Subliminal Talk

(05-14-2019, 09:31 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: [ -> ]

(05-14-2019, 09:24 AM)THolt Wrote: [ -> ]Maybe you are just obsessing over your own hardships a bit too much. I used to do this too. 

I would think on my past failures and hardships over and over and over in my mind. On E3 I finally was able to move past them and realize that they didn't define me. 

It was a subtle process and didn't happen overnight. I am still making progress. Like others have said, you need to make getting E3 a top priority. 

The good thing about E3 is that you have to listen it for three loops a day. So that will amount to 3h 45 minutes. Very user friendly.

"A bit" is an understatement. The only time I'm not ruminating over past failures and mistakes and things I've done wrong in the past is when I'm deliberately distracting myself. 

I'll get E3 as soon as I can and I'll see how well it works out. What happens if I listen to it for more than 3 loops a day? Does it become less effective?

I would follow the instructions if you want to be eligible for a refund. I have never experimented with the loop count for this program.

(05-14-2019, 10:07 AM)Z-Man Wrote: [ -> ]If you go over 3 loops, it not going to hurt you. Since you listen to it while going to bed it is easy to pass 3 loops. If you are worried set an alarm on device to woke yourself up to turn it off. I listen to it with earbuds I use flac file not to loud. If you want apply for paypal credit line they give interest free for 6 months on purchase of $100.00. It is worth it for all the healing it is going to do for you.

Z-man.. please stop giving bad advice on things you don't know about. Yes you DO want to stick to 3 loops.

(05-14-2019, 08:42 PM)Benjamin Wrote: [ -> ]

(05-14-2019, 10:07 AM)Z-Man Wrote: [ -> ]If you go over 3 loops, it not going to hurt you. Since you listen to it while going to bed it is easy to pass 3 loops. If you are worried set an alarm on device to woke yourself up to turn it off. I listen to it with earbuds I use flac file not to loud. If you want apply for paypal credit line they give interest free for 6 months on purchase of $100.00. It is worth it for all the healing it is going to do for you.

Z-man.. please stop giving bad advice on things you don't know about. Yes you DO want to stick to 3 loops.

Ok, sorry about that. I would follow what Shannon suggest since he created it and know best!

Day 46: I just reread what Shannon wrote. And the truth is, I'm not sure what to do. Shannon's probably right. But it's like none of what he says really hits home. It's like I beleive my internal reality creates my external reality, yet I let my external reality dictate my internal one. I guess my problem is I have a hard time convincing myself that my self hating beliefs are false. I have to do something to change this. I'm getting really tired of holding onto these beleifs. I'm tired of this hell I keep myself in. I'm tired of not being able to truly enjoy even the enjoyable parts of life. As an early birthday gift, a friend of mine got me tickets to the upcoming Babymetal show in Orlando. I worry that living in this state will prevent me from enjoying the show. I worry that living like this will stop me from enjoying travel when I finally get to do it, time spent with friends and/or family, art, music, creative pursuits, everything. I worry I could get the perfect girlfriend and not enjoy my time with her. I'm so sick of spending all this time either being miserable or suppressing misery by being numb. It also prevents me from being productive because I compulsively do things like check the forums I'm on to feel connected or distract myself web surfing to keep myself numb.

I've got to figure out the misunderstanding that causes me to be this way and fix it. Cause I'm so sick of living like this. It's like I'm a zombie. It's non-life. Something needs to change. I need to change. My beliefs need to change. But I don't know how to change them.

When you aren’t in contact with yourself, it’s hard to change your beliefs. It’s hard to just change them by your own will. Are you meditating?!when you meditate you can sink down into yourself and actually feel where tuff are coming from. You get to the root of yourself and where your thoughts originate from. And with Shannon’s subliminals you get help to change that stuff. The newer technology, the deeper the subliminals reach. I notice you are beefing yourself up over your beliefs. That will not help. You need to be gentle with your beliefs. They are there for a reason. Because of a imbalance in yourself. A deep one. You need to reach down into yourself. See that imbalance, feel it, and acknowledge it. And release it. That the way of changing the deep imbalance that cause your faulty thinking.

Thanks. I used to go for meditation walks, but I stopped recently. I'll start back up again and then start doing regular meditation if you think that'll help. It's one of those situations where it's hard to heal because I have a hard time finding motivation to do what I need to do, because of these beliefs and feelings I have. And yet what I need to do is stuff that'll heal these beliefs and feelings I have. So it's kind of a catch-22. But I'm ure I can find a way out of it I'll try to start and keep meditating and see if that helps. Although, to be honest, I SUCK at meditation. I can't focus or empty my mind for shit when I'm doing it. Nonetheless, I'll keep at it. Thanks for the advice Greenduck

(05-15-2019, 09:56 PM)Greenduck Wrote: [ -> ]When you aren’t in contact with yourself, it’s hard to change your beliefs. It’s hard to just change them by your own will. Are you meditating?!when you meditate you can sink down into yourself and actually feel where tuff are coming from. You get to the root of yourself and where your thoughts originate from. And with Shannon’s subliminals you get help to change that stuff. The newer technology, the deeper the subliminals reach. I notice you are beefing yourself up over your beliefs. That will not help. You need to be gentle with your beliefs. They are there for a reason. Because of a imbalance in yourself. A deep one. You need to reach down into yourself.   See that imbalance, feel it, and acknowledge it. And release it. That the way of changing the deep imbalance that cause your faulty thinking.

Im not EP, but this is what I needed to hear aswell.

(05-16-2019, 01:47 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: [ -> ]Thanks. I used to go for meditation walks, but I stopped recently. I'll start back up again and then start doing regular meditation if you think that'll help. It's one of those situations where it's hard to heal because I have a hard time finding motivation to do what I need to do, because of these beliefs and feelings I have. And yet what I need to do is stuff that'll heal these beliefs and feelings I have. So it's kind of a catch-22. But I'm ure I can find a way out of it I'll try to start and keep meditating and see if that helps. Although, to be honest, I SUCK at meditation. I can't focus or empty my mind for shit when I'm doing it. Nonetheless, I'll keep at it. Thanks for the advice Greenduck

When’s I was at my lowest points I decided to start with meditation. I had no outlook on life, and I was constantly thinking about how the only solution for this to end is by ending it. So it was my only way out. The only way to find some kind of silence and calmness within. Even if it was for a microsecond it gave me something to do. Some routine to fall back to and something that I knew was going to be more and more beneficial the more I did it. Don’t worry about not doing it right. Set a set amount of 30 minutes every day and just do it. Follow a guided meditation. Do your best. Eventually you will get the hang of it. It’s like learning to ride a bike, I could spend 10000 hours explaining to you how to keep your balance on a bike but you would still fall after pedaling away 1 meter. Mediation Ian hard, but all valuable tools are hard to learn. Otherwise they wouldn’t be valuable.

(05-16-2019, 05:42 AM)Greenduck Wrote: [ -> ]

(05-16-2019, 01:47 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: [ -> ]Thanks. I used to go for meditation walks, but I stopped recently. I'll start back up again and then start doing regular meditation if you think that'll help. It's one of those situations where it's hard to heal because I have a hard time finding motivation to do what I need to do, because of these beliefs and feelings I have. And yet what I need to do is stuff that'll heal these beliefs and feelings I have. So it's kind of a catch-22. But I'm ure I can find a way out of it I'll try to start and keep meditating and see if that helps. Although, to be honest, I SUCK at meditation. I can't focus or empty my mind for shit when I'm doing it. Nonetheless, I'll keep at it. Thanks for the advice Greenduck

When’s I was at my lowest points I decided to start with meditation. I had no outlook on life, and I was constantly thinking about how the only solution for this to end is by ending it. So it was my only way out. The only way to find some kind of silence and calmness within. Even if it was for a microsecond it gave me something to do. Some routine to fall back to and something that I knew was going to be more and more beneficial the more I did it. Don’t worry about not doing it right. Set a set amount of 30 minutes every day and just do it. Follow a guided meditation. Do your best. Eventually you will get the hang of it. It’s like learning to ride a bike, I could spend 10000 hours explaining to you how to keep your balance on a bike but you would still fall after pedaling away 1 meter. Mediation Ian hard, but all valuable tools are hard to learn. Otherwise they wouldn’t be valuable.

Right. Okay. I'll practice meditation today. I'll probably suck at it, but I'll practice it.

Day 47:

So I forgot to run E2 while I was sleeping last night. And I got to sleep at a REALLY late time (like 5 in the morning) and my dad is super pissed at me for sleeping until really late today. Surprising thing is, I slept until like 8! I know I'm going to sleep late, but I'm sleeping for really long periods of time. And I NEED that sleep too. I dunno what's up with that, but it's been like that. 

I've decided once again to try and put my faith not just into these subs, but the "becoming" method. I've got a lot of internal shit to work through, but I believe I can have everything I want if I play my cards right. But to do that, I NEED to work through my own internal issues first. And that's where I'm having trouble.

Day 48:

I saw a post today by Shannon where he told Cat Man to stop being the man women run away from because they could smell his dishonesty and intention to manipulate them for sex. This isn't exactly what happened with me and my friend, and I was honest about my feelings for her, but I still feel it applies to my situation.

She has lost all her trust for me, sees only the worst about me and refuses to forgive me or accept my apologies.

I am having faith and hoping the "becoming" method can change the relationship I have with her and how she feels about me. The "becoming" method is my only hope.

But first, I have to change myself. Itll take years of sub usage to change myself enough that I become the guy women stop running from, I feel like.

Day 49:

Just went to a new age "gathering" that was very underwhelming. There was a segment where we had to gather into groups of 5, share a problem amd then talk about ourselves in 3rd person with eye masks on. Don't ask why because I don't quite get the explanation they gave. I was the last to share and didn't like doibg it and nobody had anything particularly helpful to say. And when they asked if I had hobbies and I said "No" and then they asked if there was anything I liked doing as a kid and I had to admit all I did was watch movies and TV and play videogames, and that I've always kept myself in a distracted state so I wouldn't have to face my issues, I felt embarrassed about it. I ate well today though. Anyway, that's my day so far. Nothing interesting.

Keep moving forward no matter what you feel.. If you get tired then rest but don't quit

(05-17-2019, 11:14 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: [ -> ]Day 48:

I saw a post today by Shannon where he told Cat Man to stop being the man women run away from because they could smell his dishonesty and intention to manipulate them for sex. This isn't exactly what happened with me and my friend, and I was honest about my feelings for her, but I still feel it applies to my situation.

She has lost all her trust for me, sees only the worst about me and refuses to forgive me or accept my apologies.

I am having faith and hoping the "becoming" method can change the relationship I have with her and how she feels about me. The "becoming" method is my only hope.

But first, I have to change myself. Itll take years of sub usage to change myself enough that I become the guy women stop running from, I feel like.

I decided that I should I should stop ruing to get other people to do things that benefit myself. I should work on myself and heal. That was my, and only my, responsibility. Trying to get other people to do stuff was off the table. That was just being a coward. People will give support by their own free will and if they don’t want to go to bed with me right now, that’s maybe for the better. Things should flow naturally in life and if they don’t you need to stop and heal yourself until they do.