DMSI 3.2 B Day 6
So I didn't include this with my first post, but about 5 days before starting 3.2 something in me switched. Ive been into personal development for almost 4 years now and read ALOT of different material. I applied and tried many different things I learned, but never seemed to find the success I wanted.I dont think I ever REALLY fully omitted to doing WHATEVER it would take to break past my issues/obstacles and live up to my full potential. 5 days before starting 3.2 though I felt like I might have hit this point. I was tired of where I was at in my life and how I felt and knew I needed to start making some MASSIVE changes if I wanted to really change it.I had an actual desire to commit to radically changing the way I lived my life to break past certain barriers Ive had for a long time now and to truly be the best version of myself.
I decided I needed to cut out all the additive habits I had that were not serving me and my goals. That meant no more jerking off(was already working on getting rid of this one)no more Netflix binges or watching mindless tv shows, no more mindless social media scrolling or internet browsing, no more checking my phone every 5 seconds and texting all day, no more binge drinking on the weekends with my friends. I was commuted to cutting all of this overstimulating toxic nonsense down/out and delegating my time to only doing productive activities that would better me.
I started doing all of this last Monday and promised myself that Friday was the last day I would have any alcohol(Went to a big wedding with some friends).The hangover the following day through off most of these things, but I was right back on track on Sunday and have stuck to it since.Could this possibly be the TID(may have fd up that acronym lol) effect of DMSI at play? I dont know. I first learned how destructive some of these habits/addictions are to ones life and aspirations of personal development from a guy named Leo who runs Actualized.org. I first watched his videos on clearing addictions maybe a year or so ago and tried to do it to some degree but pretty half assedly to be honest and never stuck to it. This time around though I have a VERY strong urge to do this
COMPLETELY and stick it out. Could it be dmsi, or could it be the fact that im just fed up with where I am at right now and realize I need to take responsibility and do something about it? Possibly a little bit of both? Who knows, but I will take it.
Alright, on to how ive been feeling lately after being on 3.2 for a solid 6 days. The initial tiredness and lack of appetite I seemed to be feeling the first couple of days seems to have subsided. Overall as a whole I am feeling more relaxed lately, more in the moment and better able to express myself(possibly a side effect of unplugging from all the stimulating addictive habits I had) Been more focused on my goals and what I needed to get done that day.
Yesterday the kinky girl that ive been regularly hooking up with that I mentioned in the first post messaged me a sexy pic of her out of the blue.We generally only really text and hookup on the weekends as she knows im not interested in a relationship and it generally works better then for our schedules.She said she was horny af. Now she has said stuff like that before, but its generally incited by me teasing her sexually and not her texting and saying it out of the blue. So i thought that was interesting. She had today off so she wanted to hook up that night. I told her maybe later, but I had to get work done first. She normally has to get up REALLY early for her job so she was passed out by the time I was done unfortunately.
Today though she outright said "its been too long I need your cock inside me". I told her once again I had a lot of stuff to do but maybe when I was done. I also said I have no idea why she would want when she had to get up so early in the morning for work. She insisted she would be fine though and wanted to anyway. Once again though by the time I was ready she was passed out. Now im not sure if she triggered it or it was just a weird state I was randomly in...I actually dont even think she was the reason as I started feeling it long before she passed out, but I got into this state of utter annoyance. Like I was just incredibly annoyed/pissed off about everything and couldnt really pinpoint why. She just happened to be in the cross fire.I actually felt so irritated/annoyed I couldnt focus enough to do the work I was trying to get done and just ended up texting her instead. So when I texted her I was ready and she was already passed out I found myself very irritated. I texted her"Figures..please dont text me acting like you want to hang out so bad when you are going to pass out every time. Getting kind of annoying" I feel like I normally wouldnt have cared and would have just been about my business, but this state I was in was very powerful. I tried to logically rationalize with myself but the annoyance I was feeling overpowered it. Some sort of resistance maybe? Or maybe its a sort of withdrawal effect from cutting down on everything? Once again cant say for sure.
Thats about it for now.
So I didn't include this with my first post, but about 5 days before starting 3.2 something in me switched. Ive been into personal development for almost 4 years now and read ALOT of different material. I applied and tried many different things I learned, but never seemed to find the success I wanted.I dont think I ever REALLY fully omitted to doing WHATEVER it would take to break past my issues/obstacles and live up to my full potential. 5 days before starting 3.2 though I felt like I might have hit this point. I was tired of where I was at in my life and how I felt and knew I needed to start making some MASSIVE changes if I wanted to really change it.I had an actual desire to commit to radically changing the way I lived my life to break past certain barriers Ive had for a long time now and to truly be the best version of myself.
I decided I needed to cut out all the additive habits I had that were not serving me and my goals. That meant no more jerking off(was already working on getting rid of this one)no more Netflix binges or watching mindless tv shows, no more mindless social media scrolling or internet browsing, no more checking my phone every 5 seconds and texting all day, no more binge drinking on the weekends with my friends. I was commuted to cutting all of this overstimulating toxic nonsense down/out and delegating my time to only doing productive activities that would better me.
I started doing all of this last Monday and promised myself that Friday was the last day I would have any alcohol(Went to a big wedding with some friends).The hangover the following day through off most of these things, but I was right back on track on Sunday and have stuck to it since.Could this possibly be the TID(may have fd up that acronym lol) effect of DMSI at play? I dont know. I first learned how destructive some of these habits/addictions are to ones life and aspirations of personal development from a guy named Leo who runs Actualized.org. I first watched his videos on clearing addictions maybe a year or so ago and tried to do it to some degree but pretty half assedly to be honest and never stuck to it. This time around though I have a VERY strong urge to do this
COMPLETELY and stick it out. Could it be dmsi, or could it be the fact that im just fed up with where I am at right now and realize I need to take responsibility and do something about it? Possibly a little bit of both? Who knows, but I will take it.
Alright, on to how ive been feeling lately after being on 3.2 for a solid 6 days. The initial tiredness and lack of appetite I seemed to be feeling the first couple of days seems to have subsided. Overall as a whole I am feeling more relaxed lately, more in the moment and better able to express myself(possibly a side effect of unplugging from all the stimulating addictive habits I had) Been more focused on my goals and what I needed to get done that day.
Yesterday the kinky girl that ive been regularly hooking up with that I mentioned in the first post messaged me a sexy pic of her out of the blue.We generally only really text and hookup on the weekends as she knows im not interested in a relationship and it generally works better then for our schedules.She said she was horny af. Now she has said stuff like that before, but its generally incited by me teasing her sexually and not her texting and saying it out of the blue. So i thought that was interesting. She had today off so she wanted to hook up that night. I told her maybe later, but I had to get work done first. She normally has to get up REALLY early for her job so she was passed out by the time I was done unfortunately.
Today though she outright said "its been too long I need your cock inside me". I told her once again I had a lot of stuff to do but maybe when I was done. I also said I have no idea why she would want when she had to get up so early in the morning for work. She insisted she would be fine though and wanted to anyway. Once again though by the time I was ready she was passed out. Now im not sure if she triggered it or it was just a weird state I was randomly in...I actually dont even think she was the reason as I started feeling it long before she passed out, but I got into this state of utter annoyance. Like I was just incredibly annoyed/pissed off about everything and couldnt really pinpoint why. She just happened to be in the cross fire.I actually felt so irritated/annoyed I couldnt focus enough to do the work I was trying to get done and just ended up texting her instead. So when I texted her I was ready and she was already passed out I found myself very irritated. I texted her"Figures..please dont text me acting like you want to hang out so bad when you are going to pass out every time. Getting kind of annoying" I feel like I normally wouldnt have cared and would have just been about my business, but this state I was in was very powerful. I tried to logically rationalize with myself but the annoyance I was feeling overpowered it. Some sort of resistance maybe? Or maybe its a sort of withdrawal effect from cutting down on everything? Once again cant say for sure.
Thats about it for now.
