dissonance - DMSI v3.1

[DarkPlouf]

Seems like reversal execution (due to resistance), because there is a module to adjust the brain for the goal of this program.

[dissonance]

One thing I'm consciously realizing now and making an effort to be aware of and avoid is negative thinking. Whenever there's something that I fear doing or am not confident about, I constantly think about all the negative outcomes and think about all the things about myself i don't like or don't feel good about. I think what if this happens what if that happens.

I now truly consciously realize how powerfully self-destructive this is, and how OFTEN i would have negative thoughts and self-doubt going through my mind... which was pretty much 24/7. Because of my constant thinking about what could go wrong, I start to make myself worry and fear those things so much that it would truly become ingrained. From now on, I'm gonna try to be aware of negative thoughts and mindset and self-doubt, and instead, think positively to myself, I will do this, I will achieve this.

[dissonance]

I'm currently trying to stay aware and consciously replace the negative thoughts with positive thoughts, and it seems like every minute to few minutes, negative thoughts and self-doubt attempt to flow through me again like clockwork. It's not even a specific thought that I'm feeling at those moments, it's more like a full-body physical weighty/discomfort sensation that embodies all and every negative thought and belief. Really crazy to actually notice it this consciously now. Every time I feel it I'm saying out loud to myself "No, fuck you. I'm good. I'm gonna do this." and I feel that weight/discomfort dissipate. MINDBLOWING.

[dissonance]

So SH said to me about 5 days ago "You're really freaking cool btw. I enjoy talking to you"

Then 2 days later I sent her some messages and the convo fizzles really fast with her saying one word "Lol", and today, she says "Lol" again, with not much effort at all again. Does this sound like she's playing hard to get and/or trying to not show too much interest? I didn't say anything that would be offputting or osmething. Do girls do this a lot? Like say how awesome you are, then suddenly act super uninterested and short answers, etc. just to mess with you and/or test you to see how you react?

[Duke.Togo]

In my years with women, I've come to realize that nothing they really do makes sense.

That being said, she's probably caught some form of feelings and has an internal debate going on about how she feels about you or the other options on her list.

Best bet, pull away for a while. Don't ever make yourself too available for a woman. Always leave them wanting more. Also, don't get yourself too invested either. Think of it as a game. If you win, fantastic, if you lose, you walk away and figure out how to be better.

Just don't get into a mental pitfall yourself. It's the worst place for any guy to be.

[dissonance]

I'm actually stoked now in finding a girl who seems to be a type that might like taking my virginity, and blessing her with that opportunity ;D. I'm going to meet up with this girl whos 20 (I'm 26) and see if that goes anywhere. If it does, it'll be fun and interesting losing my virginity to a 20-year old who I really like and who really likes me.

Before DMSI, this sort of situation would have been unthinkable because of some insecure ego thing inside me saying like "a girl whos 6 years younger than me who supposedly should have much less life experience than you is going to take my virginity, how sad am i?" Now though, my mindset has completely changed to "oh god this cute ass girl whos at that age where she's ripe as **** and just reaching her hot as hell stages of her life is going to defile my body and shes going to enjoy it because she'll think it's endearing that i've saved my virginity for this long and am choosing to allow her to be the one to take it, and im going to enjoy feeling the tight, warm, dripping wet embrace of her pussy. Thank you DMSI."