Sometimes I wonder if OF-5G unleashed my sexual fears due to which all of this happening.. Then I wonder what will DMSI do?
I really hope I don't become the next Dzemoo. Cause my family rule 4 type and rule 4 matters me on some level.
If I run DMSI 6G in future then I am sure there will be a huge conflict in my subconscious between Rule 4 and DMSI.... I am kinda scared if u ask me. After discovering who I really am after running OF-5G.
I was Addicted to Masturbation and Softcore Pornography...The amount of guilt and shame I would feel after fapping was huge that I would be lifeless for 3-4 days. But after using OF-5G for 3 month. If I fap then it hardly effects me and porn seems fake..
So I tried Stop Masturbation sub for stopping my Masturbation but in made me fap like crazy cause of resistance. I asked Shannon and he told me I have a lot of fears related to sex and women... He was so damn right. Cause After using it Women wanna become my fuck buddies. They send me their pic and all. I don't have any female friends in real life cause I home all day. I can tell you if I step out and made some female friends.. They would suck the life out of me. I can see how few of them respond... The only reason I used OF-5G so that I can remove fears and then SM-4G will work on me... But I guess that's plan is out of the window as during my journey I found out that I need to express this energy in other's form and it can't be suppressed.... I have no Idea what I am going to do next.. I am going with the flow.. Weather I use SM-4G in future or DMSI... Is undecided. Right now I need to learn how to learn all other shit by using MLS-5.5G...
I really hope I don't become the next Dzemoo. Cause my family rule 4 type and rule 4 matters me on some level.
If I run DMSI 6G in future then I am sure there will be a huge conflict in my subconscious between Rule 4 and DMSI.... I am kinda scared if u ask me. After discovering who I really am after running OF-5G.
I was Addicted to Masturbation and Softcore Pornography...The amount of guilt and shame I would feel after fapping was huge that I would be lifeless for 3-4 days. But after using OF-5G for 3 month. If I fap then it hardly effects me and porn seems fake..
So I tried Stop Masturbation sub for stopping my Masturbation but in made me fap like crazy cause of resistance. I asked Shannon and he told me I have a lot of fears related to sex and women... He was so damn right. Cause After using it Women wanna become my fuck buddies. They send me their pic and all. I don't have any female friends in real life cause I home all day. I can tell you if I step out and made some female friends.. They would suck the life out of me. I can see how few of them respond... The only reason I used OF-5G so that I can remove fears and then SM-4G will work on me... But I guess that's plan is out of the window as during my journey I found out that I need to express this energy in other's form and it can't be suppressed.... I have no Idea what I am going to do next.. I am going with the flow.. Weather I use SM-4G in future or DMSI... Is undecided. Right now I need to learn how to learn all other shit by using MLS-5.5G...
