E 2.0 Day 50
Damn, I am legit excited about returning back to BASE with all the new tools and clearing I've done. I have also decided to start a new journal since this one got a bit busy with the E2 talk. So once BASE starts, new journal starts, and i can enjoy a completely fresh start (though this will technically be round 2 for BASE).
It's a bit crazy how fast things can change on E2. One day I can be pensive and wondering how the hell i'm going to fix myself emotionally, then in a flash the insight comes and all appears well.
Knowing that BASE is mere days away, using E2 is a bit like chewing on glass. There is no motivation and drive to really get out and do stuff. The upside is that the fear, guilt and shame crap has pretty much subsided so I have found I am able to concentrate more and for longer periods. I can also get myself to do small but essential things quickly which gets them out of my way.
I compare this to finding time to clean the house and really get things spotless. But that report i need to deliver and edit for my client? It can waaaait. What's the rush?
That's not the attitude i want to go forward with, but somehow in my healing process that's just how things have been.
14 days more to go on E2 though. Like wearing a cast and trying to itch a scratch. Can't wait till it comes off!
Damn, I am legit excited about returning back to BASE with all the new tools and clearing I've done. I have also decided to start a new journal since this one got a bit busy with the E2 talk. So once BASE starts, new journal starts, and i can enjoy a completely fresh start (though this will technically be round 2 for BASE).
It's a bit crazy how fast things can change on E2. One day I can be pensive and wondering how the hell i'm going to fix myself emotionally, then in a flash the insight comes and all appears well.
Knowing that BASE is mere days away, using E2 is a bit like chewing on glass. There is no motivation and drive to really get out and do stuff. The upside is that the fear, guilt and shame crap has pretty much subsided so I have found I am able to concentrate more and for longer periods. I can also get myself to do small but essential things quickly which gets them out of my way.
I compare this to finding time to clean the house and really get things spotless. But that report i need to deliver and edit for my client? It can waaaait. What's the rush?
That's not the attitude i want to go forward with, but somehow in my healing process that's just how things have been.
14 days more to go on E2 though. Like wearing a cast and trying to itch a scratch. Can't wait till it comes off!
