Stage 10 is very interesting for me. I find that I'm getting alot of physical sensations throughout my body as well as many doubts flowing through my mind. It's been more down than an up kind of experience during this stage but I've been completely fine psychologically. I am making a big move soon and with that has come some amounts of stress but I've started packing up things and hopefully by packing up little by little for the next 10 days I can keep my stress levels though and well being high.
In addition to the physical sensations I've had many nightmares. But none I would consider actually scary. They have more or less been emotional nightmares. Being in situations where I just feel completely worthless or helpless. I've had a couple dreams where I'm crying and I feel EVERYTHING physically consciously as well. I think alot of what's being brought up is the fact that I lack self-acceptance and have for a long time. So I am rectifying that slowly by consciously reminding myself that I'm doing great at this thing we call life. I'm taking nearly every opportunity I can to overcome fears but I could push myself more.
All in all BAMM is pretty awesome to me. In time my self-acceptance will solidify and my sense of purpose in everything I do in life will become more clear. When it comes down to it if I want something I have to make the choice and commit to it. Looks like my lack of commitment to desirable opportunities is directly related to my lack of clear purpose (in those specific opportunities). BAMM is definitly making the "bigger picture" purpose clearer and clearer every single day though, and that's why I'm always in a good mood these days. THAT and I'm leaving my job to embark on a new and exciting journey filled with lots of money. haha
In addition to the physical sensations I've had many nightmares. But none I would consider actually scary. They have more or less been emotional nightmares. Being in situations where I just feel completely worthless or helpless. I've had a couple dreams where I'm crying and I feel EVERYTHING physically consciously as well. I think alot of what's being brought up is the fact that I lack self-acceptance and have for a long time. So I am rectifying that slowly by consciously reminding myself that I'm doing great at this thing we call life. I'm taking nearly every opportunity I can to overcome fears but I could push myself more.
All in all BAMM is pretty awesome to me. In time my self-acceptance will solidify and my sense of purpose in everything I do in life will become more clear. When it comes down to it if I want something I have to make the choice and commit to it. Looks like my lack of commitment to desirable opportunities is directly related to my lack of clear purpose (in those specific opportunities). BAMM is definitly making the "bigger picture" purpose clearer and clearer every single day though, and that's why I'm always in a good mood these days. THAT and I'm leaving my job to embark on a new and exciting journey filled with lots of money. haha
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
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"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
