07-15-2020, 03:22 PM
(07-15-2020, 08:17 AM)Shannon Wrote: Yesterday started off looking like GF was going to be in a bad mood, but I found a way to short circuit that. She needs to get out of the house and have variety to experience. Lately, that's not easy to do because of the pandemic, but at ;least she has thrifting as an option, which gets her out of the house, gives her entertainment and allows her to find inventory for her business. So I suggested she go thrifting, and it made all the difference. She had hours of fun, found some good stuff, and was in a good mood the rest of the day. I got hours of "all alone" time to work, distracted only by my dogs once in a while, and I was productive, which put me in a good mood too. By the end of the day I was totally exhausted, even though I only got to work for about half of a normal work day. That exhaustion is why I couldn't work after we had dinner, as I usually do.
Today I was also exhausted while waking up, and I actually got up to let the dogs out and came back to bed, fell asleep, was awakened by them whining, went out to get them to stop, went back to bed and back to sleep, and then had my cat lay on my face no less than three separate times trying to wake me up, which I promptly fell back asleep from each time. I only woke up when GF started trying to wake me up. I just had breakfast, including a medium iced coffee from Dunkin Donuts, and I am still feeling like I just ran a marathon, but I am also determined to be productive today. It feels good to be able to work on LTU6, and I am gung-ho to get on with it.
The question is, how well can I work with this level of exhaustion? I'm already caffeinated, and still ready to drop. Normally by the time I get back from having breakfast in the park, I'm wide awake, so this can't be me being tired because my belly is full. I must need more rest.
This is the first day off in Cycle 3. Usually I am feeling like I'm almost back to normal by the 3rd day off in a cycle, and then we start again. I guess that makes sense if the pressure has to be kept on the fear to prevent it from simply regenerating itself before it's removed.
I had dreams again last night that I faintly remember, but not well enough to write down.
Emotionally, I feel good. Running Ultrasonic at v13/15 on my cell phone when I go to bed.
Hye Shannon, while you're working on LTU and such,re-scripting,new scripting,ect.... have you thought about ways you can 'ease the pain' of fear removal 4.9,as in creating something a,model, so that folks arent so exhausted in the long run,including you?
I'm shure you have,or at least tried to figure a way to 'soften the blow' the impact of said program? your thoughts thus far,but ONLY if its not gonna pull you away from work,too long to answer it. respecting your time and energy. Keith.
Sherlock-your're an amazing fellow,Watson.Though You,yourself,not luminescent, you're an amazing conductor of Light"/"Loving You ,Heals Me"-an-NDE'er.""Blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting."-Trust is abouve ALL else!!"Money,does NOT change people,it ONLY reveals them!"