Transcendental Sith Lord's UMS Journal

[Shannon]

Okay, interesting.  I'll look into that.  But you "not getting any results from this program"... have you read your own journal?

I do admit It wouldn't be fair to say absolutely nothing since I did at least get the China job and I don't have to worry about storage for my stuff. Other than that I haven't really noticed anything concrete. All I've noticed is my symptoms flaring up constantly and quite frankly its driving me crazy. This is with me still using it at the suggested usage patterns. I'm just tired... so tired of living like this. I've had this crap ruining my life for like 8 years now. I just want it gone. There is that and like I said I am wondering if this is literally getting in the way of me executing any of this besides LTU to a degree since you said it had MHS "lite" affects. It seems like every time I get close to maybe a breakthru the trauma flairs up and I literally can't break thru it. 

My concern is this if it is true my hippo-campus has been damaged as I said and this leads to me not being able to sufficiently regulate things like fear, motivation, and anger (since I am literally physically incapable of doing so due to the physical damage) would that affect my ability to execute? In theory?

Okay, so what you're telling me is that you're using it at suggested usage patterns, and that is insufficient for you.  Whenever you start executing the PTSD flares up, and that means that the PTSD is backed by fear.  So the solution here would be to use it enough loops per day, enough days in a row and get the right number of days off in a row for you.

You started off using it 8 loops a day for days on end, IIRC.  Maybe that's what the program was directing you to do?  Why not try going back to that and follow your gut?

Ultimately, the PTSD sounds like it has to originate from fear, and for that to end, the underlying fear has to be dealt with.  It won't be if you don't use the program enough and jump to something else.  

MHS 5.75G will affect any brain healing you need, but will it be getting through the fear itself?