d27: Been feeling some incredible wisdom inside me for the past week, it's something I have noticed a few times in my past but my insecurity and negativity has drowned it completely. I am currently reading "The seduction bible" and I feel that some things are completely in tune with me, especially the part where he mentions the men who have had the guts to make a true difference in the evolution of the thinking of mankind. The exploration of the "unexplainable" or socially unacceptable. I consider LOA as one of those things that man has yet to fully understand, and many other subjects that most scientists (or most people) discard for the fear of being taken for a fool.
I like this part, there is still a big list of things that need to be sorted out, but I feel like light is being shone on some areas. I am currently doing meditation and BWE to aid with my daily mental state and it's working great.
I still have no clue how to exactly tackle my emotions, nor can I find the guts to face my fears, but I see changes in my thinking every now and then.
I have decided to drink alcohol when I'm in a good mood. Not when I'm in an emotionally destructive state to just drown those feelings. Having a drink right now actually.
EDIT: I have been on edge for a long time and I have tried to work with it recently. It's like there's this excess energy in my body, feels like I am constantly in battle with myself, resistance. And that isn't just something from a subliminal usage, I've had this since I can remember. I think that's what has kept me from being calm in the past and enjoying a single moment.
I have started to pinpoint this and instead of fighting myself, I'm going more with the "surrender" attitude. Meditation really helps with this. Instead of beating myself up constantly (which is the habit) I let it go when I can, although now that I am focusing on it, it has become magnified.
I like this part, there is still a big list of things that need to be sorted out, but I feel like light is being shone on some areas. I am currently doing meditation and BWE to aid with my daily mental state and it's working great.
I still have no clue how to exactly tackle my emotions, nor can I find the guts to face my fears, but I see changes in my thinking every now and then.
I have decided to drink alcohol when I'm in a good mood. Not when I'm in an emotionally destructive state to just drown those feelings. Having a drink right now actually.
EDIT: I have been on edge for a long time and I have tried to work with it recently. It's like there's this excess energy in my body, feels like I am constantly in battle with myself, resistance. And that isn't just something from a subliminal usage, I've had this since I can remember. I think that's what has kept me from being calm in the past and enjoying a single moment.
I have started to pinpoint this and instead of fighting myself, I'm going more with the "surrender" attitude. Meditation really helps with this. Instead of beating myself up constantly (which is the habit) I let it go when I can, although now that I am focusing on it, it has become magnified.
