Thors Journal

[stratos]

That's good, I tend to miss out on the sudden ones that disappear quickly. Such as a women flirting or approaching out of nowhere. Happens much more to me after doing the first 2 1/2 months of SM3.

[thor2014]

Day 3

Found it hard to sleep last night. Whilst listening to the audio I began having weird dreams. One was where I wokeup in a large bedroom with a giant hole in the floor which I almost fell into. Another dream I was in my bedroom and the doors of the wardrobe began opening and closing by themselves. I woke up alittle scared but then within minutes I was back to normal.

In the dream I got up and plucked up the courage to walkup to the wardrobe and slam the doors shut. In another dream I was walking through a house which was knee high in water. Had half a dozen dreams but cannot recall all of them.

Is it normal to have these strange dreams ? Why am I getting them ?

Over a week ago I invested in the authentic PUA home study system which I have began reading.

Years ago I did spend time going out gaming with members of the community and learned a lot from some really cool guys. I had no problems approaching and getting dates but that's where things stopped. Something deep inside me was stopping me from progressing any further. Some guy told me he had spent ten years working on his game in the community.

I don't have ten years I am hitting 47 years old my goal is to be in a long term relationship with the girl of my choice in a year from now and one day have children. I also want to retire and not have to work 4 years from now providing my business continues to be a success.

One of the hardest things at this age is to have to deal with those who think theres something wrong with me being single at this age. This sometimes gets to me.

[thor2014]

GYM PLAN 4 times a week 45 minutes per session

1. Monday Chest and Triceps
2. Wednesday Back and Biceps
3. Thursdays Shoulders
4. Sunday Legs

[thor2014]

Excellent point Shannon thankyou

One thing being a photographer has taught me about life is... when opportunity presents itself, grab it like a starving man grabs an unususpecting chicken by the neck. Never do it "next time", because the only thing that stays the same in life is the fact that everything changes. You may not get a next time.

[thor2014]

Day 4

Continue to have strange dreams whilst listening to the audios at night whilst I sleep. One was I was driving around in an expensive car. The other dream I stood up to one of the personal assistants who was giving me a hard time at a previous place I use to work.

This morning I woke up feeling alittle down managed to pick myself up and wrote down a list of goals for the next week.

[Fonzy3]

Welcome to the forum thor2014, is there a reason why you chose AM 5 over AM6?

Thanks

Fonzy

[thor2014]

Thanks mate

Two reasons I wanted to get started right away and secondly Shannon offered a huge discount on AMS 5.0.

Welcome to the forum thor2014, is there a reason why you chose AM 5 over AM6?

Thanks

Fonzy

[thor2014]

Day 5

Continued to have wierd dreams one was of a giant snake crawling past me the other of me chatting up some girl on a bus. On awakening this morning felt angry towards a few people in my life that I felt had letme down and wanted to go out and tell them exactly how I felt.

Calmed down after about an hour or so. I was heading out to Germany to do some work for a client. Began flirting with the air hostess who responded well and then flirted with a couple of other girls. Started a random chat with the security guys at the client site wishing them well for the new year.

Early afternoon I felt alittle more sure of myself and more comfortable I found myself making eye contact with every person that walked past me on the street. Later in the afternoon I hit the gym spotted a cute brunette on the tread mill I looked at her across the room smiled and said "hi" she responded with "hi" and then I walked to the changing rooms to put on my gym kit.

Did a solid workout felt alot better afterwards.

[Fonzy3]

Man workouts do make you feel great. You should have joined that brunette for some cardio.

Thanks

Fonzy

[thor2014]

Day 6

The dreams that I have been experiencing I have very little recollection of them this morning. Felt more relaxed today. The anger I had for those who had letme down in the past seemed like distant memories.

Began taking tribulus last night together with ZMA as part of nutrition for the gym.

Went to the coffee shop and spotted a lovely brunette standing in the queue. I struck up a conversation with her complimenting on her looks. She came across rather shy blushed wished me a nice day and went of to work.

[thor2014]

Day 7

Went out with colleagues last night for drinks. One of the guys is really cocky and sarcastic. Deep down I use to feel hurt by his comments and feel anger towards him. Whilst we sat down he fired another sarcastic comment. This time I didnt take it personally I smiled ignored him and then fired back a sarcastic comment back at him he laughed it off. It was like being in the movie the Matrix all those agents firing bullets at me but I was dodging or stopping them from ever reaching me.

When I woke up this morning felt alittle resistance from my old self like there was a battle going on inside me. My old self was trying to tell me how shitty my colleague was last night and how other people can be shitty yet another part of me was telling me to ignre my old self.

[thor2014]

Hit on a couple of girls in the street in the evening but neither of them could speak english so the interation was short lived.

[thor2014]

Day 8

Last night had the wierdiest dream ever. I was holding hands and making out with a girl and then all of sudden a demon grabbed me and pulled me away.

This morning I was feeling alittle emotional. One thing I have noticed is I started using moisturing cream and face wash every morning for the last 3 days. It was like I was caring for my appearance.

My urge to look at porn or masturbate over the last 3 days was gone (lets see how the next week or so goes)

[thor2014]

Day 9

Felt down this morning when I woke up. It was like was like part of me that wanted to give up on this whole journey and go back to who I was. Another part of me refused to give in once I was out the house and heading to work felt better especially after my workout at the gym.

Struck up a conversation with two girls in the coffee shop both were in relationships.