Strumming my Brain with MLS 3.0 Journal

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Day 35,

Had a 9.5 hour sleep on a workday. I was able to be relatively productive.
Tomorrow is my last work day before X-Mas.
Guitar playing at this new level is becoming more natural and effortless. The tougher parts are still tough, but I'll be able to iron them out with some effort.
Singing is still on pause, because of my cold/cough.

I'll soon write something quotable that can be used as a testimonial. For example, that I no longer forget small details that waste a bunch of time in manually retrieving. Once I ask myself a question, the first thing that comes to mind is typically the precisely correct answer.

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Day 36,

Fuck it. I bought MIR at the tail end of a lost voice/cough that won't die.
I'll probably wind up using it through the 5 days of my time off.

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MIR Day 1,

Most symptoms are gone, but singing voice is still not back to any effect.
Having dry coughs at this point.

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MIR Day 2,

Having coughing fits; they're not so productive, but they're not dry.
My singing voice has come back to some degree; the 'high' falsetto notes are appearing and are more airy than usual. This is better than producing no sound while coordinating up there.

I've been feeding my body less than ideally today, so that might halt my progress.

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MIR Day 5,

Cough isn't gone; in fact, it flared up. But, I haven't been helping, with my large Christmas meals and wine/some booze. It's done now. I'll go back to eating normally. This has been going on for 2.5 weeks (first symptoms were Thursday, December 7th). It's Christmas today.

Patchy use of MIR throughout the day; I have it on my person, playing Ultrasound throughout the day. But, I get a full night with it. Have been using detox supplements much less. My face looks like someone who is sick; it lacks complexion and really shows a lack of vitality around the eyes.

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MIR Day 6,

My voice opened up, in part, for a short while. Feeling fine, physically; only issues are a slight cough.
I'm more apathetic, don't want to read, don't want to work on voice, only practicing guitar near the end of the day. Don't want to go to the gym.

I get it; MIR is making me turn inward and focus on healing; so I'll tough it out. It's a bummer that I've had this particular strand of infection for 20 days as of tomorrow.

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MIR Day 7,

Voice has opened up a little more, but it's still getting breathy and shut off.
Was very tired today for most of the day.

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MIR Day 8,

Still recuperating. Voice is hit and miss; only been able to do lip-rolls with some success.

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MIR Day 9,

Day of work; my head is clear, but my heart is not set on a path right now. I arrived home, and simply practiced guitar most of the night. I skipped on reading my books, didn't work on singing (still recovering lol), and not feeling any real motivation to kickstart my year in 2018.

I spent my time filling my iHerb shopping cart with new supplements; I've only got about 40-50% of the supplements that I need. Overall, it's not at expensive as I predicted, but I keep feeling as though it will cost more than expected in the near future. Lucky for me, I've got leftover cash for the month of December, so I can order these extra supplements and have extra dough for a few small purchases once New Year's Eve comes around.

Did I mention that I'm a very lucky guy?

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MIR Day 10,

Started to do a little bit of voice training. Voice is still airy and falling apart, but is mostly back. It will be 22+ days without legit voice training due to this cough.

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MIR Day 11,

I'm starting to think that MIR's job is done. My voice is still a little breathy at places, but I think that it has to do with my training. I'll soon be stopping this sub and resuming MLS until DMSI comes out.

In the meanwhile.. HAPPY NEW YEAR, all!
I've finished a bottle of red on my own; didn't really have any plans for New Year's, so I practiced guitar throughout the night.

Here are some highlights for my 2017;
- Wrote and published a 350+ page book to Amazon; got 2 5-star reviews for it.
- Been practicing electric guitar, and have been improving in leaps and bounds.
- At my previous job: planned and hosted a trivia night that attracted 110 people. Also planned a gala for 120+ people. And a golf tournament for about 50 people.
- Took two mini-trips in my province; had some relaxation, but mostly worked on my book. Got to spend time in cities where I don't normally go.
- Added a stripe to my BJJ white belt; from two-stripe to three-stripe.
- Got a new job and increased my hourly rate by nearly 100%, but working fewer hours.
- Moved out of my parent's house and doing virtually everything independently. Paying all my own bills.
- Entered a singing contest and reached the finals, starting from a pool of 600-700 auditioners, and reaching the top 13.
- Read at least 40-45 full-length books.
- Starting taking acting lessons, and have been involved as a background in two projects; one movie, one tv show.

One of my better years; I'm going to keep working towards accomplishing my singing goals. Here's what I want to accomplish:
- Develop a voice that's capable of keeping an audience's attention; especially in the mid/high range.
- Start a YouTube channel, starting with guitar covers, and, as my voice improves, adding voice.
- Gain a blue-belt in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu
- Read another 40-50 books.
- Write and publish the second book of my series
- Refine my acting technique, and gain a principal/actor/lead role in a movie/TV show.
- Figure out my dating life, and have a bunch of sex with great partners (not with total strangers, but with women with whom I get along fabulously).

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Been feeling incredibly depressed and nihilistic, and I thought that I lost my will to live, until I clued in that depression could be a symptom of a hangover. Sure enough, it is. It's purely a neurochemical thing, not really anything else.

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Haven't used MIR yesterday night and today.
I'll be using MLS again soon.

Feeling no motivation; 2018 is starting off on the wrong foot. I have no objective.
I'm just taking this moment by moment; the day has flown by.

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MLS, Day 37,

Back to it. I've had an interesting day.
I was supposed to go back to work today, but my car battery wouldn't kick on (in -10 Celcius weather; it's been through worse). Got boosted by my landlady, and picked up a block heater at a dealership. Got my car diagnosed, needed to replace the battery, and then got the block heater installed. I should no longer have any problems for the rest of winter.

I finished this book called 'Busting Loose from the Money Game'. It's got a lot of esoteric ideas, to the point where it comes up as extremely solipcistic. It's taught me to not be overly concerned about my monthly budget, to the point where I'm doing mental calculations while driving, working, my spare time. What I do like about it is that it doesn't force you to make unnecessary expenses; it asks that you feel genuine appreciation about any purchases you already make, and apply a process when negative emotions come up. Then, when proof comes, you can deepen the process. It does ask that you consider life as an illusion; all people included, even yourself.

My brain is a little unfocused right now.
Also did a BJJ rolling session at my gym. Practiced a little guitar. Finally did some reading for my book again.