02-26-2019, 07:19 PM
Hey all!
Glad the forum is back up and running. Thought I would give an update since I'm only a few hours away from starting to listen for my 3rd day of LTU 5.0. Eh, so far I will say the sub seems pretty decent so far and pretty powerful. I have noticed a few others things though. First off I should mention the situation with the girls. Things with the Indonesian women is going great and I find that we are talking more excitedly with each other and earlier in the day I might add. I have noticed that she seems to be falling for me more and more. Funny enough I find myself enjoying her company more and more. I'm getting to the point of actually allowing myself to be vulnerable and am actually feeling feelings of love towards her.
I'm pretty sure she is feeling the same because I have noticed from the time I started feeling TID to actually running the sub that she has started being more open about having somewhat sexual discussions to a degree and seems to be more certain that she wants to be with me. For example, She has told me of how if we got together she actually has some role play fantasies and asked me if I was ok with trying out such a thing. Funny thing is she also told me in private if we live together that she will mostly just walk around in bra and panties because its more comfortable for her and also for my benefit. Along these lines I asked her if she wouldn't mind wearing a "certain" outfit (The ones a women working in a Casino in Las vegas would wear with bunny ears) and she said she would have no problem wearing that around the house for me.
She seems to be ok that as long as she is in a committed relationship she is freely ok with her sexuality and expressing it to the man she is committed to. On top of that we seem to be fine on other levels as well because she seems fully committed to taking a relationship seriously and constantly looking on ways to maintain it. To me this is quite an anomaly because I have wanted a women who takes relationships seriously and when hard times come doesn't just cut and run. Most of the women I have seen in my life up to this point seem to be the exact opposite. They just see a relationship as some game or thing to get into when they are bored. When they start to lose interest in the guy or hard times come she just dumps the guy and finds another. Its quite refreshing to find a girl who has similar views to me.
It would seem so far this strengthening seems to be due to the improve your love life module. As for the second girl I still have feelings for her but haven't gotten to talk to her as much because something horrible happened to her. She was pretty sick the last 2 weeks or so but then she got rushed to the hospital yesterday. It turns out the reason she was so sick was because she had the measles. So far her conditioned has stabilized but she might not be out of the hospital for a while. Problem is the Philippines is pretty messed up. Apparently she has told me that in order for her to leave to go home, she has to pay the medical bill. The problem is if she can't pay the medical bill she has to stay. The longer she stays the longer her bill gets. It seems like a really fucked up system if you ask me for a third world country where most in the government probably know most people can't afford such things.
I'm hoping something happens soon that will get her out of this situation. Anyway, besides all these other results I am getting motivated to study more now and hopefully I will take my retake test for accounting soon and actually pass. Other than that I did realize another thing. I realized that when considering doing the software programming degree I was mainly motivated by fear and that was the fear that mainly just teaching English wouldn't be enough to support myself or a family. At the same time though part of me still wants to go through with it to see if I like it and the fact that the money and job opportunities would just be so good.
Other than that I've just been feeling decent lately but also I do feel like i'm emotionally vulnerable which makes me feel weird at times because I mostly keep these emotional walls up around myself to "protect" myself. Will see if there are anymore improvements on that front as time goes on. Anyway, that is about what I have noticed so far. Will report again probably once I start my second around sometime next week.
Glad the forum is back up and running. Thought I would give an update since I'm only a few hours away from starting to listen for my 3rd day of LTU 5.0. Eh, so far I will say the sub seems pretty decent so far and pretty powerful. I have noticed a few others things though. First off I should mention the situation with the girls. Things with the Indonesian women is going great and I find that we are talking more excitedly with each other and earlier in the day I might add. I have noticed that she seems to be falling for me more and more. Funny enough I find myself enjoying her company more and more. I'm getting to the point of actually allowing myself to be vulnerable and am actually feeling feelings of love towards her.
I'm pretty sure she is feeling the same because I have noticed from the time I started feeling TID to actually running the sub that she has started being more open about having somewhat sexual discussions to a degree and seems to be more certain that she wants to be with me. For example, She has told me of how if we got together she actually has some role play fantasies and asked me if I was ok with trying out such a thing. Funny thing is she also told me in private if we live together that she will mostly just walk around in bra and panties because its more comfortable for her and also for my benefit. Along these lines I asked her if she wouldn't mind wearing a "certain" outfit (The ones a women working in a Casino in Las vegas would wear with bunny ears) and she said she would have no problem wearing that around the house for me.
She seems to be ok that as long as she is in a committed relationship she is freely ok with her sexuality and expressing it to the man she is committed to. On top of that we seem to be fine on other levels as well because she seems fully committed to taking a relationship seriously and constantly looking on ways to maintain it. To me this is quite an anomaly because I have wanted a women who takes relationships seriously and when hard times come doesn't just cut and run. Most of the women I have seen in my life up to this point seem to be the exact opposite. They just see a relationship as some game or thing to get into when they are bored. When they start to lose interest in the guy or hard times come she just dumps the guy and finds another. Its quite refreshing to find a girl who has similar views to me.
It would seem so far this strengthening seems to be due to the improve your love life module. As for the second girl I still have feelings for her but haven't gotten to talk to her as much because something horrible happened to her. She was pretty sick the last 2 weeks or so but then she got rushed to the hospital yesterday. It turns out the reason she was so sick was because she had the measles. So far her conditioned has stabilized but she might not be out of the hospital for a while. Problem is the Philippines is pretty messed up. Apparently she has told me that in order for her to leave to go home, she has to pay the medical bill. The problem is if she can't pay the medical bill she has to stay. The longer she stays the longer her bill gets. It seems like a really fucked up system if you ask me for a third world country where most in the government probably know most people can't afford such things.
I'm hoping something happens soon that will get her out of this situation. Anyway, besides all these other results I am getting motivated to study more now and hopefully I will take my retake test for accounting soon and actually pass. Other than that I did realize another thing. I realized that when considering doing the software programming degree I was mainly motivated by fear and that was the fear that mainly just teaching English wouldn't be enough to support myself or a family. At the same time though part of me still wants to go through with it to see if I like it and the fact that the money and job opportunities would just be so good.
Other than that I've just been feeling decent lately but also I do feel like i'm emotionally vulnerable which makes me feel weird at times because I mostly keep these emotional walls up around myself to "protect" myself. Will see if there are anymore improvements on that front as time goes on. Anyway, that is about what I have noticed so far. Will report again probably once I start my second around sometime next week.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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