DMSI 3.2 B Day 9
Its a Friday night and here I am, alone, typing away on my computer. Yeah, im cool af, you dont need to tell me. Put off some work I needed to do last night when kinky girl came over, so figured id utilize tonight to get it done.
A bunch of my friends were all going out tonight and wanted me to join, but I had to turn them down to work on things. They're probably not going to be too thrilled when they hear the news that im not planning to drink anymore, but its something I need to do for myself. I cant be going out getting smashed every weekend even if its only once a week if I want to reach the goals I have for myself. Ive known for awhile now that I should probably stop drinking, but could never fully commit because I felt like if I did that meant saying goodbye to a bunch of my friends and never being able to go out and have fun anymore. I realize now that its not a black and white issue. I can go out with them and still have a good time without having to drink. It will actually be a good challenge for me and opportunity to step outside my comfort zone without the aid of alcohol and grow
After talking to my brother for awhile earlier today I realized that I am really changing and its happening pretty quick. Just the way I feel and how im talking. Im much more relaxed and able to stay in the moment and verbalize things. Ive always had a big problem with getting stuck in my head too much and overthinking things.
The funny thing is though after I realized this I started getting anxiety about it. I think we all fear change and uncertainty to varying degrees. The realization that I wasnt the same as I was even a week or two ago and might never be able to go back to that was a frightening concept to me even though logically I know its for the best and what I want.Then of course I started getting anxiety about having anxiety aka the ol feedback loop from hell lol. Fear can be quite the silly irrational little bastard.
I just tried to tell myself this is for the best and what I want. Its normal to have anxiety with change and uncertainty. I told myself that regardless of how I feel I am on the right path and I need to keep taking positive action. Keep up with playing dmsi, cutting out bad habits, and continuing the good ones.
Onward and upward my friends
Its a Friday night and here I am, alone, typing away on my computer. Yeah, im cool af, you dont need to tell me. Put off some work I needed to do last night when kinky girl came over, so figured id utilize tonight to get it done.
A bunch of my friends were all going out tonight and wanted me to join, but I had to turn them down to work on things. They're probably not going to be too thrilled when they hear the news that im not planning to drink anymore, but its something I need to do for myself. I cant be going out getting smashed every weekend even if its only once a week if I want to reach the goals I have for myself. Ive known for awhile now that I should probably stop drinking, but could never fully commit because I felt like if I did that meant saying goodbye to a bunch of my friends and never being able to go out and have fun anymore. I realize now that its not a black and white issue. I can go out with them and still have a good time without having to drink. It will actually be a good challenge for me and opportunity to step outside my comfort zone without the aid of alcohol and grow
After talking to my brother for awhile earlier today I realized that I am really changing and its happening pretty quick. Just the way I feel and how im talking. Im much more relaxed and able to stay in the moment and verbalize things. Ive always had a big problem with getting stuck in my head too much and overthinking things.
The funny thing is though after I realized this I started getting anxiety about it. I think we all fear change and uncertainty to varying degrees. The realization that I wasnt the same as I was even a week or two ago and might never be able to go back to that was a frightening concept to me even though logically I know its for the best and what I want.Then of course I started getting anxiety about having anxiety aka the ol feedback loop from hell lol. Fear can be quite the silly irrational little bastard.
I just tried to tell myself this is for the best and what I want. Its normal to have anxiety with change and uncertainty. I told myself that regardless of how I feel I am on the right path and I need to keep taking positive action. Keep up with playing dmsi, cutting out bad habits, and continuing the good ones.
Onward and upward my friends
