Strumming my Brain with MLS 3.0 Journal

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Day 8,

I'm getting better at guitar playing. There's no doubt about that. I'm listening to something, and take a stab at it on the guitar, and I successfully 'guess' my way through a solo on the first try after a couple of notes.

No real developments on singing; haven't worked on it. Need to work on it more.

Acting is on the back burner.

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After sleeping 8 hours between Wed-Thurs, I was out for 10 hours Thurs-Fri. Might be MLS, but I was doing ok on 6-7 this entire week.

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Had a dream where I basically murdered a couple in a home while their young toddler was in a closet in the basement. Very strange.

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Day 10,

Had a decent day today. I feel like I could be pursuing all sorts of interests on my days off, but I seem to be hyperspecializing. I could work on my book, or on languages, but I focus on guitar and singing. But, it's what I wanted, given that I originally made my 100 Day Challenge surrounding guitar/voice.

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This weekend, I slept 10, 9 and 9.5 hours respectively.s

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Day 11,

Had a pretty decent acting class; it was 1-on-1 for the most part.
My inner optimism is growing; I'm getting the hunch that I'll be able to accomplish all my side projects in a timely manner. I'm actually concerned that I'll accomplish it too quickly. I think the detox is working behind the scenes (or I've slept so much that I've unlocked the well-rested part of myself).

I'm realizing that environment plays a role (I continually re-learn this lesson). I asked my landlady for one of those TV tray tables (that were once in my apartment, but taken out). She had a spare one that is bigger than expected. I went from completely distracted from reading my 'research' books, to reading and notating just under half of the entire book after a few hours of reading. I just needed the extra desk space to rest my books and lean on. Before this, I was leaving my book on the floor, picking it up for a brief few moments before laying it down again. I didn't progress by a single page when I picked it up this morning.

Gosh, I love productivity-increasing tools, no matter how simple.

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Day 12,

Still taking my detox supplements. I had a glimmer of gratitude that I get to experience life in the 21st century (it started from my appreciating the music from Super Mario: Odyssey). But there's so much to be amazed about. I was born just as the internet was exploding around the world; I could have missed that time period by being born 20 years sooner. The world is moving so fast.

I'm making good progress on my reading projects. I expect to be finished my current book by Wednesday. I'm excited to read the books on evidence.

I'm still waking up rather tired. It's become easier for me to write out a stream of consciousness, but I'm not sure that will translate well to my book project, given that the boosk is much more calculated.

I'm inspired, but not motivated. However, I'm still putting in the work, because I know that life will be good. Once sleep becomes a non-issue, I'll work on waking up earlier in the morning (5am) so that I can read for 1-2 hours in the morning before work. That way, I'll have the energy to get it done, instead of drudging through my pages during the mid-afternoon slump. If my thesis on detox is correct, waking up at 5am might be a very attainable thing.

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Day 14,

This second run is just zipping along. I've been working on the guitar and my second book. Just had a voice lesson for the first time in a long while.

I've become tired at 9pm. I'll be going to bed before 10:30 pm.

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Day 15,

Last night/today was really strange; even though I slept more than normally the night before, I was so tired and ready to go to bed. I slept 8 hours solid, and then put myself back by one hour with the snooze button. I got to work one half hour late, and wound up leaving 45 minutes late.

Today, after work, I slowly, but surely, finished another book on the topic of research. I didn't touch the guitar today. I even saw and watched my laptop, playing videos in this dazed state once I returned. I didn't feel like doing guitar today. I guess it won't kill me to miss a day on the axe.

I did, however, do all my monthly administrative stuff; sent my invoice, created my schedule, and opened a new month of budgets. I did most of my X-mas shopping, and did it online. I did it today in order to fit it into November's expenses. Besides my monthly savings (which I set pretty high to begin with), my online shopping almost put me in the red for that month.

Thinking about money, it will be nice to be able to turn my attention towards money so that I can speed up my purchases. Right now, it's paced. Don't get me wrong, I'm in an excellent position. But, I want to be in a 'most excellent' position. Let's just say that I'm working on it.

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Day 16,

Slow day, but I've made some definite progress. I went to two restaurants today to meet two friends. Practiced guitar. Wrote down some notes for my class tomorrow (a dialect workshop).

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Day 17,

Woke up incredibly tired, and I'm now incredibly wired at 2 am.
I spent the day at the dialect workshop (woke up late for it), and I spent most of my evening working on formulating my goals for 2018, and how I'll spend my time, day to day, from January 1st to April 1st (Quarter 1). I also put up a list of things I'd like to buy during 2018, if I experienced a substantial increase in income (nice motivation to work for).

I have more clarity as to what I should be doing; but now it comes down to actually doing it. Part of it relies on me getting less sleep than I am now (8-10 hours on days off; 6.5-7 hours on work nights).

Have been emotionally unstable for most of the day, which leads me to believe that I'm experiencing the incomplete effects of the detox/clearing from MLS. I don't think any reasonable person should feel as much security as I have without some sort of reason behind it; I happen to think that I'm more susceptible to metal toxicity.

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Day 18,

Lots and lots of sleep. My weekend feel much longer than it used to be.
I had this idea for a YouTube channel, but it would take a lot of work to do it properly. I could do a first project, and get it done before X-Mas.

Plenty of guitar practice today; some acting practice in class.
I've been less motivated and mobile today.

I have a new set of exercises that I can use at the gym starting tomorrow. I've been doing my current thing for 3 months with success.

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Day 19,

HO.LEE. SHIT. Here's a story for ya'll.
I went to university out of town, starting in 2010; the program is predominantly female, and my group of first-year students had about 50-60 people, with 5-6 guys, including me. One of those guys was a 25 year old who was in for a second degree. He was a club manager, personal trainer, and was well off because of it. He was very extroverted, charismatic, and talkative. He got me into clubs as an 18 year old, got me a fake ID, and he had me over to study together for a final. He dropped out of the program before second-year.

Right after I moved out of town in 2015, he was charged with sexual assault. I hadn't even heard about it until today, but today, it came out he's been convicted of raping a drunk woman at one of his bars. Sentencing has not been determined. He's 32 now, and I'm 25. Just about one week ago, I was comparing the quality of my life at 25 to his at 25, but that's a mistake I'll not repeat. You never know what skeletons people have hidden away.

I have other developments today, but I think the paragraphs above stand on their own.

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Other developments (didn't want to forget them):
- Getting acne on the T-zone of my face (associated with liver) and by my upper jaw bone next to my ears (associated with kidneys). These organs are associated with detox. Also getting exclusively mid-back acne, right where my kidneys are typically. I think that they're doing some real work.
- Read up to the 70th page of Jeremy Bentham's book. I don't think that it's relevant for what I'm writing, but I think I'll skim through it. It's a total of 330 pages.
- I feel really good today, despite "undersleeping"; I was more productive than usual, and I didn't crash. I did have a coffee at 2pm, which is later than usual.
- Had a good workout at the gym; doing an upper body thing; I'll probably balance it with a lower body routine.
- Despite all this; I'm having periods in which I'm doing virtually nothing. I'm just watching YouTube, and zoned out for an hour.
- Opened up the Anki app for the first time in a long while, and downloaded decks in German and Russian. I'll look at Japanese, Mandarin Chinese, and maybe an African language.