Day 19: I have to agree with those who say that stage 1 is a challenge. I am starting to get what Shannon meant by it "cornering you" to motivate you to change. I feel stuck and I am sick of not doing bigger things. If I would use even 50% of my time productively towards one big goal, that would be a massive change.
My mood is not the best, it's like I'm zen at times and then drop a bit lower to depression the other times. Reading is going slow but the book I'm reading is fascinating, it's basically telling me that all I ever knew about women was so wrong and even if I got interest from them it wouldn't have taken me any place good relationship wise.
I also get bored of every woman quite quick, it's like if I show interest one day and maybe another, a few days later I don't even want to be in a same room with them. I know it's got something to do with guilt and shame, just not sure what exactly.
My mood is not the best, it's like I'm zen at times and then drop a bit lower to depression the other times. Reading is going slow but the book I'm reading is fascinating, it's basically telling me that all I ever knew about women was so wrong and even if I got interest from them it wouldn't have taken me any place good relationship wise.
I also get bored of every woman quite quick, it's like if I show interest one day and maybe another, a few days later I don't even want to be in a same room with them. I know it's got something to do with guilt and shame, just not sure what exactly.
INFP-T
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
