Subliminal Talk

(07-16-2020, 11:19 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]I am just in awe of the exhaustion I have felt for the last 3 days.  This is day 2 of my "off" time.  I had a very hard time falling asleep last night because I was apparently exposed to something yesterday that irritated my lungs, which caused them to produce enough excess mucus that I couldn't stop coughing, but not enough to actually cough anything up.  I had to use Nyquil to get to sleep at 2:40 AM, and then my girlfriend woke me up at Noon complaining that she was hungry. I was a zombie.  

Given how different people are responding with different levels of exhaustion or none at all, I'm concluding that those of us who have a more strong willed personality subconsciously which is resisting are becoming exhausted because the program is dealing with the part that is trying hard to avoid changes.  The harder the challenge, the more exhausted the person becomes.  I still feel like a zombie.  

If this is how zombies feel, no damned wonder why they move so slow.

Man, the exhaustion from OF + doxylamine (the antihistamine in NyQuil) would be brutal.  Feel for ya, don't know how you can get any work done!  Doxylamine blasts me for an entire day, just using a quarter of one 25 mg pill.  I think there's 6.25 mg of doxylamine in one 15 mL dose (the adult dosage is 30 ML every 6 hours?).  So 12.5 mg of doxylamine, if you took the full dose.  Yikes!

(07-16-2020, 02:42 PM)RTBoss Wrote: [ -> ]

(07-16-2020, 11:19 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]I am just in awe of the exhaustion I have felt for the last 3 days.  This is day 2 of my "off" time.  I had a very hard time falling asleep last night because I was apparently exposed to something yesterday that irritated my lungs, which caused them to produce enough excess mucus that I couldn't stop coughing, but not enough to actually cough anything up.  I had to use Nyquil to get to sleep at 2:40 AM, and then my girlfriend woke me up at Noon complaining that she was hungry. I was a zombie.  

Given how different people are responding with different levels of exhaustion or none at all, I'm concluding that those of us who have a more strong willed personality subconsciously which is resisting are becoming exhausted because the program is dealing with the part that is trying hard to avoid changes.  The harder the challenge, the more exhausted the person becomes.  I still feel like a zombie.  

If this is how zombies feel, no damned wonder why they move so slow.

Man, the exhaustion from OF + doxylamine (the antihistamine in NyQuil) would be brutal.  Feel for ya, don't know how you can get any work done!  Doxylamine blasts me for an entire day, just using a quarter of one 25 mg pill.  I think there's 6.25 mg of doxylamine in one 15 mL dose (the adult dosage is 30 ML every 6 hours?).  So 12.5 mg of doxylamine, if you took the full dose.  Yikes!

Yeah, it usually takes me ~4-6 hours after waking up from taking Nyquil to "wake up".  I realized that after breakfast.  At about 3:30 PM, after breakfast and errands had been run, I came back and tried to work, and it was clear and apparent that work was not happening.  So I went to bed and my GF woke me up at 6:40 PM, and I was again a zombie waking up.  Still feel deeply exhausted but not quite as bad.  But while I was "down" I realized something.

I wasn't sleeping.  I was processing... executing... working on what the script of OF was asking me to do.  And that non-conscious state was where I needed to be to do it most efficiently and effectively. Occasionally I would drift up to the earliest levels of awareness for some part of the processing, and then drift back down.  During all this I became aware that I had divided myself into something like 10 million pieces, and each was working on the issue.  The visual I got was an army of miners, all working full speed, all digging through something that spread for a long distance in every direction.  It appeared to be in a cave, and in this vast came were hilly plains of stone that they were all working their way through.  Just carpeting the entire area, each one intent upon its work, each one chipping away at the stone.

If that was a dream, or a symbolic vision, I am apparently chipping away at the part of me that refuses to cooperate and/or change in order to achieve the goals of the program.  Dividing myself up into 10 million small pieces which form an army of workers/miners to do this... no freakin' wonder I'm exhausted!  This is absolutely fascinating!

Today was day 4 of my "time off". That was not my desire, but Day 2 was spent sleeping for almost 20 hours from the overwhelming exhaustion, which cleared up quickly yesterday and was even better today. However, yesterday I was unable to get the models to stabilize to try to find a better setting for myself, so I opted to take another day off to rest, instead of potentially making things worse.

Today I spent some time working with the models, and they finally stabilized. I got an answer that should be easy to implement that I'm hoping will allow for continued use and success without exhaustion that prevents me from working. I believe that the exhaustion will eventually go away as the cause is dissolved, but I cannot afford to be un-productive in the mean time, so we have to make some change. I have opted to lower the volume a bit.

OF was still very much active in GF's and my mind last night. She had a lot of dreams she remembered, which were unpleasant for her, which means the program is wearing off. So back on tonight, using it again according to the instructions, with a little decrease in the volume.

I was able to be productive today on LTU6, but not as much as I wanted to be; however, that was primarily because the models have not been as stable as I need them to be. They appear to have stabilized again, but now it's too late in the day for working, and tomorrow is my day off. Since it's very likely to rain all day, I may not take the day off, or I may just take a half day off. We shall see. I have a lot of stuff to accomplish and I want to accomplish it as quickly as possible regarding LTU6.

Today I also did a couple things I had been putting off and resisting out of fear. That felt good. It wasn't necessarily fun, but it got done, and the things were not necessarily great, but my reasons for resisting them were, as usual, imaginarily blown out of proportion. Making progress.

Last night was Night #2 of ASRB Cycle #4, which I am doing at a volume of 10/15 on my cell phone.

Much less exhaustion. However, I am concerned that this may not be effective.

Every night, I play a playlist that starts with 1 loop of Tranquilizer B and then does 6 loops of OF 5.75G. When I play it at 12 or 13, GF falls asleep in 10-30 minutes most nights. But at a volume of 10, she just plain ignores it and stays away 2-3 HOURS before falling asleep. Just as she would do before I started using Tranq-B in the first place. For whatever strange reason, she only responds to my subs at a volume of around 13/15.

If she is just ignoring it at that volume, is she getting any benefit from OF either? Am I?

I will have to spend some time running through the models what volume gets us the best results.

OF is definitely making me tired. But I discovered the hard way that we are going to finish the job, because if we don't, things will go wrong. So it's "plow through and deal with the exhaustion" time.

This exhaustion, and this level of exhaustion, is something I have only ever dealt with twice before in my life. Once when I was going through chemo, and every cell in my body was fighting for life at once, and once when I healed it using MHS for the first time. The chemo made me sleep 23 hours a day for months. MHS healing the effects of chemo made me sleep 18+ hours a day for 28 days straight.

I hope this doesn't take too long. But it's apparent that a deep core part of me is trying hard to resist OF, and that OF is not having it. The conflict is using huge amounts of energy, and that would not be the case of OF was not making progress. So I'll keep going and do my best to stay functional.

If caffeine does not make me functional enough, I will stop working until I am sure I can work and not make mistakes. This may reduce my productivity. If I thought that switching to something else was a better choice, I would do it. But it's clear that that is not the better choice. So it's time to suck it up and buckle down.

I have to say, I am impressed that OF is powerful enough to go head to head with this part of me and still make progress. This gives me hope for all of the hardcore resistant types. I'm not done developing the 6G tech yet, but if this can even slowly get through that type and level of resistance, then we just have already won. At that point, all that's necessary is to make it less exhausting (or not exhausting) and make the program powerful enough to do it faster and more quickly, where that is possible.

Not the most fun to experience, but promising none the less.

Today I had something click in my head. I realized I am working on something that someone mentioned which explains what they said, which I didn't understand at the time because I did not know I would be working on that.

This is the second or third time I have seen TID do that since about 2 weeks before I started using OF 5.75G. The TID is now getting significantly more blatant 2+ weeks before the program can be used, and twice now, I've had TID that I didn't realize was TID or that I could not explain, because I didn't know I was going to be doing something that I later discovered I would be doing, which I realized exposed what I had experienced as TID.

Yesterday and the two days before that I had experiences that I thought were odd, and I was wondering how to explain them. Was this the result of OF? But I concluded that it couldn't be because it didn't make logical sense in certain ways.

Today I asked the models a question, and the answer came back that I should do something with the script of LTU6 that perfectly explains these happenings! We are weeks away from building it, as far as I can tell. I have spent all day long working on the parts of the script that make this TID possible.

I invented TID. I'm familiar with it, and as hard as it has been to believe, I accepted it. But this lately has been on an entirely new level of crazy. I don't even know how to explain some of this... there are cases where I learn what to do to adjust the script to cause the TID that gave me the knowledge of what to change to cause it. In other words, somehow, the effect happening before the cause is giving me the knowledge of what to do and how to do it, or what the goal is, when I would not have thought of or included it otherwise... which begs the question... how did I get TID from it if the TID is where I got the information that resulted in the script that caused the TID?! This is crazy!

(07-22-2020, 01:58 PM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Today I had something click in my head.  I realized I am working on something that someone mentioned which explains what they said, which I didn't understand at the time because I did not know I would be working on that.

This is the second or third time I have seen TID do that since about 2 weeks before I started using OF 5.75G.  The TID is now getting significantly more blatant 2+ weeks before the program can be used, and twice now, I've had TID that I didn't realize was TID or that I could not explain, because I didn't know I was going to be doing something that I later discovered I would be doing, which I realized exposed what I had experienced as TID.

Yesterday and the two days before that I had experiences that I thought were odd, and I was wondering how to explain them.  Was this the result of OF?  But I concluded that it couldn't be because it didn't make logical sense in certain ways.

Today I asked the models a question, and the answer came back that I should do something with the script of LTU6 that perfectly explains these happenings!  We are weeks away from building it, as far as I can tell.  I have spent all day long working on the parts of the script that make this TID possible.

I invented TID.  I'm familiar with it, and as hard as it has been to believe, I accepted it.  But this lately has been on an entirely new level of crazy.  I don't even know how to explain some of this... there are cases where I learn what to do to adjust the script to cause the TID that gave me the knowledge of what to change to cause it.  In other words, somehow, the effect happening before the cause is giving me the knowledge of what to do and how to do it, or what the goal is, when I would not have thought of or included it otherwise... which begs the question... how did I get TID from it if the TID is where I got the information that resulted in the script that caused the TID?!  This is crazy!

 Because there is a "Pre-TID" in place that you had before all of this , that was already in play, this in turn allowed a kind of inversion at play ,to occur. a kind of your future is now peeka boo, Im from the future,I'm here now(info given to you) and back again to the future,so that you could reach me,where I am now,eventually. you created this TID thing/thingy and now its building upon itself,as it were..like a greater incarnation of itself,each time..... these hypothesis' are woven together to make '  a greater whole' as it were,Sir( Victorious England 1800's accent Optional, Sherlock!)

Well, that theory is as good as anything I currently have!

I personally think that the "stronger' the TID is the more possible it is to get TID "echo's". TID may be compounding the more powerful it gets. Compounding intrest is one of the most intriguing and difficult concepts to grasp. It's possible that TID is creating possible futures, extracting the information from those futures, and then progressing onward as if those futures have happened when they haven't. This would allow your subconscious to experience futures that will never come to pass but existed because they needed to for the sake of progression. You may be reaping the results of your subconsciouses work without having to wait for them to materialize resulting in an acceleration of development due to not having to have them play out in the present moment.

Not that farfetched because quantum computers will likely work in the same way. Accessing possibilites that never will be and extracting the information to be able to "skip" a few steps.

"I've had TID that I didn't realize was TID or that I could not explain, because I didn't know I was going to be doing something that I later discovered I would be doing"

I also have a theory.

Your subconscious has been actively helping you make this program. Your subconscious already knew what you were most likely going to be working on in the near future, but didn't let your conscious know exactly what it was. Perhaps it was still working on perfecting the idea or simply didn't have a good way to quickly bring it to your conscious mind. Just you knowing subconsciously might have been enough to trigger TID. Eventually, a testable idea did come to your mind and it turned out to be worth scripting, confirming the TID.

Interesting theories, guys. Whatever the case, I have gotten ideas for additions to, and made corrections to, multiple different scripts over the last few years because of TID both in myself and what was reported to me. It looks like Platinum Lake makes things powerful enough to put this effect on serious steroids.

Very tired today, but still able to work. Caffeine.

GF complaining about her teeth hurting. Refuses to go to the dentist. I told her we would switch to MIR3 until she gets paid again. She fought me tooth and nail not to stop OF. That's a change! When I met her, she was fighting me to keep her fears. Now she's fighting me to kill them. Looks like progress to me!

(07-23-2020, 09:19 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Very tired today, but still able to work.  Caffeine.  

GF complaining about her teeth hurting.  Refuses to go to the dentist.  I told her we would switch to MIR3 until she gets paid again.  She fought me tooth and nail not to stop OF.  That's a change!  When I met her, she was fighting me to keep her fears.  Now she's fighting me to kill them.  Looks like progress to me!

Curious question...here.... when you say "We" would switch to MIR3,does that mean that she will be back on it,exclusively or the two of you,and also are you still using UMS1,some what or OF exclusively,Shannon?

(07-23-2020, 12:22 PM)ncbeareatingman Wrote: [ -> ]

(07-23-2020, 09:19 AM)Shannon Wrote: [ -> ]Very tired today, but still able to work.  Caffeine.  

GF complaining about her teeth hurting.  Refuses to go to the dentist.  I told her we would switch to MIR3 until she gets paid again.  She fought me tooth and nail not to stop OF.  That's a change!  When I met her, she was fighting me to keep her fears.  Now she's fighting me to kill them.  Looks like progress to me!

Curious question...here.... when you say We would switch to MIR3,does that mean that she will be back on it,exclusively or the two of you,and also are you still using UMS1,some what or OF exclusively,Shannon?

Circumstances dictate that whatever is used, we both use it at the same time.  We therefore do what it takes to deal with whatever needs are most prominent for either of us.  So if she has an infection, I am running MIR.  If I can't breathe, she is running MHS.  And so on.

However, for the time being she is refusing to get off OF, so... we are still using OF.  If I conclude that she actually does have an infection in her teeth, we are going on MIR until she can get to a dentist, and I don't care what she says.