Reality can get bent - DMSI 3.3.1-D Adventures and Musings (USLMaxx Interlude Mode)

[Have at ye]

I just might try doing that.

Either that or a 6g weight loss program once you've produced one. This, he just may very well want to try on his own, due to how much time and effort the dude's been putting into trying to shed weight with little to no results.

In other news, I tried 8:2 2ndry ASRB, and it feels fine as far as I can tell right now, back to DMSI on Friday. Also, owing to the fact that I now live alone, I think I'll try playing DMSI on my stereo system which is at the feet of my bed incidentally - I remember having done so back in, I think, 2.4 days and it seemed to have been working pretty well. Besides, I'm a bit tired of sleeping with headphones on night after night, so a change would be welcome.

[Have at ye]

Feeling very good today, did some mean bardic practice, went to hang out at my old haunt afterwards, had fun there interacting with peeps (including getting approached by a couple nice females for the purposes of chatting and stuff). This 8:2 dealio might just pan out.

I really should be getting to work on these academic translations though (still waiting on ~900 buckaroos for that, but I did get 2/3rds of the fee already, so...), so I guess I'll be hauling butt to the local university's library in the afternoons come tomorrow, to work and perhaps play at the same time. Should take a week or two, tops.

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I've been spending quite a bit of free time lately on what I like to call my sorcerer practice - mainly the reason for procrastinating on the academic trashlations. All this rule 4 and psychological stuff is just soooo fascinating (as well as useful). I'm seriously considering setting up a website or a blog to muse randomly on things I've been up to in this avenue.

[Have at ye]

Feeling very good today, outside effects of DMSIng seem to be intensifying, and - more importantly - appear to be occurring with regularity and a measure of constancy. I am noticing a definite increase in libido, as well as I'm catching whiffs of my pheromone scent signature on my clothing, with lots of that "cat urine" thingy, lol, but mixed with something musky, as well as something a little bit sweet, so I must be, once again, producing them in huge quantities.

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On the FRM front, I had a dream regarding what I call "the big one" last night, and I believe I am at the brink of getting rid of it as well as fixing any damage that's been caused by this.

Continuing at midnight, gonna be using my hi-fi stereo setup for the time being. At a fairly low, but clearly audible, volume - so that I can hear it well all around my room, but once that I can be fairly certain does not expose all of my neighbors to the sub. Hybrid, ocean surf. Max volume on the stereo, max volume on the Fiio (yeah, I've been using a USB sound card after I damaged the audio output jack in my computer, sometime around ver. 3.0.1, I think ), -35dB in foobar.

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Looks like it's Starting to Kick in

[Darkness]

How many days on DMSI, ye?

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Feeling pretty good, did my bardic practice for the day, did my exercises for the day, got some nice IOI reactions from females, experiencing physical sensations that would point to the fact that FRM is doing what it's supposed to be doing (it feels kinda like what I was experiencing on the later versions of USLMaxx. Some sort of "thick, dark" cloud seems to be appearing here and there, and feels like it's about to dissipate).

Going to be setting up my loops for the day soon, then it's three days of break (so until Tuesday).

I'm touring from Monday on, so I'll probably have very little time for anything else apart from that and DMSIing. I'm going to have to push the listening sessions up a bit earlier, due to having to be up and about very early in the AM, but that's only until Friday.

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Oh yeah, forgot about this - noticing an increased need for sleep. Right now, about 10hrs/day seems to be what's necessary. Also noticing that I'm having NocWood (stealing that term from RTBoss, hehehe) pretty much throughout the night.

Thing dose up the need for sleep

[Have at ye]

How many days on DMSI, ye?

I think I'm beginning the 4th session of 3.3.1D, so that would make around 30 days, give or take?

I believe some rule 4 thingy thingies got attracted to me tonight (I'm currently on the 4th loop) - they got blocked, but it did wake me up. I retaliated because I'm a big, big meanie.

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New forums, wow.

Some stuff I've noticed: since switching to stereo hi-fi playback, the sub has been impacting me waaay more noticeably than when I used headphones (and it was doing so quite noticeably on the headphones, so that's saying something). It's not always pleasant, mind you (and seems to be waking me up a bit every now and again), but it seems to be doing good work. F. in. I'd sometimes get the urge for a little bit of "hand release" of tension ( ), especially when I can't sleep, but in a matter of seconds another part of me (the one that's responding to the sub positively, I'd wager) says "nuh-uh" so I don't, or I'd get the urge to lower the volume (even though it is not that loud as it is) to something I can barely hear, then not a minute later I'm like, "lol, no, why", and set it back up to where it was. All wonky sensation I'd get when using the sub are intensified when I'm playing it on 'em hi-fi speakers at the current settings. I also get glimpses of what I assume to be full "morphine drip" every now and again, usually during the first two loops of the day.

Outside results seem to be continuing to accrue. My knee-jerk fear-based reactions, in general, seem to have decreased significantly overall. My presence is definitely very... strong. People seem to be taking notice of me a fair bit wherever I go.

I am noticing that I now am doing "symbolic visualization" that's related to fear removal, as well as "transmutative absorption" (I especially like doing it when I go to visit my "old haunt" after bardic practice, by which I mean the conservatory I used to attend, haha - it's on the way and it's got plentiful lovely ladies ) automatically when I'm up and about and am not otherwise engaged in anything that requires focus (f. in. commuting, standing in lines when shopping, etc.). One amusing thing I noticed - that conductor who was being unpleasant to me back on ver. 3.2, because a girl he liked hit on me? He did not even return my hello today. Twice. Some people.

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Oh, I'd almost forget - got an offer of two paying gigs in nice company out of the blue today, two months from now. Neat.

[Have at ye]

The goin's pretty good, as far as I can tell. FRM is still working on something, judging from how I'm responding to the loops each night, but I guess it's gotta do its thing before full-out results start showing up (otherwise, externals keep accruing unabated, and consistently so). Also making tons of progress as far as both bardic and sorcerer practices are concerned. Looootsa progress.

Keep calm and conquer all, hehehe.

Continuing with 8:2 2ndary ASRB, so still going to listen to DMSI tonight, and then on break until Monday. Next week I'm touring for three days, and it's an away tour to boot - in crappy company, but watchagonnado. Going to pack my DMSI to go - if the I deem the hotel walls thick enough, I'll be playing the hybrid track on my crappy phone's speakers overnight. If I deem them unsatisfactory, I'll be doing the loops using earbuds, but I'd rather avoid this as earbuds tend to fall out or get loose during sleep.

Couldn't stop listening to Danzig's "Mother" today. Totally felt like dancing to the tune, too.

[Have at ye]

The "like" button looks to have made a comeback. I like it.

Continuing DMSIng since yesternight, touring from tomorrow, hopefully I'll be able to fit all of my loops in. If not, well, I'll do my best to listen to as many as I can. Because something seems to have shifted, and now my response to actively listening to DMSI is a bit different (I find it way more pleasant), so probably the FRM has done some more work and things are kicking into gear. Outside results continuing as they did, hopefully they'll level up soon. Unfortunately, my sleeping cycle is kinda bonkers and I overslept for my personal bardic practice today. Happens.

EDIT: Oh yeah, I think I once again attracted some rule 4 thingies, but this time they were trying to trick me into something instead of being direct. Subconsciously, I almost fell for it (it was happening within something of a lucid dream) - but soon after I woke up, thought about it, noticed what's up and rescinded.

Have been doing lots of sorcerer practice-related stuff this weekend. I have some new tricks and ideas.

Postmodern random musing of the day: consider the so-called "social contract" and the concept of "general will", as per Rosseau. Thing is, I fail to remember signing anything. So if "the social contract", as formed through the "general will", is a form of an a priori set of polticial/hierarchical/behavioral rules - in which you have no say, as you are placed into a situation where you are expected to follow it (by being born into a particular society, with its forms of governance, standards, etc.) without actually having much of a say as to what it stipulates, well, that's not really a contract in which you participate willingly - that's a form of enforcement.

[Have at ye]

Managed to get all of my loops in, hybrid trickling stream on my phone. I actually kinda liked it, seems like the volume agreed with me. So maybe I'll stick to this setup for some time.

[Have at ye]

Since about yesterday, I've been feeling... sad. Not angry or anxious or depressed, but sad. My current operating theory is that FRM's dealt with pretty much all of the Big 'Ol One fear, and now I'm having this particular reaction to the program because the effects of this fear (or rather the damage caused by it) are now being dealt with. It's similar to what I was feeling after about 4 months (IIRC) on ver. 3.2, but it tended to turn into a vicious circle type of situation back then. Hopefully this time around it won't.

Otherwise, outside effects are still as they had been up to this point on this version.

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Hmm.

There's a good chance I've been playing the sub waaaay too loud for a very long time. We'll see in time.

In other news, I had, once again, ran into a situation in which someone is trying to convince me of something that simply is not true at all, regarding myself, and I had an angry/depressive reaction to this. But I think I'm mostly through with it - I did experience a whole lot of doubt that I may be wrong (because that's what I've been trained to do - someone tells me something, I must accept this as true even though it's not), but what's true is true, and what isn't - isn't, and that's that.

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The going's good, methinks, I feel good. Continuing.

Today I had another one of these "song I cannot stop listening to" types of deals, severe enough in scope that I believe it to be significant (of... something? Dunno yet, I'll probably gain more clarity with time). I've probably listened to this song about a hundred times today already, and I still kinda feel like playing it now, haha. Here's the song: