04-17-2018, 08:40 PM
DMSI 3.2 A Day 22
Staring to notice a pattern here... Every time I have a good string of days where it feels like things are heading in the right direction it is inevitably followed by a period of increased anxiety. This was the most dramatic during my first week in of version B where everything just seemed to click and then all of a sudden I started becoming fearful of the change and unfamiliarity of it all. Since then I have not gotten back to that inner high point but similar ups and downs have transpired. I think it is good I am becoming aware of this though. For one it helps me realize that these down points will not last forever, and two maybe with enough cycles of ups and downs and awareness of the process it will allow me to allow myself to just let go and let success happen without resistance. To embrace change.
I am continuing to focus on and pursue my purpose. I am actively trying to be more kind and helpful to others. Currently reading the 6 pillars of self esteem and taking notes on it. HIGHLY recommend this book to anyone looking to improve their self esteem. I am not even halfway through, but have found it very informative and there have already been a few very practical exercises layed out that I think could have a great impact on ones ability to cultivate self esteem. Not sure if DMSI lead me to this book as I know it has SE 5.5 G in it, but I strategically tried to consider a book that could have the most positive impact on me at this very moment in time and I thought this foundational book on improving ones self esteem could be it.
So the gameplan is im goiing to ride out this period of anxiety and try to realize its just another phase that wont last, continue with DMSI, and continue reading this book and start applying some of the exercises in it and see what happens.
Staring to notice a pattern here... Every time I have a good string of days where it feels like things are heading in the right direction it is inevitably followed by a period of increased anxiety. This was the most dramatic during my first week in of version B where everything just seemed to click and then all of a sudden I started becoming fearful of the change and unfamiliarity of it all. Since then I have not gotten back to that inner high point but similar ups and downs have transpired. I think it is good I am becoming aware of this though. For one it helps me realize that these down points will not last forever, and two maybe with enough cycles of ups and downs and awareness of the process it will allow me to allow myself to just let go and let success happen without resistance. To embrace change.
I am continuing to focus on and pursue my purpose. I am actively trying to be more kind and helpful to others. Currently reading the 6 pillars of self esteem and taking notes on it. HIGHLY recommend this book to anyone looking to improve their self esteem. I am not even halfway through, but have found it very informative and there have already been a few very practical exercises layed out that I think could have a great impact on ones ability to cultivate self esteem. Not sure if DMSI lead me to this book as I know it has SE 5.5 G in it, but I strategically tried to consider a book that could have the most positive impact on me at this very moment in time and I thought this foundational book on improving ones self esteem could be it.
So the gameplan is im goiing to ride out this period of anxiety and try to realize its just another phase that wont last, continue with DMSI, and continue reading this book and start applying some of the exercises in it and see what happens.
