02-13-2023, 09:10 AM
On first day of break (two days ago), I had the desire to play one loop of OGSF again as my last break. I had this feeling that it will take care of heightened stress levels but also will be beneficial to the work I do with this program.
I observed that the days off are tougher than the days I listen to the program.
Second day of my break I woke up with heightened stress levels. I decided to run the ASR for 55 minutes and I felt way better afterwards.
I have been eating a lot more and a lot of comfort food the last week, chocolates, cheese and anything tasty. I feel scared when I am outside like people will attack me and I get into imaginative loops all the time with what I will do, fight do this, do that. It is not something unfamiliar with me. It gets triggered once a month but not for several days like now.
Today (3rd day of break), stress is higher than general. If you would ask me right now what the best listening pattern would have been to me is 3-4-4-3-1-1-0-0. I will of course not changing my listening loop but the indications so far tell me that there is an adjustment needed at some point. Not that this schedule doesn't work but a different would be more efficient both for smoother stress management, acceptance of the program by my mind (so that it works better) and for the workings of it. That's what I think, that's what I tell, can't know for sure if I am right or wrong.
I observed that the days off are tougher than the days I listen to the program.
Second day of my break I woke up with heightened stress levels. I decided to run the ASR for 55 minutes and I felt way better afterwards.
I have been eating a lot more and a lot of comfort food the last week, chocolates, cheese and anything tasty. I feel scared when I am outside like people will attack me and I get into imaginative loops all the time with what I will do, fight do this, do that. It is not something unfamiliar with me. It gets triggered once a month but not for several days like now.
Today (3rd day of break), stress is higher than general. If you would ask me right now what the best listening pattern would have been to me is 3-4-4-3-1-1-0-0. I will of course not changing my listening loop but the indications so far tell me that there is an adjustment needed at some point. Not that this schedule doesn't work but a different would be more efficient both for smoother stress management, acceptance of the program by my mind (so that it works better) and for the workings of it. That's what I think, that's what I tell, can't know for sure if I am right or wrong.
