you drive me everywhere."
Now if you've never dealt with driving anxiety, that may seem ridiculous, but having had it myself when I started, I can tell you, it's paralyzing. So to see her doing this with no prodding from me is nothing short of amazing! She's also overcoming her phone anxiety, as well. OF 5.75G is definitely worth more than what it's priced at, as far as I can tell.
Maybe in the future ,Shannon,you'll create a Sub that can clear such anxieties,help one relax more and other related issues while driving!??
Didn't I already make OF 5.75G? lol
Point well taken...ha ha ha. I MEANT a subliminal with a titled goal for removing driving anxiety and fears included. Over coming fears,has Fear remover 4.9 not the other way around,right? so a driving with ease,and removing the fears would be a great subliminal,NOT just Fear remover,alone. so to speak.
Pages: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10