07-07-2020, 05:25 AM
Thank you, I appreciate that.
When I go to the beach, I don't go for the reasons other people go. I go because it is a way for me to relax emotionally, and the experience of the sounds, the wind and the energy of the sun, wind and water are very rejuvenating for me. Most people go to get a tan or swim or play. I go to recharge, re-balance, enjoy quality time spent with my love and sometimes collect shells.
We didn't get to go to the beach yesterday, even though we were on a road not 50 feet from the ocean for a good 30 minutes passing beach entrance after beach entrance, all because of the rain. At first it depressed me even more, but my girl was being supportive and I tried to focus on gratitude for that. That seemed to help. So did acceptance: it is raining, I cannot change that, what else can I do that will make me feel better?
So we went to a Taco Bell and had lunch and food helped also. Then we went to the store so she could shop for what we needed (she "won't let me" go in the grocery store with my lung problems while SARS-COV-2 is about, trying to keep me safe) and then we headed home. Apparently I was still pretty depressed because she expressed hopelessness at ever being able to make me feel better. Yesterday was not an easy day for us, but we made it through.
Today I feel much better, and I should be able to work, if I can get the models to stabilize. They appear to be on the verge of unstable, and I'm having to spend more time than normal getting high confidence answers.
Last night was night two of no subliminals. I feel unusually warm ever since last night, and interestingly, I feel like I just ate a meal, completely full, but I haven't eaten since around 12 hours ago.
I can feel OF doing it's thing under the hood, but what exactly it's doing, I don't know. It's definitely still busy, though. I woke up this morning tired again, but not as tired as yesterday. Hoo boy, does OF take a lot of energy to run! It is making very deep changes that are not easily or lightly made, I can definitely feel that.
When I go to the beach, I don't go for the reasons other people go. I go because it is a way for me to relax emotionally, and the experience of the sounds, the wind and the energy of the sun, wind and water are very rejuvenating for me. Most people go to get a tan or swim or play. I go to recharge, re-balance, enjoy quality time spent with my love and sometimes collect shells.
We didn't get to go to the beach yesterday, even though we were on a road not 50 feet from the ocean for a good 30 minutes passing beach entrance after beach entrance, all because of the rain. At first it depressed me even more, but my girl was being supportive and I tried to focus on gratitude for that. That seemed to help. So did acceptance: it is raining, I cannot change that, what else can I do that will make me feel better?
So we went to a Taco Bell and had lunch and food helped also. Then we went to the store so she could shop for what we needed (she "won't let me" go in the grocery store with my lung problems while SARS-COV-2 is about, trying to keep me safe) and then we headed home. Apparently I was still pretty depressed because she expressed hopelessness at ever being able to make me feel better. Yesterday was not an easy day for us, but we made it through.
Today I feel much better, and I should be able to work, if I can get the models to stabilize. They appear to be on the verge of unstable, and I'm having to spend more time than normal getting high confidence answers.
Last night was night two of no subliminals. I feel unusually warm ever since last night, and interestingly, I feel like I just ate a meal, completely full, but I haven't eaten since around 12 hours ago.
I can feel OF doing it's thing under the hood, but what exactly it's doing, I don't know. It's definitely still busy, though. I woke up this morning tired again, but not as tired as yesterday. Hoo boy, does OF take a lot of energy to run! It is making very deep changes that are not easily or lightly made, I can definitely feel that.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
