Trip.1e Bag It - Wrapping Up with my Aura Jimmy Hat - DMSI V3.1

[RTBoss]

I don't know if I was just uncomfortable, or if the increased noise isolation and sound quality gave my brain a jolt, but I laid wide awake for the first 2 1/2 loops. I don't recall eventually drifting off to sleep, but when I woke, the 5 loops were over. I couldn't wait to take 'em off and put them on my nightstand!

Other than being forced to lie on my back (I prefer side sleeping), the top of the headphones put pressure on my head that necessitated me moving them to different spots as my head became sore. Hopefully I'm able to eventually find a spot that minimizes that.

Time will tell if better headphones = better input & execution of the subliminal.

RE: Raikahoken

Yeah, I recall you saying that you had custom earbuds that you left on a plane? I'll have to get to a place where my disposable income is ridiculous enough to justify something like that, but perhaps someday!

[Raikahoken]

I don't know if I was just uncomfortable, or if the increased noise isolation and sound quality gave my brain a jolt, but I laid wide awake for the first 2 1/2 loops. I don't recall eventually drifting off to sleep, but when I woke, the 5 loops were over. I couldn't wait to take 'em off and put them on my nightstand!

Other than being forced to lie on my back (I prefer side sleeping), the top of the headphones put pressure on my head that necessitated me moving them to different spots as my head became sore. Hopefully I'm able to eventually find a spot that minimizes that.

Time will tell if better headphones = better input & execution of the subliminal.

RE: Raikahoken

Yeah, I recall you saying that you had custom earbuds that you left on a plane? I'll have to get to a place where my disposable income is ridiculous enough to justify something like that, but perhaps someday!

Yep that sucked... It's so easy to leave behind. Well at least it will be harder for you to leave behind your headphones! And yeah I also found when I try to sleep while listening to subs with my earbuds, I just couldn't fall asleep. It never worked for me, I only can sleep with my speakers playing ultrasound.

[RTBoss]

Dowsing's been interesting...First it was 5 loops, then 3, now 2. I wonder what tonight's session will say? Maybe 2 again. It's like I just need enough input to refresh, and the rest is processing.

Funny tidbit from a few days ago...

I've been napping using Brain.FM lately, but using the "meditation" setting. It only allows for 30 minutes. I get deep, and have varied sexual visualizations. I decided to start a second session, and in the middle my eyes snapped open - I was WIDE awake. I suddenly felt compelled to get up and go to the gym. My wife was sleeping on the couch, too, my son up in his bedroom, and my daughter in the swing in the living room. I had to get ready and leave quietly as possible.

So I get to the gym, get out of the car, and realize...I forgot my fuckin' earbuds! NOOOOO! I was pissed, got back into the car, and I'm like, "Why would I do that! I never forget my earbuds! Dumbass, dumbass, dumbass!" Lol, overly dramatic. But that's whatever, I get to the intersection, and here comes the high school girl's cross country team. Just in time so that they all have to run in front of my car. I had no less than 10 smokin' hotties with slender, amazing bodies smile and wave at me as they passed, and 3 of them turned around and ran backwards to look at me while beaming. It was crazy, like a movie.

Ego stroked.

[Have at ye]

Heh, heh. Enjoy.

Been having things like that happen to me periodically ever since I started using DMSI3.1, including the "crap, I forgot this thing or other and now have to get back" to make the timing perfect.

[RTBoss]

Still dowsing, still coming up with 2 loops of DMSI Version B. Running masked only tonight. I'm listening now, and trying to finish before going to bed for a change.

Did masked/hybrid combo the last two nights - switching the order each day. Didn't notice much difference, other than after the hybrid track finished last night, my eyes snapped open and I was suddenly thinking about my MIL/FIL and things I hate about them. Totally ruined any thought I had of going back to sleep. Then, my daughter started crying and my wife got up to feed her. I laid there tossing and turning, until I finally went downstairs and laid on the couch. I used Brain.FM to get me to relax and "turn off my brain," which helped. I think I got 3 hours of sleep, eventually.

I've had progress in areas that don't directly involve interaction with women, but my career, as well as music I've been working on.

I'll just list some of the stuff:

-Bought equipment to record guitar/vocals at home.

-Learning about home recording techniques using Audacity.

-Playing a lot of guitar, and my song writing is flowing amazingly. I liken it to a form of psychic gift, where songs literally just come to me out of the ether. I've always been this way, but DMSI is opening me up more than ever to receiving like a flood. I've been thinking about really getting after this avenue more and more, lately. I see all these shows of people starting DIY businesses, or people posting Instagram photos/making Facebook posts with their work/creations/art/what-have-you, and everyone is always like, "Good for you! Amazing!". What's different about my ability to make music and share it? It truely is *my gift* - the one natural aptitude I was born with. I have a natural inclination toward learning and performing, perfect pitch, and an eerie ability to pull a catchy hook (redundant much?) out of the air. It's crazy how I've held myself back all these years, ever since my parents told me how becoming a working musician was just a pipe dream, that a degree was the only way to go. Then, when I have a degree, I could "do whatever I wanted..." but we all know how that turned out. I still remember asking to go to school to become a recording engineer, and my dad comes back with an offer (he had a connection) to become a radio engineer. It's not even close to the same thing, and I remember thinking, "Do you even listen to me or what *I* want?" But I digress. Now, I'm diving headlong into music again, and I should. While I kick myself for not getting to this point before now, it's almost like this is how it was always supposed to be...that this is just the beginning of "my time."

-Anger issues are down. Some things I'd normally rage I'm actually weathering very well. It's a relief that I can see headway in that dept.

-I posted shirtless photos using PhotoGrid to my Instagram account with hashtags related to my personal training business. All the likes have come from women, and quite a few are my wife's friends and coworkers. A male client from years ago also "liked" it. Who knows, perhaps he'll start back. In the past, I would have talked myself out of this kind of thing as "showing off," but now I have no shame about it. None. #feelsgoodman

Side Note: I forgot that my SIL follows my Instagram. No "like" from her, yet. I didn't even consciously think about her possibly seeing it until after I posted. Haha, it's just a preview, anyway - our annual fishing trip with my wife's side of the family is coming up in 16 days and I'm getting more ripped each passing second. Many hours of kayaking and swimming to be done...

-Still getting many looks, IOIs, and the more it happens the less I care. I don't smile at them, I don't talk to them, and I don't know what to make of that, exactly.

-Continue to experience high motivation and will power, in general. I'm especially dialed in with my workouts, nutrition, supplementation, and music.

-Still no interest in alcohol. None.

-Just booked a trip to Cancun for February. That'll make it easier than ever to keep motivated in the gym this fall/winter.

-Still no sexual effect on wife, really. If I don't make a move or say something, no sex.

-No clue as to LDS target, still.

-No major manifestations, other than stuff like, "Oops, forgot my keys, detour in a way you wouldn't have consciously thought of, now look at some high school girls and get yourself a smile!"

-Libido has been down, in general, since making the switch back to B.

'Til next time...

[thor2014]

I am loving these journal keep up the good work. Letting go of consuis control is something that got me thinking thanks RTBoss.

[RTBoss]

Dowsing 1 loop the past few days...Man, that's so nice. 1 and done!

Heat is coming back, libido is coming back, IOIs are ramping up from women I actually find very attractive, I've gone and de-grayed my fur again - to which my dad said I look at least 5 years younger.

I walk, and men of all types gtf outta my way. I would walk right through 'em if they didn't. I feel like they'd see a wolf if they were to catch a glimpse into my eyes.

Dude at my gym I just started seeing at times I go walks with an exaggerated pimp walk, and every time I see him, he skirts clear of me, and I swear he deflates just a bit to see me there.

I get leaner every day. Can't say how stoked I am about that.

Suddenly "A" isn't so sure she wants to get back with her hubby after all. She DOES want to increase the frequency with which she hangs out with my wife outside of work, however. Hmmm!!!

Had a date with my wife to celebrate 5 years of marriage. Very comfortable, fun time, and NO fighting! Amazing. See Dunkirk, folks. Unbelievable.

Starting to get free stuff again.

Thought there was something else, but honestly, I'm beat and gotta sleep.

[RTBoss]

7 days since my last post...

Well, it's because there hasn't been much to say, really. The changes aren't rapid or noticeable anymore. Oddly, I think that's...good?

I went with my wife's family to see close family friends of theirs last night. After initial re-introductions, I was approached by the patriarch of their family - a True Alpha. This guy is one of the only men I've ever met in person where I can just feel a genuine alpha presence. I like him a lot, and he likes me. We took a cruise together - both families - a few years after my wife and I started dating. One night at dinner, I was completely loaded. I had my wife's sister (who obviously wasn't my sister-in-law at the time) and this guy absolutely dying from laughter. Since then, he's hired my dad (a tax lawyer, probably one of the best in the entire country, let alone the state) for estate planning and doing the tax work for his (very successful) construction company.

This home I was in, which he built, overlooked a gorgeous green valley - I hope to have a home like it somewhere peaceful some day, but I digress. After we spoke, I didn't speak to anyone but my wife and son for the majority of the evening. I just didn't care to. It's as if I was unapproachable, in the sense people felt like they weren't up-to-par with me. That sounds a little arrogant, but it's how it felt. It's also how *I* felt (like I didn't have anything in common with anyone, and didn't care to associate myself with them). I snubbed my sister-in-law all night. She'd look at me, and I'd turn away or walk away. If she thinks sticking her chest out at me is enough to grab my attention anymore, she's got a lot of work to do.

The most interesting thing was Alpha Guy's daughter-in-law. She's 9 months pregnant, and all-baby. And breasts (take note, Shannon ). She's smokin' hot, but very, very quiet. I've never had a conversation with her. She gives one-word answers, and never asks her own questions. But like I said, she's gorgeous (and smart/driven - working on a doctorate in physical therapy...bonus!!). I was looking around the room, and caught her eye. I looked away, then scanned back. She was still looking. Then I broke eye contact again. And again, when I scan back, she's still staring at me. That garnered a mental WTF!?

When the night came to an end (we left early, because we had to get the kids home), my mother-in-law enthusiastically hugged me, my father-in-law aggressively shook my hand and told me he was looking forward to seeing me in a week for our fishing trip, my BIL/SIL were sheepishly looking at me - like they were hoping I'd notice them and say goodbye (which I did). The host family clung onto us, delaying our departure by 15 minutes, like they weren't ready to say goodbye. So, clearly, good things going on. I guess it seems "normal," because I've gone from "becoming," to "have become," and I'm now just looking for more.

In conclusion, my observations for the evening are that 1.) I'm unrelateable, unapproachable, and/or intimidating, 2.) ASD is kicking like a horse for the ladies, 3.) IDGAF is so strong, I come across as bored/uninterested/can't be bothered.

Last notes to mention:

Saw "A" on Friday night. Had no clue she was coming over to the house. She was wearing short-shorts, and appeared very nervous. When she sat across from me, her legs were spread open. At one point, she started talking about when her boys were older that she'll tell them never to trust any women, and never to believe what they tell them - "If they say they're on birth control, don't believe them, and wear a condom!" Then she alluded to herself being sexually active at a young age, and getting pregnant. Not sure where all of that came from. At another point, my wife was down the driveway talking with another work friend, and "A" walked away from me to them - but as she did, she "scratched" her leg. This necessitated, apparently, lifting her shorts up SO HIGH she showed me she wasn't wearing any underwear. :exclamation:

I'm getting frustrated with the dowsing. The past few days, I'm either getting conflicting answers, answers waay different than normal, or no answer at all. I gave up on it completely last night, and changed from 1 loop to 5 loops. I slept right through them, but tossed a few times. Those times I tossed in my sleep, I noticed that no wood was present, but I was radiating heat. This morning I woke up to my son using the bathroom, and reluctantly dragged my ass out of bed.

That's it for now. I'll update as I notice changes and/or experience noteworthy events.

[SargeMaximus]

It's also how *I* felt (like I didn't have anything in common with anyone, and didn't care to associate myself with them).
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In conclusion, my observations for the evening are that 1.) I'm unrelateable, unapproachable, and/or intimidating, 2.) ASD is kicking like a horse for the ladies, 3.) IDGAF is so strong, I come across as bored/uninterested/can't be bothered.

Me too.

[LionKing]

Nice. Its starting to sound like what was previously reported from doing 2 years of AoS 4G: lots of status and admiration. Its a testament and a reminder for me at least to just keep running the chosen sub for an extended time and not get caught up in trying to optimize and take shortcuts.

[RTBoss]

As more people hop off the DMSI train and onto MLS or UD, I feel even more obligated to stick with running DMSI. I'd love to run MHS, MLS, or UD, but I said I'm in it 'til the end, and I will be. Perhaps that's stubborn ego, but something in me insists I stay put.

Since switching to 5 loops masked (3.1-B), some subtle shifts are occurring. Most notably, I had a dream last night where this chick was trying on different sexy outfits, and then told me she had to go "shave her bookshelf." Lol, I'm pretty sure that I even cracked up at that in the dream. I'm admittedly a sapio-sexual, but a woman referring to her vajay as a bookshelf?

In non-DMSI related news, I went with my parents and kids to watch the eclipse yesterday. We had 2 min and 29 seconds of Totality. It was one of the most amazing experiences I've ever had. It was like being in a scifi movie. This ring of light sparkling from behind the dark of the moon...Unbelievable. I'm probably going to end up traveling to see it again when it hits the states in 2024. My kids will be older and more able to appreciate it. I'll make sure my wife goes, as well. Unfortunately, she had to work yesterday and was only able to view some of the partial.

[SargeMaximus]

I feel no need to switch from DMSI. I dunno, the hoopla isn't getting to me.

But cool, the eclipse was total where you were eh? You must live in idaho or woming or something, because I met some old folks who said that's where it would be a total eclipse.

We didn't get it here, just a bit, but I saw it.

Last time I saw a full eclipse I was in vegas. It was very cool to see.

[RTBoss]

I feel no need to switch from DMSI. I dunno, the hoopla isn't getting to me.

But cool, the eclipse was total where you were eh? You must live in idaho or woming or something, because I met some old folks who said that's where it would be a total eclipse.

We didn't get it here, just a bit, but I saw it.

Last time I saw a full eclipse I was in vegas. It was very cool to see.

The transit occurred across the entire US. There are maps of it online, but yes, you could easily surmise where I am with all the clues I've laid out in my journals over the past few years.

[SargeMaximus]

I feel no need to switch from DMSI. I dunno, the hoopla isn't getting to me.

But cool, the eclipse was total where you were eh? You must live in idaho or woming or something, because I met some old folks who said that's where it would be a total eclipse.

We didn't get it here, just a bit, but I saw it.

Last time I saw a full eclipse I was in vegas. It was very cool to see.

The transit occurred across the entire US. There are maps of it online, but yes, you could easily surmise where I am with all the clues I've laid out in my journals over the past few years.

*goes back through RT's journal to find his location*

I'll find tour house and do some D2D with you.