Robstar's journal of sexual abundance

[Greenduck]

At this point I really wish I could just stop SM and start E2, like I am grateful that SM helped me attract someone that I was that into, but I can't shake the feeling that I'll never be with anyone who I find as attractive again. From the moment I saw her, she was really my perfect 10.

How ironic, I'm on E2 and I'd LOVE to have SM3 work on me and hand me a perfect 10, haha.

My point is, the grass is always greener on the other side, friend.

Keep developing yourself, with AM and SM, and you will get girls like that on the regular. She's just a physical representation of your growth so far, and future if you keep improving! Look at her that way. You got a taste of what's to come...now time to get to work!

Yeah look I'm actually not sure what feels worse, losing a girl like that or not being able to have her to begin with. They're pretty equally shit. Thanks for the support dude I really appreciate it.

Just a reflection:

Could it be that you are putting to much emphasis on yourself regarding why people act as they do? The up-side of it is that when people act good towards you, it is thanks to you, but if they don't it is because of you.

Most people around act and do things based on their own life in most cases. They think and do things just as you and I. Sometimes impossible to predict, sometimes because they had a shitty day, sometimes because they like you, sometimes because they don't like you, but they act as they do.

For me it would be stressful to think that people act as they do solely based on what I do. The only thing I can do is to be good and genuine to people, and if they act weird or negative without me actively offending them - well then it is their problem. I can only be honest, and watch my intentions to why I am doing things. Why do I say what I say? Is it to push someone down, or is it just a genuine comment without any reason behind it?

Conclusion:
If someone doesn't react as you would hope (that she would like you - because of course she would. You are not an asshole, you seem to be a nice guy) it doesn't mean that something is wrong with you. You are freakin' awesome man and just know it! A good heart is not something you see often around, and that is good enough. Maybe some effort to try to be social and find fun things to do from time to time. That is enough, I promise you! That you also are trying to improve your sexiness to make them feel even more attracted to you, well Sir you are a real maverick for making that effort for other people! So know one thing and one thing only, you are OK as you are, and even more OK because you are trying to make an effort to become better every day. If someone doesn't appreciate it either 1) it is because she have something else on her mind that you can't control 2) she isn't worth the effort.

Take care robstar!

PS.

One of my favorite authors (sounds like I have read 1000 books, not the case, just was lucky and picked out one book from a guy who I felt I liked) is Charles Bukowski. A cool guy who took things as they came, said yes to things that came his way and always knew he was OK. It was a great break from self-improvement to shed some perspective on things (Which i believe can be to much sometimes, why you sometimes need to hear a different voice from someplace else, especially if you hang around lot with one type of people where it is hard to find new perspectives).

If you want to have a fun read and get a nice perspective on life take a look at this one:
http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/51504.Post_Office

DS.