02-05-2019, 07:16 PM
I'll put this in my journal later but FRM 4.4 has picked up where FRM4.1 left off in terms of dealing with my fear of success. The way this has occured is that I view fear of success as a bully and as such my response to it has been extremely aggressive. Instead of "man...I really don't want to do this" I consciously recognize it as fear and instead of running away from it simply acknowledge it and attack it right away.
Ex.) Desire to fap leads to "F*ck this shit, it's just going to derail me from what I want. I ain't doing it."
Ex 2) Desire to procrastinate on daily tasks "You're [referring to fear] trying to make me unattractive by not allowing me to do what needs to be done as far as work/school/self development. F*ck you. I'm going to do this task ASAP".
Hopefully I don't jinx myself but I do believe that right now FRM 4.4 is just strong enough to get me recognize my fears (some of them anyway) and be willing to stand up to them.
You're doing great Shannon. Please don't give up. Your FRMs are helping us. Slowly but surely.
Ex.) Desire to fap leads to "F*ck this shit, it's just going to derail me from what I want. I ain't doing it."
Ex 2) Desire to procrastinate on daily tasks "You're [referring to fear] trying to make me unattractive by not allowing me to do what needs to be done as far as work/school/self development. F*ck you. I'm going to do this task ASAP".
Hopefully I don't jinx myself but I do believe that right now FRM 4.4 is just strong enough to get me recognize my fears (some of them anyway) and be willing to stand up to them.
You're doing great Shannon. Please don't give up. Your FRMs are helping us. Slowly but surely.