Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 8

[Shannon]

Hello,

I have a question will X4A-1600 work through discomfort and insecurities concerning sex and being attractive.

Theoretically, it should.  It's using the same skeleton script as OSC, and that seems to be doing so.

I am experiencing the effects of X4A very much now but also don't really feel the need for sex or a relationship anymore.

Which before was very present now id rather work on myself, my education, my wealth and character/emotional development.
I feel very drawn to switch for any sub in that direction like OGSF v3 or Maximum Learning for a full run through.

Would you still recommend sticking to X4A-1600 for the full 2 months?

What you are experiencing is a case of executing while trying to escape and resist in any way possible.  The program is so powerful that you're executing, but some part of you is afraid of either women, sex, getting to sex or the consequences of sex, and it's trying to shut the program down in the only way it can: lose interest in sex, and move to a different program.  As this is resistance, and it is clearly doing something regardless, my advice is to continue running it and see if it can work you through this to get the full results.  Do the full 2 months.  

I now experience that women at my workplace are drawn to me/ blushing talking to me for longer being fidgety/nervous around me but i don't really want something happening as it would make things highly akward.



Also during class at my education women i find attractive react quite positively to me showing ioi's.



I am going out tomorrow lets see what happens there as well.



But as i said i kinda wanna say fuck all that and focus on myself, so the real question is would you say continuing to run X4A-1600 will help my self development or would it be better to switch subs @Shannon .



As too me it seems i ran/run X4A to fill a hole in my emotional landscape that needs another filling than sex, rather a release of fear shame and guilt and a buildup of self esteem and confidence so i can be myself unapologetically, no matter what i face.





Kind Regards,

Baya

I think you should finish what you started.  See what it does to get you further toward the program goals.  I also encourage you to get value out of what you have paid for.

That said, this response very clearly reveals one or more of guilt, shame and or fear that is blocking you from achieving the program's goals at the moment.  The program should be helpful to some degree in working you through this, and we cannot know unless you keep going.  I recommend you do.

But if you do not the program you need to run to get through those blockages would be OGSF.