04-03-2017, 06:16 PM
Hey everyone, update time. I'll highlight the juicy part in bold for those who don't care about the "behind the scenes" shit. Started Track B a couple days ago.
For the past few weeks I've cycled through feeling a bit depressed. I have a friend whose currently got a 3-4 girl roster. On one day, he had many of them clamoring to spend time with them. On another day he ended up banging one chick only for another chick to hit him up wanting to f*ck so he f*cked two chicks in less than 12 hours. I've never been jealous of him and have always tried supported, and congratulated him. Last week...I'm not gonna lie I was feeling a bit angry...not with him but with myself. I kept thinking, damn it'd be nice to be able to have his success but I'm so f*cking lazy and complacent that I'm still in this situation. On a positive note, I finally settled on a good volume, which in my case is very low (between 1/15 of the max volume or 2/15 of max volume). This has produced better results it seems.
There's one chick my friend is banging that I tried to bang a while back but it didn't work out for me. I'll spare you the details but essentially the things she criticized me for and claimed she wouldn't do...she's doing with my friend granted some things have changed on her end but it still was irritating. It irritated me to the point to where I admittedly held a grudge and didn't want to be ANYWHERE around her. Technically, I still don’t
Now I genuinely...don't really care. And this feeling has permeated into other areas. For example, I'm a fan of WWE wrestler Roman Reigns. Been a fan since he was a member of the Shield. Dude gets roasted on so much for various reasons (some reasons I feel are valid others not so much...). Anyway, I've subconsciously avoided watching him due to not wanting to hear him get booed out of the building. Last night I watched his match against Undertaker (subpar match IMO) and the boos didn't do anything. The signs didn't do anything. I was simply focused on analysing the match. I was genuinely PISSED at the way the match went although I was mostly pissed at Vince McMahon for signing off on that shit....but I digress.
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Girl on the job, J (half Chilean, cute face and nice body) is apparently being affected by the aura. Normally she’s a bit of a flirt anyway so I normally don’t even like reporting anything regarding her since she flirts with not only me but a lot of the guys at work. Lately though, she’s been getting a bit more direct. Asking questions like what “sign” I am, cracking more sexual jokes. And the interesting bit is that I’m no longer hesitating, I’m actively responding by going back and forth. I had a fear of talking too sexual at work but...I guess not no more. Anyway she’s been getting into my personal space much more than is needed, placing her body directly against my crotch, things like that. In addition, when I told her she’s a little freaky she retorted “only a little ???? “. I honestly am not holding out any hope or expectations with this chick because of the reasons I stated previously.
Also had another chick I work with who I’ve mentioned before (cute chick but stuck up IMO) got close up on me and said “you smell nice”. Here’s the kicker...I haven’t worn cologne in almost a MONTH. I have worn the same shirt for a few days (it’s a work shirt) so she must be digging my natural pheros...score one for the phero optimizer. She also tried to neg me but quickly apologized and patted me on the back shortly. She was impressed that I genuinely didn’t care about her attempted neg and stated that the last guy she made that comment to went off on her. When I’m around her, I make it my mission to get my work done and leave. I’m not expecting nor wanting nor really giving a flying f*ck about what happens in regards to this chick but I’ll keep it real: it would cool to f*ck her but that’s it. If DMSI allows it to happen between either her or J then great. If not, whatever.
[i] Side Note: Still getting free shit via celebrity effect. Another chick at the job who started twerking when I was taking a picture of her (and another coworkers) bought me a cookie. I told her she didn’t have to but she insisted.
Right now I’m really nonchalant about a lot of this shit. I am aware that this time of clarity and non-attachment may fade and I’ll eventually be cast back into a depression but for now I’ll enjoy this time and simply say that I like the direction of DMSI...when I’m subconsciously cooperating. Design goal hasn’t been achieved but it’s definitely making me do things that could lead to something.
I start school again in May. Not sure how my subliminal future will look. On one hand, I'll have a good opportunity to test MLS 5.5G. On the other, come late June V3.2 should be out...and I'll be back on campus with a good testing ground for V3.2. I'll play this by ear.
For the past few weeks I've cycled through feeling a bit depressed. I have a friend whose currently got a 3-4 girl roster. On one day, he had many of them clamoring to spend time with them. On another day he ended up banging one chick only for another chick to hit him up wanting to f*ck so he f*cked two chicks in less than 12 hours. I've never been jealous of him and have always tried supported, and congratulated him. Last week...I'm not gonna lie I was feeling a bit angry...not with him but with myself. I kept thinking, damn it'd be nice to be able to have his success but I'm so f*cking lazy and complacent that I'm still in this situation. On a positive note, I finally settled on a good volume, which in my case is very low (between 1/15 of the max volume or 2/15 of max volume). This has produced better results it seems.
There's one chick my friend is banging that I tried to bang a while back but it didn't work out for me. I'll spare you the details but essentially the things she criticized me for and claimed she wouldn't do...she's doing with my friend granted some things have changed on her end but it still was irritating. It irritated me to the point to where I admittedly held a grudge and didn't want to be ANYWHERE around her. Technically, I still don’t
Now I genuinely...don't really care. And this feeling has permeated into other areas. For example, I'm a fan of WWE wrestler Roman Reigns. Been a fan since he was a member of the Shield. Dude gets roasted on so much for various reasons (some reasons I feel are valid others not so much...). Anyway, I've subconsciously avoided watching him due to not wanting to hear him get booed out of the building. Last night I watched his match against Undertaker (subpar match IMO) and the boos didn't do anything. The signs didn't do anything. I was simply focused on analysing the match. I was genuinely PISSED at the way the match went although I was mostly pissed at Vince McMahon for signing off on that shit....but I digress.
Here's the stuff you guys care about
Girl on the job, J (half Chilean, cute face and nice body) is apparently being affected by the aura. Normally she’s a bit of a flirt anyway so I normally don’t even like reporting anything regarding her since she flirts with not only me but a lot of the guys at work. Lately though, she’s been getting a bit more direct. Asking questions like what “sign” I am, cracking more sexual jokes. And the interesting bit is that I’m no longer hesitating, I’m actively responding by going back and forth. I had a fear of talking too sexual at work but...I guess not no more. Anyway she’s been getting into my personal space much more than is needed, placing her body directly against my crotch, things like that. In addition, when I told her she’s a little freaky she retorted “only a little ???? “. I honestly am not holding out any hope or expectations with this chick because of the reasons I stated previously.
Also had another chick I work with who I’ve mentioned before (cute chick but stuck up IMO) got close up on me and said “you smell nice”. Here’s the kicker...I haven’t worn cologne in almost a MONTH. I have worn the same shirt for a few days (it’s a work shirt) so she must be digging my natural pheros...score one for the phero optimizer. She also tried to neg me but quickly apologized and patted me on the back shortly. She was impressed that I genuinely didn’t care about her attempted neg and stated that the last guy she made that comment to went off on her. When I’m around her, I make it my mission to get my work done and leave. I’m not expecting nor wanting nor really giving a flying f*ck about what happens in regards to this chick but I’ll keep it real: it would cool to f*ck her but that’s it. If DMSI allows it to happen between either her or J then great. If not, whatever.
[i] Side Note: Still getting free shit via celebrity effect. Another chick at the job who started twerking when I was taking a picture of her (and another coworkers) bought me a cookie. I told her she didn’t have to but she insisted.
Right now I’m really nonchalant about a lot of this shit. I am aware that this time of clarity and non-attachment may fade and I’ll eventually be cast back into a depression but for now I’ll enjoy this time and simply say that I like the direction of DMSI...when I’m subconsciously cooperating. Design goal hasn’t been achieved but it’s definitely making me do things that could lead to something.
I start school again in May. Not sure how my subliminal future will look. On one hand, I'll have a good opportunity to test MLS 5.5G. On the other, come late June V3.2 should be out...and I'll be back on campus with a good testing ground for V3.2. I'll play this by ear.
