DMSI 3.2 B Day 18
Went out a few times this weekend and had the chance to test if dmsi was having any tangible effects on the ladies. No real noticeable indicators of increased attraction from what I observed. Perhaps even less than the norm in some instances. This could partly be due to the fact it was my first weekend out at bars not drinking anymore, so I definitely wasn't as relaxed as I normally am under the influence. Going out without drinking may take a bit to get used to, but I still think its a good opportunity for me to get out of my comfort zone and grow. My end goal is to get to the point where I am completely comfortable and socially fee without any alcohol.
Had kinky girl over one of the nights. I DID feel a bit more relaxed and sexy while with her than the norm and she came twice and pretty quick both times. Still hoping to recruit some new girls into the ol sexual rotation in the not too distant future.
The increased general anxiety I have been feeling lately has died down. The more relaxed in the moment vibe I was experiencing around the day 6-10 mark hasnt seemed to come back though. At some points I feel more relaxed and in the moment, but not nearly to the degree I was around that time. Im finding myself back to being more self conscious and having trouble verbalizing my thoughts. I think when I realized how much I was changing/ how different I felt around that time period that both my conscious and subconscious mind freaked out a bit and pulled me back around baseline.
The good news though is I still haven't relapsed into fapping and stuck it out with being completely sober this weekend despite the resistance. Still being productive and motivated to keep killing it with my goals. Im finding myself becoming more outcome independent when it comes to my results from dmsi. Now dont get me wrong I definitely still want to achieve the goal of the program and start seeing great results, but im thinking of things in more of an experimental light right now than before. Like a scientist going out with his hypothesis and making observations. If I dont see any tangible results, sure, I might be a bit disappointed, but im done being a victim and feeling sorry for myself. Im more focused on and invested in developing myself and pursuing my life purpose. I will keep playing the program and whatever happens happens.
Went out a few times this weekend and had the chance to test if dmsi was having any tangible effects on the ladies. No real noticeable indicators of increased attraction from what I observed. Perhaps even less than the norm in some instances. This could partly be due to the fact it was my first weekend out at bars not drinking anymore, so I definitely wasn't as relaxed as I normally am under the influence. Going out without drinking may take a bit to get used to, but I still think its a good opportunity for me to get out of my comfort zone and grow. My end goal is to get to the point where I am completely comfortable and socially fee without any alcohol.
Had kinky girl over one of the nights. I DID feel a bit more relaxed and sexy while with her than the norm and she came twice and pretty quick both times. Still hoping to recruit some new girls into the ol sexual rotation in the not too distant future.
The increased general anxiety I have been feeling lately has died down. The more relaxed in the moment vibe I was experiencing around the day 6-10 mark hasnt seemed to come back though. At some points I feel more relaxed and in the moment, but not nearly to the degree I was around that time. Im finding myself back to being more self conscious and having trouble verbalizing my thoughts. I think when I realized how much I was changing/ how different I felt around that time period that both my conscious and subconscious mind freaked out a bit and pulled me back around baseline.
The good news though is I still haven't relapsed into fapping and stuck it out with being completely sober this weekend despite the resistance. Still being productive and motivated to keep killing it with my goals. Im finding myself becoming more outcome independent when it comes to my results from dmsi. Now dont get me wrong I definitely still want to achieve the goal of the program and start seeing great results, but im thinking of things in more of an experimental light right now than before. Like a scientist going out with his hypothesis and making observations. If I dont see any tangible results, sure, I might be a bit disappointed, but im done being a victim and feeling sorry for myself. Im more focused on and invested in developing myself and pursuing my life purpose. I will keep playing the program and whatever happens happens.
