Transcendental Sith Lord's OF Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Hi. When did you start listening the program?

Eh, I started it around the time the same time it came out though I do remember taking a short break but not too long. So only a small interruption I believe. 

 Dayuumm man tht superior. wow. what progress. no wonder you did feel like posting much lately. you were and are too busy LIVING it and experiencing it for such. glad ja did though. more power to ya in the coming weeks and months. I could see using OF for 18 months straight.....I've been on it since July 3rd or there abouts, when UMS2 finally comes out,I'll switch over,fortunately it will have FRM4.9 in it or 4.9.0 or 5.0 by then,either way the journey continues. Gawd are we some Luck Mfker's!! Ha! I swear we are soo fortunate. No therapist I know can give  us what this good sh^t does.... people could spend years 'on a couch' so to speak.....decades even...therapy is good and I recommend  damn good one,s but this things takes things to a whole new level.

 again more power to ya.... 

Thanks, I feel like I've finally made it where pretty much most of the garbage is cleared through. Reading you post did slightly remind me of 2 things I forgot to mention which i knew I was probably going to forget something. First off I think i got over whole "fear of death (Change)" which was the crux of a lot of problems with execution for a lot of people. I think in some way it basically got rid of this "neediness" towards survival. Sounds weird but its like if I die tomorrow I'm perfectly fine with that. Do I want to die? Of course not but I don't "need" to survive either. What will happen will happen and I will just do what I need to do in order to fullfill my goals. If Some freak accident happens where I die early before I do that then so be it. I'm able to look to something beyond death and survival. It almost reminds me of something Griffith said in Berserk: 

"There are those that see only life and death. They are already dead for they have no dream to carry them forward". 

Secondly, Doubt has nothing to do with being able to change your mind. There was this "fear" that if I didn't keep doubting myself I would get arrogant and not be able to change my mind when I was confronted with facts. That of course is a bold face lie. There are people who are self confidant about the path they walk but when confronted with new facts are able to change their minds and walk a new path when need be. You don't need to continually doubt your own beliefs, etc in order to change your mind. That is a complete fallacy. It is interesting how on first glance some of the things the subconscious believes "might" sound reasonable but upon further investigation it isn't. 

I think those are the 2 important things I forgot to mention. 

@Benjamin Thanks for the support!