10-15-2016, 01:39 PM
Wow, I feel so relieved and loose right now about having finished E2. Like just knowing that I have a week free of having to squeeze in hours feels nice!
The great thing is that DMSI 2.4 only needs 5 loops so that's about 5 consecutive hours. It should be easier to get in than what I've been doing with E2.
Here's a short review of what I overall think of E2. If this changes a week from now, I'll add on to it.
Review
At first, it seemed like nothing was happening when I started E2. I didn't feel that bad. Over time, it got worse. I felt worse and worse. First it was ridiculous rage towards girls in general. Then it was dealing with things that happened in the past, then boredom, then lack of a social life, then thinking of all I've done and how I'm not where I felt I should have been, then more current circumstances and how bleak they look. As Shannon said, it cuts open the wound and it has to get worse before it can get better.
I had SERIOUS doubts the sub did anything for me. SERIOUS, SERIOUS doubt that I'd ever break the barrier that holds me back. As of right now I don't feel that way anymore. I saw my astrology chart, which I thought was going to say that I'm stuck with a bad life, but from what I read from it and what others commented, it says that I have great potential, I can be incredibly powerful and successfull. I just need to let go of the past and that all of the pain that I've been through from my past is what sets me up to transform and overcome and become powerful. I need to let go of the past first before that can happen.
And funny enough, this week has been the best week I've been on E2 in a very long time. And seeing now as how my sex drive seems to have been spiked, DMSI is in the middle of testing, how I see concrete changes with how others socially interact with me, and how soon after I decided to get off E2 my everything in my life quickly seemed to get better, the sub is definitely leading me to move on.
The most concrete change is how sometimes guys will open doors for me or say something like "have a good one" while I get off the elevator. It's subtle, but it's respect. I never got this kind of response without using mones. Even though it was much more consistent and frequent with mones, just that I'm getting this kind of response at all without them really shows change (Haven't used mones at all in a really long time).
Also, sometimes female workers or random girls will have initiate short convos with me. I'd assume in the past that meant she wanted me since it never happened, but that doesn't seem to be the case or I'm just expecting something more obvious. Anyhow, in the past, girls never initiated convos with me before I started wearing mones. If they were a friend, then yeah, but never randoms.
Seeing the subtle, but noticeable changes in social responses from a program not even focused on that really makes me think that Shannon will get DMSI to execute it's goal scripting. I look forward to providing feedback. I plan on doing 2.4 for at least a month, maybe until 3.0 is out. Will be starting 10/22.
The great thing is that DMSI 2.4 only needs 5 loops so that's about 5 consecutive hours. It should be easier to get in than what I've been doing with E2.
Here's a short review of what I overall think of E2. If this changes a week from now, I'll add on to it.
Review
At first, it seemed like nothing was happening when I started E2. I didn't feel that bad. Over time, it got worse. I felt worse and worse. First it was ridiculous rage towards girls in general. Then it was dealing with things that happened in the past, then boredom, then lack of a social life, then thinking of all I've done and how I'm not where I felt I should have been, then more current circumstances and how bleak they look. As Shannon said, it cuts open the wound and it has to get worse before it can get better.
I had SERIOUS doubts the sub did anything for me. SERIOUS, SERIOUS doubt that I'd ever break the barrier that holds me back. As of right now I don't feel that way anymore. I saw my astrology chart, which I thought was going to say that I'm stuck with a bad life, but from what I read from it and what others commented, it says that I have great potential, I can be incredibly powerful and successfull. I just need to let go of the past and that all of the pain that I've been through from my past is what sets me up to transform and overcome and become powerful. I need to let go of the past first before that can happen.
And funny enough, this week has been the best week I've been on E2 in a very long time. And seeing now as how my sex drive seems to have been spiked, DMSI is in the middle of testing, how I see concrete changes with how others socially interact with me, and how soon after I decided to get off E2 my everything in my life quickly seemed to get better, the sub is definitely leading me to move on.
The most concrete change is how sometimes guys will open doors for me or say something like "have a good one" while I get off the elevator. It's subtle, but it's respect. I never got this kind of response without using mones. Even though it was much more consistent and frequent with mones, just that I'm getting this kind of response at all without them really shows change (Haven't used mones at all in a really long time).
Also, sometimes female workers or random girls will have initiate short convos with me. I'd assume in the past that meant she wanted me since it never happened, but that doesn't seem to be the case or I'm just expecting something more obvious. Anyhow, in the past, girls never initiated convos with me before I started wearing mones. If they were a friend, then yeah, but never randoms.
Seeing the subtle, but noticeable changes in social responses from a program not even focused on that really makes me think that Shannon will get DMSI to execute it's goal scripting. I look forward to providing feedback. I plan on doing 2.4 for at least a month, maybe until 3.0 is out. Will be starting 10/22.
