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Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Williamx25 - 06-19-2018
Hi guys,
I've purchased the latest 5.5G DMSI technology yesterday. I did 1 loop yesterday and today I did 1 loop. But first a little background info about me.
I'm a dutch student from the Netherlands (Europe). I'm 25 years old. Not much experience with women. I've had sex with 3 women. 2 one night stands and one serious relationship. I made out with a bunch of girls during highschool but that was a long time ago LOL.
I've had a serious relationship for 3 years and I broke up with her because I was going to university. I had to move to another city. My low experience is caused by self esteem issues and low self image issues due to Male Patern Baldness. I started to lose hair at 15 years. It went bad quickly and I shaved it all off at 18 years.
I was completely devastated and dealing with self image issues. My hair was my everything and girls liked me because of my hair and confidence. Well i'm trying to regain my confidence through healing and meanwhile getting better with women. That's why i'm listening to the 3.2A version the first 3 months.
I listen to the mp3 files on my Iphone 8 Plus... It's really weird that you can't put on the FLAC files because Itunes doesn't support it yet ( Itunes version 12.7.1) They will update and fix this soon I think.
Other things that i'm doing to increase attractiveness: I go to the gym 3x per week. For lowering bodyfat and building musclemass. I'm 6'1'' tall so height is not an issue for me. I'm tanned so I have the faith to build an amazing body which will attract more women.
I'm not a relationship type of guy anymore. I was a complete BETA and I HATE that shit. I was being manipulated, too nice for everybody, thinking too much about other opinions etc. I took the REDPILL and i'm into gaming women and just having sex with them. (Friends with benefits) Nothing more, nothing less. I don't plan to have a family one day because I could care less about that. I'm not that stupid BETA BUX WALLET anymore.
So that's that. I have a quest for becoming an Alpha man. And I will succeed!
I listen to the masked subliminal mp3 and i'm gonna try out the other formats. I listen with earbuds and I study / read on the internet. That's it.
I am aware that I should not expect over the top results because I am tied down to my desk everyday. I'm in a very heavy undergratuate program in a top university in my country. (Mechanical Engineering) My main focus is studying, attending lectures, working in projects everyday. So i'm mostly at my dorm room or at university.
This isn't a big problem because there are still girls at public transportation / university. Sometimes I go out at friday/saturday to have a drink with people so I will have full awareness of unusual things happening to me.
I'm very happy that I have found this shop. It looks very promising. I'm happy to test everything.
Starting conditions: I have a good clothing style so I will get looks sometimes, I am aware of that. Even with my high bodyfat (25-30%) I still get looks from 2-3 women.
I tend to look away or not having eye contact at all. These are my self esteem / body image issues that arise while walking around in public. I'm curious to see the improvements on this area with more sharp eye contact.
One very important thing to announce: I fapped yesterday (monday june 18th) for the last time. I am on NOFAP through this whole DMSI cyle (90 days). So my sexual energy will rise and increase my aura. It will certainly help alot. I've done a few NOFAP cycles and my longest streak was like 75 days. I relapsed. I have issues with staying hard (Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction). So no porn for me ever again. I'm sure that this program will help me blast through everything and improving my life.
The first 2 days I didn't go outside. So nothing to report. I'm studying mathematics and physics (mechanics) slightly light headed during listening and after listening.
So i'm not feeling anything really. Is this resistance or a wall? I will just keep at it. Nothing special. Feeling slightly better (more optimistic) Had some depressed feelings lately.
Due to my specific circumstances where I don't go outside much I will think that posting weekly is better than daily. If something suddenly happens during the middle of the week I will report that of course !
Damn what a big wall of text... Well thank you for reading this!
Best wishes and good luck,
Williamx25
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Williamx25 - 06-19-2018
Tuesday june 19th 2018:
I went to the gym and I have to report some stuff.
- sharp eye contact with a milf in her 40s (happened twice and I pussied out)
- When I was ready with leg press exercises I walked to the bench press and there were two cute girls. She instantly locked insane eye contact with me. I looked back 1 sec and I pussied out again. LOL
I think they are islamic girls and here in Europe you have to watch out because the islamic guys are watching over those girls. That girl could be a cousin from other guys. The mate guarding with those islamic girls is insane. So I don't want any troubles, and went on to do bench press / dumbbell press exercises.
- The eye contact happened 4 times with the same islamic girl. She was beautiful.
- Another cute girl with a great ass locked two times eye contact with me. I didn't look back.
I've noticed that when I'm on a long streak of NOFAP I can easily hold that eyecontact. My sexual energy is drained due to fapping/porn etc. So I have to build momentum. So far so good. Girls are interested.
I'm feeling good about myself. I can look in the mirror again and not be disgusted. I walk straight, like a confident man. So this is already a really good start!
I think i'll be approaching girls within 4-6 weeks or so. If I keep doing this it will build insane momentum and the urge to talk to girls and getting their numbers.
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Williamx25 - 06-22-2018
Small update:
Nothing extreme happened, went to the gym. Had eye contact with two hot fitgirls. Didn't react and continued my training. Had a dream last night about my childhood and anxiety / shame issues were strongly present in my dream. This is an indicator that i'm working on my issues from the past which are deeply burried in my subconsciousness.
I've slept for like 6 hours. From 02:00 AM until 08:00 AM. I woke up with slightly increased heartbeat. Also woke up during the middle of the night. Feeling there was something standing in my room staring at me. But I don't mind that at all. Could be some spirit or something. So I went back to sleep. When I woke up at 08:00 AM I tried to go back to sleep. It's important for me to get 8 hours of solid sleep. But I had some nightmare-ish dreams and I woke up after 5-10 mins and started to read a book.
I have the tendency to show no emotions and to suck it up. All that anger and fear has to come out some day. I felt also a bit agressive and irritated. I stayed at my apartment just studying after I came back from the gym.
I definitely feel that the program is working, it's slowly starting up and I feel some resistance. I try not to give it much attention. I just let it be. I accept my feelings and move on. I know there will be more dreams about my childhood or highschool so I am ready to endure all of it.
Feeling increased energy levels, I know this is Nofap helping with the sexual energy / aura. It works synergistically. I won't fap until I get my dick wet into some pussy. Increased motivation for Nofap and personal goals, academic goals etc.
Today will be a rest day, along with some reading and relaxing. I don't feel happiness or depressive at the moment. I think I feel neutral. And that's okay. I have to proces my dreams. I keep a dream journal and I write every dream down. I'm also into lucid dreaming and i'm trying to induce a lucid dream.
My question is: does lucid dreaming interfere with the program? I think this falls under the category mind shifting. I also practiced Astral Projection. Also a mind shifting state... Can I still practice this or should I completely stop and wait until the program is over? I did not achieved a lucid dream or astral projection during the program. But I was practicing it before I started this program on monday june 18th.
Could somebody give me advice? Shannon perhaps? I quit meditating because of the mind shifting thing I want to follow the exact instructions. No substance abuse, no cigarettes, no alcohol, just me and my program. 1 loop per day.
DMSI 3.2A day: 5
NOFAP day: 5
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Benjamin - 06-22-2018
Hmm i'm not sure about astral projection as I don't know enough about it. It may have an affect if it's state shifting. If Shannon doesn't see the question here then i'd recommend asking on his journal discussion thread.
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Williamx25 - 06-23-2018
Small update:
My dreams are getting sexual and I constantly have a hot girl or two hot girls in my dreams.
I’m flirting with them, they want to see me naked. It’s like getting into some porn scene or something. I don’t have intercourse with them. But I think it won’t last long until I start having sex in my dreams.
I didn’t had morning erections before but now I wake up horny and with morning erections. Nofap and the program are doing a good job. I was aware of the Nofap factor but this is hornier and deeply into my subconsciousness. The program is amplifiyng everything. I slept more hours than usual. I feel really tired after 1 loop sessions. That’s why I plan it on 22:00 PM - 23:00 PM and after that I don’t do anything anymore and go right to sleep.
5.5G DMSI 3.2A: day 6
Nofap: day 6
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Williamx25 - 07-02-2018
Small update:
Regular dreams about healing & clearing. The usual stuff happened what I described in previous posts.
I went to the gym today and had strong eyecontact multiple times with multiple girls. I still have no intention to approach. Something is holding me back. The fact that i'm overweight is hindering me. But I have accepted it. There is still this huge feeling of shame when I have to take my clothes off in bed with a girl. I'm still hyperconsciouss about my own body image. But that doesn't matter. I am living a healthy lifestyle. Going to the gym 3x per week. Watching my diet closely, so I will be in lower digits bodyfat percentage soon.
I feel more confident overall. More happy to live. Happy to go do my things. I have developed self discipline. The Nofap helps alot. More energy, clear memory, focus, studying habits improved. I'm still at 1 loop per day. I will finish a 90 day cycle first. After that I will evaluate and do another cycle with increased loops. I am not in a hurry. Maybe I will try out the free Absolute Confidence when it comes out in 6G.
5.5G DMSI 3.2A: day 15
Nofap : day 15
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Williamx25 - 07-05-2018
I posted in Shannon's journal volume 3 about some problems that i'm encountering:
I'm studying for my finals and I have a bad case of pure exhaustion and not wanting to study. Procrastination, depressive thoughts/feelings. I have this feeling that i'm gonna fail hard because I can't concentrate/study properly. I have no idea if this is the DMSI 5.5G 3.2A or this terrible hot weather.
It's 86 degrees Fahrenheit and I can't sleep properly. I'm sweating like a mad man and sitting in my underwear all day cramming for my finals.
This combination of hot weather and studying + the program is killing me. Maybe I have to quit the program? But on the other hand I don't think I will have time if my semester begins in september. It's like a continuous progress. In top universities you don't have vacation.
Should I wait with the program until i'm done studying? That's like 5 more years at least... So i'm stuck here lol. I'm listening to 1 loop right now. Can't imagine to do 7-8 loops overnight lmao, my brains would be fried. I guess I have to push through all this. Does the exhaustion thing ever stop? Like will this be something I have to endure my entire study program until I graduate? That would suck hard! Well, nothing worth having comes easy...
I was like hmm should I buy the program or not? They said it will be exhausting. Well I took it with a grain of salt... Now look at me lol Smile I'm losing my patience, getting irritated quickly, yelling at my maths & physics books/laptop, I guess it's all part of the progress. I have to recollect my balls and suck it up I think. I chose this program for a reason. Healing & Clearing is doing its work definitely. It comes with a big cost and i'm afraid that it will interrupt with my studies. *sigh* I will push through and see how i'll act in 2 weeks. I hope this exhaustion will fade away quickly. I'm on Nofap! I don't have energy at all, my sexual energy is drained, brain fog, memory lagging, concentration span is 5 minutes. If I eat more calories i'm afraid I will put on more weight... I sleep 8-9 hours and wake up tired, so maybe more sleep every day?
5.5G DMSI 3.2A: day 18
Nofap: day 18
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Shannon - 07-05-2018
Lot of people report significantly less exhaustion from doing more loops (usually 7) because they're executing instead of fighting the program. Food for thought, if you're going to do DMSI.
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Williamx25 - 07-06-2018
What do you mean by executing? You mean start talking to girls? Approaching them? Going out on dates? Maybe I should smile more and be more approachable, so that I give off that friendly vibe.
The MLS program doesn’t have 5.5G technology, and the Alpha Male program doesn’t have 5.5G unfortunately. I wanted the strongest program lol. I have to report that I woke up better rested today. I slept from 01:00 AM to 10:00 AM, solid 9 hours. I was sleeping less hours lately, and too late. So I definitely need the sleeping hours and I go to bed early from now on. 10-11 PM should be a good time. I was staying up late until 04:00 AM and sleeping 5-6 hours.... That is not good.
I feel much much better now, more happy, more rested. So i’m glad I can continue my program. Going to the gym in the afternoon.
I’m going to buy those sleepheadphones with soft headband to run the program at night. Seems like I have to increase intensity to burst through this awful resistance. My exams are at july 25th & 27th so after that I can go for 7-8 loops per day. I will increase my sleeping hours to 10 if necessary.
EDIT: I now see that MLS has 5.5G technology. Being a young horny bastard, I obviously misread that information. I wanted to go for the girls. Well the MLS program is on my wish list. After the DMSI I could purchase the MLS program, and alternate between programs in 3 month cycles. Is that a good idea?
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Blazedo - 07-06-2018
There is an MLS 5.5G program.
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Williamx25 - 07-06-2018
(07-06-2018, 12:42 AM)Blazedo Wrote: There is an MLS 5.5G program.
Yeah I just saw it on the webshop. Well i didn't read it properly and skimmed through the other products. My eyes fixated on the DMSI 5.5G program
I want to address multiple problems at once because I think i'm running out of time lol. If I don't do something about it now, I will have the same problems at 30 years. I'm 25 years now and I have to improve myself. Now or never. It's really challenging and I feel that the DMSI program is helping me with my gym goals and motivation.
Yesterday I had a bit of a low depressed day, with the hot weather I complained about my situation. Fortunately things are changed now. DMSI is indirectly helping me with the healing/clearing and confidence. It's a though ride but I see light at the end of the tunnel.
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Williamx25 - 07-18-2018
Small update:
Nothing happened in the last few weeks. Just the usual, going to the gym, get interest from women and pussy out. I'm experiencing heavy resistance aka stonewalling. It has to do with my self image I think. I don't feel worthy of being with beautiful women who hit on me.
I'm going to get those sleepphones to listen to 7-8 loops per day while I sleep. I need to crush this resistance. I'm also feeling heavy rage and disencouragement feelings. About everything in life. I feel like I have to quit sometimes and being mad at nothing.
It's almost self therapy or something, it's definitely doing something with my emotions and I have ALOT of garbage to arrange.
I'm also not sleeping well, as in not sleeping enough hours, waking up in the middle of the night sometimes. Experiences more exhaustion on the body. That's why it's very important to have a proper diet and proper sleep. I can feel already if I don't eat enough that I will be fatigued/groggy. Cloudy mind, brain fog etc.
Nofap is very easy to do. The programming helps to resist the urges. I breeze through the days without thinking too sexual or getting super horny. I have 100% control but I don't know how long that will last if I increase my loops to 7-8 per day.
So I have to push through. There is light at the end of the tunnel.
5.5G DMSI 3.2A: day 30
Nofap: day 30
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Leo1990 - 07-18-2018
See a therapist.
RE: Williamx25's Journal 2018 - 5.5G - DMSI 3.2A - Williamx25 - 07-19-2018
(07-18-2018, 07:08 PM)Leo1990 Wrote: See a therapist.
Why? I honestly think that a therapist is not needed. I’m experiencing ups & downs and it’s a tough ride but i’m hanging in there.
Today I slept better again, and i’m feeling great. I won’t surrender. I have this fixation now and i’m determined to crush through all resistance.
My willpower is bigger than my subconsciouss. It’s tempting me to stop but I know his tricks. I’m clearing up alot in my dreams so that’s a good thing. I want to change consciously, it’s only a matter of time before I totally give in and start seeing the results. I believe in it 100%.