I had no intention of running Overcoming Fear v4, at least not right now. But apparently that is what is happening...
The Prequel: I have done full runs of Overcoming Fear versions 1, 2, and 3 (I did cut version 2 a couple of weeks short in prep for version 3.) Early this year, as my OF run was coming to a close, Universal Healing had been published. I was intrigued by this title, and bought a copy. Around this same time, however, I was basically sidelined by several medical issues.
Even so, I kept trying to run UH. I keep a record of my on and off days with a sub on my calendar so I can keep track of my listening cycle. My calendar at this time is littered with attempts to run UH, starting , stopping, no pattern whatsoever. I think it's safe to say that my energy levels at the time were extremely low, my emotional state was out of balance, and my thinking was, shall we say, clouded.
During this time, Shannon had begun working on OF v4, and posting about his progress. Now, I have had the experience in the past of, while I'm running one sub, a new sub is coming out, and I want to switch (sub-hopping.) And so when the same thing happened with OF v4, I talked myself out of it.
Now, some people on the forum have been talking about TID from OF v4, and I have experienced it myself in the past before starting a sub. However, in retrospect, I now think the feeling of wanting to switch to OF v4 was TID. It had such an emotional intensity, such a different quality from the other TID, and certainly a whole other feeling from the impulse to sub-hop.
At this point, though, I decided to keep running UH while my physical/mental/emotional systems had a chance to normalize. And I'm glad I did...
It was about at this point that I figured that maybe I had been running subs at, what was for me, sub-optimal (get it? LOL!) levels. I reckoned that, even though I had some results with earlier versions of OF, I had been using the wrong format at the wrong volume. So in continuing my use of Universal Healing, I switched from Hybrid to Ultrasonic, and lowered the volume. And what a difference it made.
I started having dreams right away. The first couple nights, it was just vague surroundings with random people. Night three, I dreamed there was a cooler with beer that was for a special celebration, and a couple people came along and each took a beer. I started after them, saying “hey, put those back,” and the dream ended there. The next night I was somewhere (and all these dreams seem to be outside somehow) and I was supposed to attend a class, but I was in the wrong place. I could see where my class was, and so I started off in that direction, and the dream ended there.
Both these dreams seemed to be about 'taking an action,' but were not focused on results. And indeed in real life, I saw that they had an “overcome-procrastination-type” effect on me.
The fifth night, I dreamed I was cleaning up a work area that was outside. There was a wooden fence on one side, and behind it were acres of hunks of rusted metal, weeds, and uprooted dead trees. In my dream, I thought “I should clean that up,” and then immediately realized that, whether it was my stuff, or someone else's stuff, I should not do that, because I would have to cross a boundary (the fence) to do so. (This last dream harks back to a dream I had while running OF v1. In that dream, I was in a concrete courtyard of a school or office building. Police were running all around the courtyard and building, obviously looking for someone. At that point someone from my past walked up to me, and held out a burlap sack, which I knew was filled with bad things. The metaphor here seemed to be that if I willingly took on other people's “stuff,” I'd get in trouble with “the law.” So, another boundary lesson.
Meanwhile, back at Universal Healing, I had another dream. Pretty much the usual, it's outdoors, stuff going on, and in this one, there was some guy sitting behind a random desk. So I'm just looking around, and when I look back at the desk, the guy is gone. This one was a little more subtle, but as I thought about it upon awakening, I realized that In my dream, just the fact of him sitting behind a desk
had made me assume that the guy was some sort of authority, knew something, was somebody, etc. In other words, how my attitudes, beliefs, etc. create imaginary boundaries.
Some of you are probably thinking, 'Hey! I thought this was an Overcoming Fear v4 journal! What's going on?'
Everything is material. Everything leaves a trace, a residue. And everything is connected. You can get a refund if you like. I'm going to take a little breather before I continue...
The Prequel: I have done full runs of Overcoming Fear versions 1, 2, and 3 (I did cut version 2 a couple of weeks short in prep for version 3.) Early this year, as my OF run was coming to a close, Universal Healing had been published. I was intrigued by this title, and bought a copy. Around this same time, however, I was basically sidelined by several medical issues.
Even so, I kept trying to run UH. I keep a record of my on and off days with a sub on my calendar so I can keep track of my listening cycle. My calendar at this time is littered with attempts to run UH, starting , stopping, no pattern whatsoever. I think it's safe to say that my energy levels at the time were extremely low, my emotional state was out of balance, and my thinking was, shall we say, clouded.
During this time, Shannon had begun working on OF v4, and posting about his progress. Now, I have had the experience in the past of, while I'm running one sub, a new sub is coming out, and I want to switch (sub-hopping.) And so when the same thing happened with OF v4, I talked myself out of it.
Now, some people on the forum have been talking about TID from OF v4, and I have experienced it myself in the past before starting a sub. However, in retrospect, I now think the feeling of wanting to switch to OF v4 was TID. It had such an emotional intensity, such a different quality from the other TID, and certainly a whole other feeling from the impulse to sub-hop.
At this point, though, I decided to keep running UH while my physical/mental/emotional systems had a chance to normalize. And I'm glad I did...
It was about at this point that I figured that maybe I had been running subs at, what was for me, sub-optimal (get it? LOL!) levels. I reckoned that, even though I had some results with earlier versions of OF, I had been using the wrong format at the wrong volume. So in continuing my use of Universal Healing, I switched from Hybrid to Ultrasonic, and lowered the volume. And what a difference it made.
I started having dreams right away. The first couple nights, it was just vague surroundings with random people. Night three, I dreamed there was a cooler with beer that was for a special celebration, and a couple people came along and each took a beer. I started after them, saying “hey, put those back,” and the dream ended there. The next night I was somewhere (and all these dreams seem to be outside somehow) and I was supposed to attend a class, but I was in the wrong place. I could see where my class was, and so I started off in that direction, and the dream ended there.
Both these dreams seemed to be about 'taking an action,' but were not focused on results. And indeed in real life, I saw that they had an “overcome-procrastination-type” effect on me.
The fifth night, I dreamed I was cleaning up a work area that was outside. There was a wooden fence on one side, and behind it were acres of hunks of rusted metal, weeds, and uprooted dead trees. In my dream, I thought “I should clean that up,” and then immediately realized that, whether it was my stuff, or someone else's stuff, I should not do that, because I would have to cross a boundary (the fence) to do so. (This last dream harks back to a dream I had while running OF v1. In that dream, I was in a concrete courtyard of a school or office building. Police were running all around the courtyard and building, obviously looking for someone. At that point someone from my past walked up to me, and held out a burlap sack, which I knew was filled with bad things. The metaphor here seemed to be that if I willingly took on other people's “stuff,” I'd get in trouble with “the law.” So, another boundary lesson.
Meanwhile, back at Universal Healing, I had another dream. Pretty much the usual, it's outdoors, stuff going on, and in this one, there was some guy sitting behind a random desk. So I'm just looking around, and when I look back at the desk, the guy is gone. This one was a little more subtle, but as I thought about it upon awakening, I realized that In my dream, just the fact of him sitting behind a desk
had made me assume that the guy was some sort of authority, knew something, was somebody, etc. In other words, how my attitudes, beliefs, etc. create imaginary boundaries.
Some of you are probably thinking, 'Hey! I thought this was an Overcoming Fear v4 journal! What's going on?'
Everything is material. Everything leaves a trace, a residue. And everything is connected. You can get a refund if you like. I'm going to take a little breather before I continue...
The banquet you enjoy depends on what you bring to the table.