09-29-2014, 09:42 PM
(09-29-2014, 02:46 PM)DarthXedonias Wrote: Stage 4, Day 31
One more day to go on this stage. I'm looking forward to moving on the stage 4 to be honest. Even though I've gotten lots of growth out of this Stage, I'm looking forward to even more from stage 5. I do believe I might only need one more run through of AM6 to cement the results. I Believe this because I went through the bullet points for AM6 and I measured about 85% of those characteristics as strong. Also, tried watching the anime "Ghost in the shell: Arise" on netflix today and stopped watching within 5 mins. I've noticed this ever since stage 1 that I just can't really play most video games or watch most movies anymore. I mostly feel bored watching things within 5 mins of turning it on. I prefer reading fanfics or fantasy type stories nowadays.
I still watch a few movies and play a few games but they usually have a exception to them. They usually don't promote Beta-male behavior in them. One of the most amazing things that I didn't noticed change until it hit me in stage 2 was that If a show, movie, or game had a male character in it and that male character started showing obvious beta male behavior i just instantly started loosing interest in the show. I think it only shows that the suggestions a so rooted now that if I see Beta male behavior I just want to distance myself from it. I actually did this to a long time friend as well. My former friend was very successful in work and college (maintained 4.0 GPA in undergrad and is currently working on Master's) but Socially he got no where and he still had some of a ego (he was actually angry that the anthropology department got more funds than the engineering department despite the fact that these were donations given to each department; He basically looked down on fields such as psychology, history, anthropology etc, because they weren't as "scientific" as his own field).
I soon got bored with associating with him, within stage 1, because all he wanted to do was talk about "entertainment"(games, movies, shows, etc). He didn't want to talk about higher ideals to live by, self-improvement, or things that didn't affect his "personal bubble". The last straw was when shouted me down for my opinion (i was saying that not all doctor's are smart, which should be self- evident from the fact that some lose their licenses LOL), after that I just stopped talking to him really. He tries to set things for us to meet up or talk but I just respond that i'm busy with this or that.
Lastly, One other area has gotten stronger in stage 4, which is my taste in women. Before AM6 I was interested in more dominate, opinionated type women but now I totally can't stand those types. I actually like more submissive type women now. That's partly why before I settled on doing the perfect wife sub that i was contemplating doing the Submissive lover one. At this point, even though I practically have zero neediness towards sex "itself", the thing that actually turns me on now is the lead up to sex and the feelings of dominance from myself and submissiveness from the women I would be with. Its like I get some kinda of high from the idea of having all dominance in the bedroom (Minus the whips and chains) lol! Wow Shannon, I knew I was going to become Alpha and Dominant but I didn't know I was going to be into some Master and Slave **** @.@ ROFL
Good to hear about your results. Even though I am not on the alpha male sub and currently using the smoking sub I am having somewhat similar reactions to you regarding films.
I get super pissed off and angry whenever any sort of beta behavior is displayed on the screen by a male character and it becomes increasingly difficult for me to continue watching the film.
Having fun reading your journal keep it up.
