The Modern Libertine's diary

[ronatello]

Which also explains why we hit rough patches with the subs. In order to kill weeds, one must remove it by the root...

[Cortez]

Which also explains why we hit rough patches with the subs. In order to kill weeds, one must remove it by the root...

Exactly!

[Cortez]

I can see the rough edges being smoothed out of me more and more as I go through stage 5. Also, I am noticing the effects of the Carpe Diem sub more and more. I think the two are complimenting each other quite nicely, it would seem a little too well on some levels. You see, I can't seem to control my mouth. I say whatever I feel like generally and it amazes me the things I can get away with saying. I can say offensive things that noone else I know can get away with saying because it is congruent with me and because my delivery and the energy behind it is perfect. One thing that has lightened up, though is that I don't curse as much as I used to. Which means that I now only curse 75% more than the average person. Other effects that I have noticed from these two subs are

-Increased humor(Probably one of the main reasons I never offend people is that I often have them cracking up. I love humor, it cuts right through the ego and gets to the heart of people)

-My body languange is way more relaxed. My walk has become very pronounced since starting alpha male. People comment on it all the time. One girl in particular is fascinated by walk and is constantly imitating me, making fun(which is fine, I'm a joke just like everyone else), but then said if she were a guy she would want to walk just like me, because I have such a distinctive walk. I can't help it. I just feel like a king when I'm walking around most of the time.

-Recently and especially since stage 5, guys have started to really try hard to get my respect. It's funny to watch. I'll get head nods of acknowledgement from a hundred feet away. No joke.

-I've lightened up and that's great. I've always had a very light hearted and ridiculous view on life, but it didn't always show up in my demeanor. Though, I have a great sense of humor once people get to know me, I tended to have a very intense presence and to be honest, sometimes in the past, I have taken myself a little too seriously, which is a completely incongruent behavior for my particular view on life. I chalk it up to thinking too much. Anyway, stage 5 has taken care of a lot of that and hopefully the effects will further be magnified in stage 6. As it stands, I have people around me cracking up all the time.

-Sexual energy is getting stronger. That speaks for itself really. I met a blonde woman today(I have a thing for blonde women at the moment) and started talking to her and while we were talking, the energy between was so hot that I was gtting seriously turned by how turned she was getting. Those are unmistakeable intuition moments where I know "Yeah, something is probably going to happen with me and her in the near future" and I'm almost always right unless I change my mind later and decide I'm not as in to it as I once thought.(It's my choice once I know how turned on she is, because women rarely have connections like that and I seriously doubt they will ever be the ones to decide they don't want it. Women just don't work that way in my experience) In that case, the interaction we shared was nice enough. Cory Skyy is right. That connection that you have, when you have a connection like that is even hotter than sex.

-The Carpe Diem sub is causing me to take action on things. Procrastination has always been a problem for me and I feel like I'm finally ridding myself of it.

All in all, smooth sailing this month. Things ar feeling good!

[Cortez]

I'm so jaded with women. Most of the time I'd rather watch netflix by myself than even call a girl and have her come over. That's why I decided maybe I should do Woman Magnet or Sex Magnet. Maybe it will help with that...This indifference is getting insane. Women just seem like a pointless distraction most of the time. I'm sure this severe indifference will go away. The alpha set has made 10x more powerful, though. I'm not saying that is a bad thing, just an interesting one. Meanwhile women are falling for me left and right...apparently I have a fan club now(Or so I hear).

I'm certainly not trying to be arrogant here, this is just how I feel right now. The alpha set has some very strong effects on me.

Speaking of effects, I think the Carpe Diem sub is making me feel crazy. I'm very in the moment most of the time and it's making me really funny, but Ican't seem to control my mouth, lol. I'm sure the effects will settle in sooner or later and there won't be so much entropy. Let's hope so.

[Shannon]

Control your mouth? You're an alpha. You say what you damned well please! lol

Fan clubs form when a man is high value and difficult to "catch". You, sir, are achieving the dream.

Now why are you so jaded? Because they play games? Cheat? Lie? Backstab? Something must have you jaded. What is it?

In my case, I've had it with the things I mentioned and several more. I know not all women are like that, but it seems I will have to change my location to find women more in line with what I am looking for. Florida just isn't working for me.

[Benjamin]

A fan club?

hahahah that is awesome! Do they have a facebook page?!

-Ben

[RainbowAbyss]

Ok I just have to say this, carpe diem is a really wild card
of I have it in and out for quite a few weeks now, and I feel very sure of its positive
and negative impacts on me, since dropping it a 2 days ago, I feel much better on stage 4 2011
I have decided I don't like its effects, at least when mixed with Alpha, this is just me personally and maybe I didn't
give it enough time but I have ZERO perspective when Im on it, I get bored with everything, and if I can't be 'doing' something crazy I become really not ok. On alpha alone Im indifferent to women, on carpe diem with alpha Im even more indifferent, whatever I feel gets amplified to uncontrollable extent. Cortez if u like feeling crazy in the way u do and u like that extent of indifference awesome, but if its crazy like no perspective/can't get urself to take the action u want cause u just don't care, maybe try dropping carpe diem and let the alpha fly solo. That was the case with me and may be completely different for u, but just putting it out there.

[Cortez]

I think that may be a good idea for now, actually. Thank you. The two together are ust having some odd effects.

[RainbowAbyss]

Good luck!

[Cortez]

Control your mouth? You're an alpha. You say what you damned well please! lol

Fan clubs form when a man is high value and difficult to "catch". You, sir, are achieving the dream.

Now why are you so jaded? Because they play games? Cheat? Lie? Backstab? Something must have you jaded. What is it?

In my case, I've had it with the things I mentioned and several more. I know not all women are like that, but it seems I will have to change my location to find women more in line with what I am looking for. Florida just isn't working for me.

I think it's just that the girls I'm currently around don't do it for me anymore. They don't really spark a fire in me anymore. I probably just need to get a bigger social circle, but really that's my problem and one I intend to change very soon. I attract a lot of new age chicks and hippy-ish chicks for some reason and lately I've just been wanting the blonde cheerleader type, lol. Giggly girls that react to me strongly are what I'm in to these days.


A behavior that has diminished a lot since I started the alpha set is wanting peoples approval for the hot girl I'm with. I used to like to show off my hot girl for others approval. Thankfully I realized how pathetic this behavior is. Yesterday a girl I know asked me to describe a girl I see on and off to her. I just told her she was bald and had microcephalus(not true, but there's a thought "Attract your perfect pinhead" sub).
Most of the girls I see now are in secret. I keep my affairs in the shadows for their sake.

[Shannon]

The women where I am are very odd. I feel like an alien where I live. Even in the areas where people are more open minded and I get along with them better, I find that I am misunderstood to a degree that causes women to think I am saying things I am not... which prompts odd responses from them, and is often shocking and/or insulting to me when I am later told my someone else what they thought I was saying, thinking or doing. I suspect that the communication skills of the average person around here are degrading to nothing for anything that is not Twitter or Facebook.

It's starting to make me think there's just nobody in my area who has the mindset that will understand me. That kind of kills my desire to try. I think I am going to have to move to somewhere that does not have such a media addiction.

[RainbowAbyss]

Or just start talking like ur on twitter or facebook lol
Shannon can u elaborate or give an example if its not to business? I have an idea of what ur saying but am not sure.
I grew up in downtown manhatten, went to school in brooklyn-superal liberal etc but
I went to college where my roomates would hunt deer and bring it home, super right wing, 80% of the school
was Greek life, I felt like an alien and it took me almost 3 years to be able to properly relate to the women there, and the closer I got to them the less I realized there was to get. Lol In those days it wasn't exactly substance I was looking for.
IDK where u live but is it rural or urban? I feel like cali would be great for a subliminal business.

[Shannon]

Yeah, only, I am not on Facebook or Twitter, and I really am not looking forward to having to change that soon.

Examples would probably be getting a bit more personal that would be wise, but basically where I live, my beliefs, ideas, education, intelligence, point of view, way of doing things, comprehension, etc. seem to be about 180 degrees from the norm. There is literally nothing to do here, but go to the beach or go to a bar. Maybe bowling, or play pool. But for someone like me, who doesn't smoke cigs, is allergic to pot, doesn't do drugs, and is not much of a drinker, who also doesn't see the point of "clubbing", isn't very into sports, etc. I guess I am just way out there to the average person I meet. It also has to do, seemingly, with a lot of girls thinking they are a lot more attractive and socially valuable than they actually are, based on the general state of desperation most guys approach them with. The combination of that, coupled with people generally not being willing to try to think if they are under a certain age, makes for some really odd leaps of logic and interactions sometimes.

Where I live is a medium sized city, but it's not really urban. More like the entire thing is suburban, and spread out. Nothing is very concentrated in Florida, except in Miami, Jacksonville and maybe Tallahassee and a couple other cities. We have a very different general mindset here than does the city directly north of us (with whom we now virtually have melded), the one directly South of us (again, pretty much melded), East of us (as close to melded as the river allows) and even the ones North and South of those.

California is a great place for a subliminals business. At least one, and probably many, are based there that I know of. I may end up there myself. But for the time being, I am stuck here.

[Cortez]

That actually sounds like a good place for me to live. I loved the heat when I went to Florida a couple years ago. It's currently very cold here in Oklahoma and I despise the cold. It can be 150 degrees outside and I'll stay out there all day, but if it drops below 50, I'm miserable instantly.

But I see what you mean. I don't smoke weed anymore either, nor do I drink all that much, and so it's difficult to find things to do as most of the people I tend to meet like are pot heads and love to go to bars. Often times in the past, I would host dinner parties as opposed to a straight up house party. It's way more classy. That or a champagne party, but things got out of hand quickly with the champagne parties as I'm sure you can remember my story about the married girl who is still to this day obsessed with me. I dropped the champagne parties and now I'm looking for another venue to meet more people outside of work. I do meet a lot of people at work, because I'm currently working at Whole Foods and there are an enourmous amount of beautiful women in there on a daily basis, but I don't like to use that as a crutch. Noones social life should consist of work. Things are starting to change, though.