07-04-2011, 08:46 PM
Now that I'm into stage 3 a bit, I can elaborate on what it's doing. It's a heavy hitter, that's for sure! It's heaviness reminds me somewhat of Alpha Male stage 3 and 4. I've also been dabbling in affirmations / stories again, using some techniques learned from Brent smith. I've been aware of some things that he brought up and I'm in the process of getting them rectified... with the major ones being pursuing and over-communicating (both caused me to lose a beautiful blonde girl some 3 years ago).
My arousal spells come and go.. the vivid dreams continue (at times containing women).
And I have a bit of a dilemma on my hands. Here goes...
The girl from the "awkward moment" asked me to go to an outdoor meetup at a swimming hole in western AR. I was reluctant to go due to the fact I work 2nd shift and it would require me to wake up very early just so I can drive down and ride over with their carpool. Well I acquiesced since I had nothing better to do on a Saturday. It was all fine and dandy at first. Me and her talked and she told me about her job at a bank where she was harassed. Then we picked up another woman which I immediately felt very attracted to. So now my simple day was turned upside down! I had the group laughing with some of the things I said and done(I can get pretty wacky when I'm wired up on caffeine!). Me and the tattoo woman talked about wine and stuff and I was telling her which wines I liked and she was making notes and stuff (note to myself... she was showing interest). I also noticed she had a huge tattoo on her back. We finally got to the swimming place, unpacked our stuff and the women changed into their bikinis with the 2 attractive ones wearing 2 piece bikinis.
The tattoo girl was asking me about San Diego (I brought up the topic) and the weather and for some odd reason, I brought up the subject of clothing optional beaches (Blacks Beach just north of La Jolla, CA is a nudist beach). I mentioned that and thought nothing of it. The subject stayed on that for a bit before it went to something else. Had I been more in the zone, I would have said something along the lines that I want to go there but I didn't. Oh well. I just don't function well on (maybe) 4 hours of sleep and a bunch of caffeine
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I just didn't feel a good connection to the 1st girl after we got to the swimming hole. We didn't have much to say to each other from then on. I'm beginning to think she didn't like me giving the other woman attention, talking about wine and other stuff. Oh well...
The tattooed woman sat by me in the car coming to and from and also in the restaurant (after the swim). I got my pic took with the women (and with another woman's camera, got another pic took with the tattoo woman).
I wanted to tell her [tattoo woman] how I felt about her but I felt rather guilty doing so since the other girl invited me to the thing to start with! Another awkward situation!
Aside from that, I did have a good day and made some new friends. Since I have been made aware of some wineries in western AR, I'm planning on a wine tasting meetup later on when it cools off somewhat.
And today, I was indirectly approached by 2 women at the pool today. They had free will to lounge anywhere else. They could have picked up the lounges and moved them to another location. (ample supply of chase lounges on the opposite side of pool) but they chose the ones next to me. And, I've been starting a Brent Smith type affirmation story about women picking me up at the apt. swimming pool. Coincidence? I think not!
I chit chatted with them for a bit before leaving to get ready for work. And then I passed by two more girls in chase lounges before I exited the area. Both were smiley at me.
The sub works and so does Brent's story affirmation method.
My arousal spells come and go.. the vivid dreams continue (at times containing women).
And I have a bit of a dilemma on my hands. Here goes...
The girl from the "awkward moment" asked me to go to an outdoor meetup at a swimming hole in western AR. I was reluctant to go due to the fact I work 2nd shift and it would require me to wake up very early just so I can drive down and ride over with their carpool. Well I acquiesced since I had nothing better to do on a Saturday. It was all fine and dandy at first. Me and her talked and she told me about her job at a bank where she was harassed. Then we picked up another woman which I immediately felt very attracted to. So now my simple day was turned upside down! I had the group laughing with some of the things I said and done(I can get pretty wacky when I'm wired up on caffeine!). Me and the tattoo woman talked about wine and stuff and I was telling her which wines I liked and she was making notes and stuff (note to myself... she was showing interest). I also noticed she had a huge tattoo on her back. We finally got to the swimming place, unpacked our stuff and the women changed into their bikinis with the 2 attractive ones wearing 2 piece bikinis.
The tattoo girl was asking me about San Diego (I brought up the topic) and the weather and for some odd reason, I brought up the subject of clothing optional beaches (Blacks Beach just north of La Jolla, CA is a nudist beach). I mentioned that and thought nothing of it. The subject stayed on that for a bit before it went to something else. Had I been more in the zone, I would have said something along the lines that I want to go there but I didn't. Oh well. I just don't function well on (maybe) 4 hours of sleep and a bunch of caffeine
. I just didn't feel a good connection to the 1st girl after we got to the swimming hole. We didn't have much to say to each other from then on. I'm beginning to think she didn't like me giving the other woman attention, talking about wine and other stuff. Oh well...
The tattooed woman sat by me in the car coming to and from and also in the restaurant (after the swim). I got my pic took with the women (and with another woman's camera, got another pic took with the tattoo woman).
I wanted to tell her [tattoo woman] how I felt about her but I felt rather guilty doing so since the other girl invited me to the thing to start with! Another awkward situation!
Aside from that, I did have a good day and made some new friends. Since I have been made aware of some wineries in western AR, I'm planning on a wine tasting meetup later on when it cools off somewhat.
And today, I was indirectly approached by 2 women at the pool today. They had free will to lounge anywhere else. They could have picked up the lounges and moved them to another location. (ample supply of chase lounges on the opposite side of pool) but they chose the ones next to me. And, I've been starting a Brent Smith type affirmation story about women picking me up at the apt. swimming pool. Coincidence? I think not!
I chit chatted with them for a bit before leaving to get ready for work. And then I passed by two more girls in chase lounges before I exited the area. Both were smiley at me.
The sub works and so does Brent's story affirmation method.
Get your pickles!!!
As a side note, "tattoo girl" knows about the LOA (law of attraction) and is also into the self help / improvement stuff. 
Good luck!
