07-05-2018, 02:43 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-05-2018, 02:44 PM by Williamx25.)
I posted in Shannon's journal volume 3 about some problems that i'm encountering:
I'm studying for my finals and I have a bad case of pure exhaustion and not wanting to study. Procrastination, depressive thoughts/feelings. I have this feeling that i'm gonna fail hard because I can't concentrate/study properly. I have no idea if this is the DMSI 5.5G 3.2A or this terrible hot weather.
It's 86 degrees Fahrenheit and I can't sleep properly. I'm sweating like a mad man and sitting in my underwear all day cramming for my finals.
This combination of hot weather and studying + the program is killing me. Maybe I have to quit the program? But on the other hand I don't think I will have time if my semester begins in september. It's like a continuous progress. In top universities you don't have vacation.
Should I wait with the program until i'm done studying? That's like 5 more years at least... So i'm stuck here lol. I'm listening to 1 loop right now. Can't imagine to do 7-8 loops overnight lmao, my brains would be fried. I guess I have to push through all this. Does the exhaustion thing ever stop? Like will this be something I have to endure my entire study program until I graduate? That would suck hard! Well, nothing worth having comes easy...
I was like hmm should I buy the program or not? They said it will be exhausting. Well I took it with a grain of salt... Now look at me lol Smile I'm losing my patience, getting irritated quickly, yelling at my maths & physics books/laptop, I guess it's all part of the progress. I have to recollect my balls and suck it up I think. I chose this program for a reason. Healing & Clearing is doing its work definitely. It comes with a big cost and i'm afraid that it will interrupt with my studies. *sigh* I will push through and see how i'll act in 2 weeks. I hope this exhaustion will fade away quickly. I'm on Nofap! I don't have energy at all, my sexual energy is drained, brain fog, memory lagging, concentration span is 5 minutes. If I eat more calories i'm afraid I will put on more weight... I sleep 8-9 hours and wake up tired, so maybe more sleep every day?
5.5G DMSI 3.2A: day 18
Nofap: day 18
I'm studying for my finals and I have a bad case of pure exhaustion and not wanting to study. Procrastination, depressive thoughts/feelings. I have this feeling that i'm gonna fail hard because I can't concentrate/study properly. I have no idea if this is the DMSI 5.5G 3.2A or this terrible hot weather.
It's 86 degrees Fahrenheit and I can't sleep properly. I'm sweating like a mad man and sitting in my underwear all day cramming for my finals.
This combination of hot weather and studying + the program is killing me. Maybe I have to quit the program? But on the other hand I don't think I will have time if my semester begins in september. It's like a continuous progress. In top universities you don't have vacation.
Should I wait with the program until i'm done studying? That's like 5 more years at least... So i'm stuck here lol. I'm listening to 1 loop right now. Can't imagine to do 7-8 loops overnight lmao, my brains would be fried. I guess I have to push through all this. Does the exhaustion thing ever stop? Like will this be something I have to endure my entire study program until I graduate? That would suck hard! Well, nothing worth having comes easy...
I was like hmm should I buy the program or not? They said it will be exhausting. Well I took it with a grain of salt... Now look at me lol Smile I'm losing my patience, getting irritated quickly, yelling at my maths & physics books/laptop, I guess it's all part of the progress. I have to recollect my balls and suck it up I think. I chose this program for a reason. Healing & Clearing is doing its work definitely. It comes with a big cost and i'm afraid that it will interrupt with my studies. *sigh* I will push through and see how i'll act in 2 weeks. I hope this exhaustion will fade away quickly. I'm on Nofap! I don't have energy at all, my sexual energy is drained, brain fog, memory lagging, concentration span is 5 minutes. If I eat more calories i'm afraid I will put on more weight... I sleep 8-9 hours and wake up tired, so maybe more sleep every day?
5.5G DMSI 3.2A: day 18
Nofap: day 18
