Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Shannon]

sometimes my body will begin to shake involuntarily as if it’s freezing cold even when it’s very warm.

I've had this as well. whenever things look like they're going somewhere I tend to get shaky till I can calm down.

That shaking is probably the result of deep involuntary fears.

[maxx55]

sometimes my body will begin to shake involuntarily as if it’s freezing cold even when it’s very warm.

I've had this as well. whenever things look like they're going somewhere I tend to get shaky till I can calm down.

That shaking is probably the result of deep involuntary fears.

Interesting, I've had similar shaking in the past few weeks at random times whether in my room or in the gym. It's slight though, slight enough that I can control it.

[thor2014]

Day 18 - DMSI 3.2 A 7 Loops

Had a dream of me being a child. I watched a group of girls dancing around giggling holding hands. Then the girls shouted "hey Thor come and join us come and dance". For some reason in my mind I thought to myself thats so g*y to dance with a group of girls like that. I shouted "nooo" and walked away.

The second dream I was in a house. It was dark and cloudy outside I walked into my room. The room was so untidy full of garbage everywhere. I got angry and broke down then I heard my father coming. I pleaded for him to stay out of my life then the dream ended.

No external results so far.

[Devilz-attorney]

Shannon,
Believe the audio to silence ratio in version B is 20:5.
The length of the audio is 70 minutes.
So if someone listens to multiple loops of version B back to back, will it not affect the ASRBas the person would be then have 40 minutes of continuous data input without a break.
Would that not have detrimental effects?

[Have at ye]

Shannon,
Believe the audio to silence ratio in version B is 20:5.
The length of the audio is 70 minutes.
So if someone listens to multiple loops of version B back to back, will it not affect the ASRBas the person would be then have 40 minutes of continuous data input without a break.
Would that not have detrimental effects?

It is actually 30 to 5. So there's "silence" at the end of the track, too.

[Determined]

Day 18 - DMSI 3.2 A 7 Loops

Had a dream of me being a child. I watched a group of girls dancing around giggling holding hands. Then the girls shouted "hey Thor come and join us come and dance". For some reason in my mind I thought to myself thats so g*y to dance with a group of girls like that. I shouted "nooo" and walked away.

The second dream I was in a house. It was dark and cloudy outside I walked into my room. The room was so untidy full of garbage everywhere. I got angry and broke down then I heard my father coming. I pleaded for him to stay out of my life then the dream ended.

No external results so far.

The funny thing about the "that's so gay" meme (a meme in the truest sense of the word is an idea that behaves like a gene) is that it's designed to cock block guys from getting with girls. So if I introduce that to you, by decreasing your evolutionary fitness, I'm indirectly increasing my own.

If you combine both those dreams, DMSI is pointing you towards the blocks you have that are preventing you from getting to the design goals.

[Fluffy]

Day 18 - DMSI 3.2 A 7 Loops

Had a dream of me being a child. I watched a group of girls dancing around giggling holding hands. Then the girls shouted "hey Thor come and join us come and dance". For some reason in my mind I thought to myself thats so g*y to dance with a group of girls like that. I shouted "nooo" and walked away.

The second dream I was in a house. It was dark and cloudy outside I walked into my room. The room was so untidy full of garbage everywhere. I got angry and broke down then I heard my father coming. I pleaded for him to stay out of my life then the dream ended.

No external results so far.

The funny thing about the "that's so gay" meme (a meme in the truest sense of the word is an idea that behaves like a gene) is that it's designed to cock block guys from getting with girls. So if I introduce that to you, by decreasing your evolutionary fitness, I'm indirectly increasing my own.

If you combine both those dreams, DMSI is pointing you towards the blocks you have that are preventing you from getting to the design goals.

You are very insightful Determined, your words on this forum are appreciated.

[Jake2015]

@"Cyanide"

Hey man, cant log into the site via the home page. I cant attached a screenshot of what comes up for some reason, so thats not working for me and it is a jpg image of only 359kb.

So ill just copy and paste what comes up....see end of message.

I went through a google search directly into the mens forum to enter.

thanks


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[DarkPlouf]

@Shannon: I've stopped SE a few days ago and decided to let my brain rest as I've really no desire to run anything. Running a sub just for the sake of running it seems counter-productive to me.
But then I have had interesting, or rather "weird" stuff happens lately.

The first thing is that I keep seeing girls or women fall before me. Mostly at stairs. Today that was the 4th time.
Curious hun ?

Then, yesterday I had two dreams. One at nap time and the other later that night.
The first one is very disturbing and it involved me having a sexual interaction with a...young girl. And by "young" I really mean young. You see where I'm coming. The disturbing part is that when I woke up I haven't felt ashamed or repulsed or anything.... :|
(I hope I won't get in trouble...)

The second dream was also involving a sexual interaction but with a male friend of mine. In the dream he asked me to go down on him but I refused and felt disgusted. When I woke up I felt very relieved because my whole life I've felt slightly bi-curious, the type "I wouldn't mind if he's clean - maybe" type of interest. But now after that dream that thing is totally cleared and I feel utterly repulsed by the thought of having something naughty with a male.

SE might be a good sub for personal introspection. After all, old memories resurfacing and now these dreams and omens...But the hardest part is to find out what they mean.
This run is dramatically different from the one I had in January. There is nothing alike in the results.

Overall 5.5G has always triggered strange stuff happening to me.

[Zeroxmachina]

Hey Shannon, thought I would give a kind of report on things. Will make it short since i'm currently in vacation in the philippines and i'm on a tablet at the moment. I will report on what I how I might have been resisting in ordee to improve things. I had to stop the program due the main reason I will explain though I think I may have gotten a late manifestation after not using it for a while.

The main thing my mind seemed to use to resist was that same attitude of I don't care but it seemed to be worst than I thought. It seemed to evolve into straight up nihilism. "I don't care, nothing matters, its all unimportant". It wasn't just towards women either it was towarda everyrhing and it started to affect my motivation towards anything I needed to get accomplished which is bad since I currently need to search for a new job once I get back. So pretty much the main way it seemed to resist was through complete nihilism and no motivation towards anything. Not sure if this nihilism might be in relation with the idea that I will die if I execute the script.

Another smaller thing that is getting annoying is my inability to "finish" when actually having sex. It's like I will get close to finishing multiple times but every time its like some old program in my mind will come online and totally shut off any pleasure I was feeling at the moment or reset me back to 0 just when I was about to reach 100% if that makes sense. I dont know what is causing this. Also I noticed I don't seem to be able to even be close to finishing if i'm just ***** a chick. Its like I don't have enough sensitivity from the regular act to be pushed over the edge. Though I did notice, on previous versions though not on this one, that whenever I was taking Aniracetam , a nootropic, I seemed to be able to finish even with just intercorse. Aniracetam is known to reduce stress, depression and cause a kind of relaxed feeling. Not sure if that means my subconscious is also highly resisting the anti anxiety and depression scripting.

Anyway thought I would report on that for now.

Very interesting report, thank you. Do you have any idea what is so scary to your subconscious that this would be a way it would react? I'm taking it past hurts?

It would seem the wall is working for you, but your subconscious found and maximally capitalized on the IDGAF loophole.

I heard somewhere that if you ever have difficulty bustin' out a ghost, clenching your toes helps.

[thor2014]

Day 18 - DMSI 3.2 A 7 Loops

Had a dream of me being a child. I watched a group of girls dancing around giggling holding hands. Then the girls shouted "hey Thor come and join us come and dance". For some reason in my mind I thought to myself thats so g*y to dance with a group of girls like that. I shouted "nooo" and walked away.

The second dream I was in a house. It was dark and cloudy outside I walked into my room. The room was so untidy full of garbage everywhere. I got angry and broke down then I heard my father coming. I pleaded for him to stay out of my life then the dream ended.

No external results so far.

The funny thing about the "that's so gay" meme (a meme in the truest sense of the word is an idea that behaves like a gene) is that it's designed to cock block guys from getting with girls. So if I introduce that to you, by decreasing your evolutionary fitness, I'm indirectly increasing my own.

If you combine both those dreams, DMSI is pointing you towards the blocks you have that are preventing you from getting to the design goals.

Always nice to hear your wisdom matey. If you can share any possible ways to overcome these blocks it would be appreciated.

[Determined]

Day 18 - DMSI 3.2 A 7 Loops

Had a dream of me being a child. I watched a group of girls dancing around giggling holding hands. Then the girls shouted "hey Thor come and join us come and dance". For some reason in my mind I thought to myself thats so g*y to dance with a group of girls like that. I shouted "nooo" and walked away.

The second dream I was in a house. It was dark and cloudy outside I walked into my room. The room was so untidy full of garbage everywhere. I got angry and broke down then I heard my father coming. I pleaded for him to stay out of my life then the dream ended.

No external results so far.

The funny thing about the "that's so gay" meme (a meme in the truest sense of the word is an idea that behaves like a gene) is that it's designed to cock block guys from getting with girls. So if I introduce that to you, by decreasing your evolutionary fitness, I'm indirectly increasing my own.

If you combine both those dreams, DMSI is pointing you towards the blocks you have that are preventing you from getting to the design goals.

Always nice to hear your wisdom matey. If you can share any possible ways to overcome these blocks it would be appreciated.

I've always found NLP and/or hypnosis to be great tools for organising the mind, though it is frowned upon here with sub work and it does void your warranty.

Some therapists are actually pretty good at helping a person to process the obsolete patterns they may still be carrying around with them, though the quality of therapists varies widely.

Your first dream is only a mild limiting belief compared to your second dream. That second dream really highlights some of the deeper workings preventing you from having the DMSI success you dream of. Pay close attention to the amount of trash that was present.

Most people are barely aware of what kind of stuff they're carrying around with them, they're content to just plod along in their lives. I've been on the clearing journey for a while now and only recently have I gotten a competent team around me to help me clear the deeper stuff that's been holding me back.

I'll revisit this question for you in 3 months just because I have a few items of healing and clearing that I'm working on, and if the methods I'm using prove to be successful, I'll be in a better position to give you a definitive answer.

[Fluffy]

After 3 weeks at 2 loops, I don't really know what it's doing to be true, I have noticed I am more open with my parents and honest about certain "insecurities" that I feel, but it's coming from a "strong" place if that makes sense. Before I would feel weak being vulnerable and would avoid being vulnerable to keep my stuff locked up. But it seems I can express feeling undeserving of something for example and feel less vulnerable admitting that. It's very strange. I don't let everything out, but because it is not so bad if I do, I can now choose to without feeling "less".

Another thing I have noticed come up strongly for some reason is feeling of wanting to compete and win in the game of life against my brother. This desire feels like "I gotta be better, I gotta achieve more". For some reason I have feelings that my brother is competing with me even though nothing has been said and I have feelings he thinks he is better than me. This is a weird one because my feelings are telling me this is true and it is making me want to be better, much better. Unfortunately it is making me dislike my brother even though he has not done anything....well apart from all these memories that have popped up from all my childhood and early teens lol...that might explain why I dislike him, by how he treated me when I was younger. That would explain things.

I even dislike certain things about myself even more, which is strange. Like I feel bad how I treated people in the past. I would even dislike someone and feel what I don't like about them and then memories would pop up where I did the same thing when I was younger or something...which sucks! I can't just dislike people no more because I am no angel.

Women wise I have not been out at all because I have been in a sling healing physically too. To treat myself, I will be going from London to Miami in July and staying there for 4 weeks, so that will be interesting as I will be around alot of people and socialising, which I have lacked for a while now. It will be interesting to see how I experience American girls.

I plan to just stay on A. I am bumping up to 3 loops tonight.

[Mischief]

Shannon, here’s my report for the day that was pulled from my journal. I was hoping for a successful breakthrough with my target but it didn’t happen.

Day 15 - DMSI 3.2B (Usually running four loops masked in the afternoon and four loops masked overnight) Midday Report: I finally had the chance to meet up with the lady I like and we chatted for about 30 minutes to catch up on things. The perplexing thing I have is the sniper didn’t work on her and we were very close to each other. The anti-sniper has been turned off in 3.2 so I don’t understand it.

Post Morten Report: I felt rather horny on the drive home but it has subsided now that I am home. It's sexual frustration, especially since what I was wanting to happen, didn't happen (activation of the sniper and build up of the aura). Also wanting to watch porn and masturbate right now. I won't do it. I haven't masturbated for about a month now and will not give in. Thinking things through this had to be self sabotage. . . .and that self sabotage was the return of an ex-girlfriend in my life that messaged me the night before. That woman is the past and I need to push her back there. "S" is what is in front of me and the universe is giving me the opportunity to make the most of it. But this also goes back to the universe will give you exactly what you want, and then send you a distraction to see if you will screw it up. All is not lost. I just need to focus on what is in front of me and keep the past in the past.

Throughout the day I didn't feel as effective. I got a few looks from ladies but it wasn't like the previous days. Things got a little better as I was leaving the office. A lady (4/10) was in the elevator with me and when I opened her in conversation, she reacted very enthusiastically and was talking a mile a minute (celebrity effect).

I'll abandon the single morning loop (the first time I did this was today) and stay with afternoon concentration of loops. I run the loops through my iPhone and headphones. It didn't dawn on me until now to put my phone in airplane mode so I will not get interrupted. Aww well, you live and learn. The subconscious is resisting and it threw one hell of a curve ball at me today. Four loops right now and four more tonight as I sleep.