07-19-2014, 07:49 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-22-2014, 04:37 PM by Why So Serious?.)
Hello,
I started using this 14 days ago and what happened was mind blowing.
At day 10 I was feeling down and went to the car to cry. I realized that I couldn't do anything about my grandmothers suffering before she died.
I shouldn't have been me in her place. Stuff like that happens and you just learn to accept it. That doesn't mean I won't get sad whenever I think about it. I have the right to be sad, but I shouldn't be twisting that situation around wishing it was me.
When that happened I realized that I am responsible for my own emotions. I should be waiting around for people to ask if I'm okay or to have pity parties either. This means that other people should be responsible theirs. I can't make another person happy that is up to them. I'm not worried about other peoples problems at all. Now if they want my help that's fine just speak up I might help. Don't expect me to be mind reader and automatically expect that I know something is wrong.
It's okay to feel bad and admit that everything is not okay. I can't pretend everything is okay 24/7. It's okay to feel pain sometimes and show emotion. Progress doesn't happen when you "pretend" everything is alright. I'm still having problems with showing emotions but I'm pretty sure I can fix that in the near future.
After day 10
I have been a little bit more (grounded, centered) lately. Been giving people more hugs which is very unusual for me.
I'm starting to realize that I'm not as boring as I thought I was. I can be pretty entertaining to be around.
I don't have health issues as bad as Stephen Hawking, but being slow and forgetful makes you wonder if someone will ever want to put up with those shortcomings for a long period of time. I don't know I had the thought appear in my head that If Stephen Hawking can find love so can I.
Body image is improving a little. Still need to exercise though
I feel like my brain is balancing out. Like I'm using a bit more logic when making decisions and less emotion.
So far so good. I have made a little progress. I still have a long way to go but so far I'm impressed.
I started using this 14 days ago and what happened was mind blowing.
At day 10 I was feeling down and went to the car to cry. I realized that I couldn't do anything about my grandmothers suffering before she died.
I shouldn't have been me in her place. Stuff like that happens and you just learn to accept it. That doesn't mean I won't get sad whenever I think about it. I have the right to be sad, but I shouldn't be twisting that situation around wishing it was me.
When that happened I realized that I am responsible for my own emotions. I should be waiting around for people to ask if I'm okay or to have pity parties either. This means that other people should be responsible theirs. I can't make another person happy that is up to them. I'm not worried about other peoples problems at all. Now if they want my help that's fine just speak up I might help. Don't expect me to be mind reader and automatically expect that I know something is wrong.
It's okay to feel bad and admit that everything is not okay. I can't pretend everything is okay 24/7. It's okay to feel pain sometimes and show emotion. Progress doesn't happen when you "pretend" everything is alright. I'm still having problems with showing emotions but I'm pretty sure I can fix that in the near future.
After day 10
I have been a little bit more (grounded, centered) lately. Been giving people more hugs which is very unusual for me.
I'm starting to realize that I'm not as boring as I thought I was. I can be pretty entertaining to be around.
I don't have health issues as bad as Stephen Hawking, but being slow and forgetful makes you wonder if someone will ever want to put up with those shortcomings for a long period of time. I don't know I had the thought appear in my head that If Stephen Hawking can find love so can I.
Body image is improving a little. Still need to exercise though
I feel like my brain is balancing out. Like I'm using a bit more logic when making decisions and less emotion.
So far so good. I have made a little progress. I still have a long way to go but so far I'm impressed.