Strumming my Brain with MLS 3.0 Journal

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Day 32,

Yesterday, I forgot to mention that my emotional heights deepened (perhaps for that day only). But, this falls in line with what Chris told me about his energy work. He specifically said that I'll be sensitive about every little thing; this is what happened. I was laughing my ass off while watch comedy, crying hard while watching a sad video, etc.

Today, I'm getting all sorts of creative ideas when it comes with this book. I need to fill out a book list for the second book in my series, as well.

I'm getting creative ideas, in my opinion, due to the fact that I put every stray thought into an Excel spreadsheet, with certain sheets relating to what I'm doing this month, this week, next month, etc.

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Day 33,

Some realizations that I've been having:
- I've been asking myself about not only what I'm willing to do, but also what I'm willing to take to achieve something. When it comes to meeting women, let's say, in a bar, I've had this latent fear. I realize that it's about some guy to come along and strong-arm me. Once it was out in the open, I asked myself: "Am I willing to take a beating by some guy in order to do what it takes to get laid every once in a while?" ... Yes. Better yet, I told myself, I'd rip his fucking head off if he tried that. That said, I'd need the skills to do something like that (so to speak), which is why I'm becoming motivated to learn Muay Thai again.

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Another insight;

I give myself permission to go after what other people want, but not what they have. (a big insight for someone passive like myself).

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Another insight;

I give myself permission to go after what other people want, but not what they have. (a big insight for someone passive like myself).

Can you give an example?

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Another insight;

I give myself permission to go after what other people want, but not what they have. (a big insight for someone passive like myself).

Can you give an example?

I give myself to go after a woman that 10 men really want to date (even if they're present), but not a woman that's in a committed relationship, or otherwise tied up. In other words, I made a distinction in my mind that allows me to go after what I want, and not be unethical when I choose to fight hard to get it.

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Day 34,

A big day of orientation, even if it really took 6 hours. My brain became saturated a little past lunch hour. It's almost as though the subliminal isn't working. I then went to the music store and played some electric guitars, but I couldn't play through anything (probably because I used up all my brain power for the day). Right after I left, the guitar I ordered was shipped to the store. But, by the time I got to my location, the store was closing up. I'll pick it up tomorrow.

EDIT: My voice lesson after the guitar shop went really well.
I'm not bashing this program; I'm simply stating that my progress today does not live up to its full potential.

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Day 35,

Likely due to bad sleep last night, today was my least productive day, likely in all of 2017. I was as productive at work than I was on my first day at work one month ago. The guitar I ordered came in, and I picked it up today. It's a beaut.

Arriving home, I didn't do any language learning, no real guitar practice, no real progress on my sales funnel. The clock ticked until 11pm, which it is now. At this point, I have to go bed.

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Something I've noticed; my hamstrings are sore, even 2 days after doing my posterior chain workout. It only took 40 minutes, and I'm feeling their effects. I'm starting to think that lower body exercises have a greater hormonal than upper body.

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Something I've noticed; my hamstrings are sore, even 2 days after doing my posterior chain workout. It only took 40 minutes, and I'm feeling their effects. I'm starting to think that lower body exercises have a greater hormonal than upper body.

You're on the money here. Deadlifts and Squats are the greatest muscle building exercises because they target the largest group of muscles in the body which in turn cause an overall hormonal boost (growth hormone and testosterone). They are you're key to breaking through and achieving the next level in physicality.

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A realization I've had when it comes to dating:
'How soon after meeting her is she going to figure out what you want (to have sex with her/to date her, etc.)?'

'Now' or 'later' are acceptable answers, so long as you have a definite answer.
It is a way to clarify your intent towards a given woman.

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Day 36,

My work day was rather productive. I'm caught up on 2 of 3 major components of my work, and I'm able to stay on top of these from now on. I have 2 weeks to get caught up on the third, then, it's about staying on the treadmill, which might be its own challenge.

I got home, ate, went to the bank, did groceries, went to the gym and did my kettlebell exercise. It was tiring, but I got through further and faster than the first time. Then, I did some Italian. Then, I charted out the chords for a new song idea in a different tuning, which was easy. Then, I practiced Cliffs of Dover on guitar. I will do some acting prep before going to bed tonight.

Tomorrow, I'm completing that energy session.

Yesterday was either an off day, or today is a mild recovery and is indicating h/c.

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Day 38,

I think that MLS is start to kick on. I picked up my electric guitar on Thursday, and have been working on the Eric Johnson song Cliffs of Dover ever since. I was floppy and sloppy on Thursday night when I first tried. Now, it's Sunday, and I'm probably 80% complete in terms of playing clean, smooth, and on time. It's hard to set a metronome for some parts of the song, since there are sometimes quintets and a more liberal feel. My biggest weakness as a guitar player is playing to a beat; I've never really been in a band, so that wan't an issue. But I think it's improving.

I had my first acting class earlier today. There are exercises that I could do now, but there seems to be something stopping me from practicing on camera. I'll have to start small so that I can work on it.

It's also worth mentioning that I've been throwing caution to the wind, and not stopping after 4 loops. I don't really know how much I'm listening to it.

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Day 39,

Acting is a strange and awkward thing for me right now; I turned on my camera and did a bit of work on it. I worked on some exercises that our coach gave up. I intent on doing it 3 more times between now and next Sunday. The video is about 15 minutes, and features me trying out emotions and actions on camera. It's something that's awkward, and I sort of dislike, probably up until the moment I'm relatively good at it.

This makes me realize that a character like Dexter is something truly special.

Guitar playing has gotten a little better, too. It's improving at a steady pace that I think could make me legendary if I keep this going for a year.

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Day 40,

Gosh dang. I started recording myself acting out mini-scenarios on camera to try to improve my acting. The first one is really awkward, but there are some interesting moments in there. I think it's just about not thinking that what I'm doing is weird, and to totally buy into what I'm doing.

I'm not having feelings of cringe for seeing myself doing awkward things on camera. In fact, I'm pretty happy with myself, considering that it's my first time doing it.