alpha 3

[ffaux]

No More Mr. Nice Guy is a good companion for AM6, I bought a physical copy.

[Life]

I trust that statement

[Benjamin]

Yep, awesome book for any guy.

[ffaux]

I feel an overwhelming certainty that my life coming to an end soon. So I'm trying to make the most of the time I have left and share my time and love with my family and friends.

[Bliss]

I feel an overwhelming certainty that my life coming to an end soon. So I'm trying to make the most of the time I have left and share my time and love with my family and friends.

Fear of death surfacing?

[Greenduck]

I feel an overwhelming certainty that my life coming to an end soon. So I'm trying to make the most of the time I have left and share my time and love with my family and friends.

Most dramatic post I've read on this forum.

Hope your gut-feeling is off this time bro.

[Artaxes]

Seems like an adventure, just curious, where are you going?

[ffaux]

I'm feeling the certainty that my time is coming to an end again. Except this time I feel like I'm already dead. I feel like I'm living a memory. I feel like I've been given the gift of time to share my love with my family before I go. I feel a little bit afraid. I'm hoping that this feeling comes from the subliminal surfacing my fear of death. That's why I'm posting here. I'm hoping Shannon will tell me not to worry but somehow I can't shake the feeling that…I don't know what…that I've been given the gift of time to say goodbye and I love you to my family before I have to let go of this life and release back into eternity.

[Bliss]

I'm feeling the certainty that my time is coming to an end again. Except this time I feel like I'm already dead. I feel like I'm living a memory. I feel like I've been given the gift of time to share my love with my family before I go. I feel a little bit afraid. I'm hoping that this feeling comes from the subliminal surfacing my fear of death. That's why I'm posting here. I'm hoping Shannon will tell me not to worry but somehow I can't shake the feeling that…I don't know what…that I've been given the gift of time to say goodbye and I love you to my family before I have to let go of this life and release back into eternity.

I've been feeling a similar feeling, like a hopelessness mixed with dread almost. I spent the last week lying in bed thinking about death and how I am a burden to this world and won't be missed. I feel much better now though, so stick in there.

Hope you're ok brother!

[ffaux]

I haven't experienced the feeling again and as a bonus I haven't died The feeling was more one of acceptance and appreciation of the things around me than dread. I felt very at peace with whatever was to come, it was scary but not depressing.

I realised that my headphones have only been playing sound through one channel but I have no idea for how many days (I play ultrasonic on low volume since I can hear it if it's too loud). I've added 4 days to stage 4 just to be safe but I don't know if this is the right thing to do in this case. Shannon?

[ffaux]

Upon reading the instructions and reflection I think AM6 has created extreme behaviour in me. For example
* my self-control in stage 1-3 has been extreme to the point of my friends being concerned about me
* my desire to eat healthy in stage 1-3 has been extreme to the point of my friends being concerned about me
* the above two points together had multiple people be concerned about me developing OCD

[ffaux]

I feel like I'm already dead, like this is just me living out the last fragments of my consciousness because I'm holding on to my attachments to this world. I feel like I need to let go of my attachments to the people I love so I can finally rest. I feel like everything in my life so far has been a lesson, a reminder that that's why I'm here: to let go of my attachment to people.

[apollolux]

Why the melodramatic language?

[Benjamin]

Upon reading the instructions and reflection I think AM6 has created extreme behaviour in me. For example
* my self-control in stage 1-3 has been extreme to the point of my friends being concerned about me
* my desire to eat healthy in stage 1-3 has been extreme to the point of my friends being concerned about me
* the above two points together had multiple people be concerned about me developing OCD

Hmm... my initial thought is them being haters or uncomfortable cos they dont' have that self control or whatever. I don't see either of those as bad things.

And your second post and others like it.. it really sounds like a massive transformation is taking place internally the way you're expressing that.