06-10-2021, 07:16 AM
Day 19
Today I’m doing two loops of ultrasonic. I just finished with one and am doing the second now. I’m getting them done early so that I can have the rest of my day clear; it’s very busy.
I’m a lot calmer now, a lot more in my head.
I’m thinking about what that was like yesterday. I was imagining one of those scenes from a movie with an old-style loony bin, because I literally could not function. It felt like there was a 30–40% chance that I’d lose contact with my ability to think, and get lost in the corrosive terror, and spend the rest of my life screaming. Even now I can feel that part of me, and I can feel moments of nausea, and it seems like that’s just waiting to re-emerge.
Today I’m doing two loops of ultrasonic. I just finished with one and am doing the second now. I’m getting them done early so that I can have the rest of my day clear; it’s very busy.
I’m a lot calmer now, a lot more in my head.
I’m thinking about what that was like yesterday. I was imagining one of those scenes from a movie with an old-style loony bin, because I literally could not function. It felt like there was a 30–40% chance that I’d lose contact with my ability to think, and get lost in the corrosive terror, and spend the rest of my life screaming. Even now I can feel that part of me, and I can feel moments of nausea, and it seems like that’s just waiting to re-emerge.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
