Shannon's OF 5.75G Experience

[Shannon]

I am just in awe of the exhaustion I have felt for the last 3 days.  This is day 2 of my "off" time.  I had a very hard time falling asleep last night because I was apparently exposed to something yesterday that irritated my lungs, which caused them to produce enough excess mucus that I couldn't stop coughing, but not enough to actually cough anything up.  I had to use Nyquil to get to sleep at 2:40 AM, and then my girlfriend woke me up at Noon complaining that she was hungry. I was a zombie.  

Given how different people are responding with different levels of exhaustion or none at all, I'm concluding that those of us who have a more strong willed personality subconsciously which is resisting are becoming exhausted because the program is dealing with the part that is trying hard to avoid changes.  The harder the challenge, the more exhausted the person becomes.  I still feel like a zombie.  

If this is how zombies feel, no damned wonder why they move so slow.

Man, the exhaustion from OF + doxylamine (the antihistamine in NyQuil) would be brutal.  Feel for ya, don't know how you can get any work done!  Doxylamine blasts me for an entire day, just using a quarter of one 25 mg pill.  I think there's 6.25 mg of doxylamine in one 15 mL dose (the adult dosage is 30 ML every 6 hours?).  So 12.5 mg of doxylamine, if you took the full dose.  Yikes!

Yeah, it usually takes me ~4-6 hours after waking up from taking Nyquil to "wake up".  I realized that after breakfast.  At about 3:30 PM, after breakfast and errands had been run, I came back and tried to work, and it was clear and apparent that work was not happening.  So I went to bed and my GF woke me up at 6:40 PM, and I was again a zombie waking up.  Still feel deeply exhausted but not quite as bad.  But while I was "down" I realized something.

I wasn't sleeping.  I was processing... executing... working on what the script of OF was asking me to do.  And that non-conscious state was where I needed to be to do it most efficiently and effectively. Occasionally I would drift up to the earliest levels of awareness for some part of the processing, and then drift back down.  During all this I became aware that I had divided myself into something like 10 million pieces, and each was working on the issue.  The visual I got was an army of miners, all working full speed, all digging through something that spread for a long distance in every direction.  It appeared to be in a cave, and in this vast came were hilly plains of stone that they were all working their way through.  Just carpeting the entire area, each one intent upon its work, each one chipping away at the stone.

If that was a dream, or a symbolic vision, I am apparently chipping away at the part of me that refuses to cooperate and/or change in order to achieve the goals of the program.  Dividing myself up into 10 million small pieces which form an army of workers/miners to do this... no freakin' wonder I'm exhausted!  This is absolutely fascinating!