04-12-2015, 04:26 AM
Stage 2 Day 32
Well the last day of stage 2 and it's felt like I've been doing this stage for months! For the most part I've had a lot of frustrations and sexual desires with no outlet. I have been in a bad mood throughout a lot of it. A common question is "why people tend to vanish and not finish their journals when they do a magnet?". I've thought about that and as far as I can say based on my own feelings is that these things begin to feel like a waste of time when I could be doing other things. Also I don't have much desire to read other journals unless they are WM ones (or another sub
I would be using in the future) so I tend to log on very little unless a WM journal
has been updated, otherwise I really can't be bothered. I apologise if that sounds selfish but it's how I feel and I want to be as open and as accurate as possible in my journals about how I'm affected. This may well be the reason that people do disappear for a long time, there's better things to do than read forums!
As I said before I suffered a lot of frustrations and have been pretty much in a bad temper throughout. I still feel that to a point, but it isn't so bad now. What I have noticed towards the end of this stage, is that my neediness levels have really gone down, as has my interest in porn. Porn doesn't cut it with me because I find it boring and totally unsexy. As I like emotions and fun in my love life, internet porn is so far
removed from that, I just don't want to watch it. I much prefer just admiring
beautiful women on YouTube or something like that.
It's been difficult to see if there is any real attraction shown by women. Sometimes
there seems to be, like side glances or inquisitive stares and other times
nothing. It may be that the are beautiful but they're not single! However the
quality of women showing an interest in me on the online dating stuff has gone
up slightly and the ages are approaching my preferred ones, although they're still
not really attractive to me and I'm not wasting my time on any women unless
she hits that "ooh baby" spot within me.I mentioned before that I've only met
a small number of women in my entire life who hit that spot and although all but one were taken I did have an amazing time with the last, so I know how it can be and the women online are not in that league.
I've also become a bit of an obsessive over cleanliness and am cleaning my flat
almost every day when before it would go for weeks until I had the landlord
coming round to do his checks then I would have to spend a week cleaning it
all up! Now it's always ready for inspection!
Oh well onto stage 3 tomorrow..ho hum
Well the last day of stage 2 and it's felt like I've been doing this stage for months! For the most part I've had a lot of frustrations and sexual desires with no outlet. I have been in a bad mood throughout a lot of it. A common question is "why people tend to vanish and not finish their journals when they do a magnet?". I've thought about that and as far as I can say based on my own feelings is that these things begin to feel like a waste of time when I could be doing other things. Also I don't have much desire to read other journals unless they are WM ones (or another sub
I would be using in the future) so I tend to log on very little unless a WM journal
has been updated, otherwise I really can't be bothered. I apologise if that sounds selfish but it's how I feel and I want to be as open and as accurate as possible in my journals about how I'm affected. This may well be the reason that people do disappear for a long time, there's better things to do than read forums!
As I said before I suffered a lot of frustrations and have been pretty much in a bad temper throughout. I still feel that to a point, but it isn't so bad now. What I have noticed towards the end of this stage, is that my neediness levels have really gone down, as has my interest in porn. Porn doesn't cut it with me because I find it boring and totally unsexy. As I like emotions and fun in my love life, internet porn is so far
removed from that, I just don't want to watch it. I much prefer just admiring
beautiful women on YouTube or something like that.
It's been difficult to see if there is any real attraction shown by women. Sometimes
there seems to be, like side glances or inquisitive stares and other times
nothing. It may be that the are beautiful but they're not single! However the
quality of women showing an interest in me on the online dating stuff has gone
up slightly and the ages are approaching my preferred ones, although they're still
not really attractive to me and I'm not wasting my time on any women unless
she hits that "ooh baby" spot within me.I mentioned before that I've only met
a small number of women in my entire life who hit that spot and although all but one were taken I did have an amazing time with the last, so I know how it can be and the women online are not in that league.
I've also become a bit of an obsessive over cleanliness and am cleaning my flat
almost every day when before it would go for weeks until I had the landlord
coming round to do his checks then I would have to spend a week cleaning it
all up! Now it's always ready for inspection!
Oh well onto stage 3 tomorrow..ho hum
